Im not good enough.
Never have been, never will be.
Maybe she was right about me.
All those times I cried into my pillow at night.
I deserved it alright.
Why do I even fight.
Im not alright.
Never have been, never will be.
Maybe she was right.
I failed myself, and all of you.
I try I really do.
Would it be better for you if I wasn't here?
I wish for your sake that I could disappear.
You wouldn't have to see me.
You wouldn't have to speak to me.
You wouldn't have to tolerate me anymore.
Would you thank me?
Would you miss me?
No, you barley even noticed me...

Scissors cut like knives, and I know I will not live to see the sun rise
But before my demise I want to address something true.
I really did love you.
**** I still do.
Even though it was true, every fucken thing they said about you.
They said I couldn't trust you, I know its true, but i do.
I trust every word, **** i still think i know you.
They said your ugly, i know its true, but not to me.
I would **** just to see you smile, ******* i still want you.
They said you would hurt me.
Its true, I know its true.
You do, but i don't mind.
You can use me, I'll just pretend im fine.
As long as your happy I don't give a **** what's true.
Goodbye now, im through, i just wanted you to know that I forgive you.

Scratch my eyes out, make me blind.
Your sweet lies control my mind.
I shutter as you grab me from behind.
Puppet master, turning my life into a disaster.
I pray for the end to come faster.
Take my hand, and show me pain.
Take my heart, and drive me insane.
With you there is nothing to gain.
I give, you take.
Everyday a new heartbreak.
Everything about you is so fake.
I say cut out my eyes.
Keep telling me lies.
I still let you between my thighs.
I tell myself its not fair, but in reality I'll always be there.
How stupid of me to think you really care.

I see the black snake of death.
As it suffocates me and steals my breath I see the word lies written across it’s neck.
Gulping coughing choking on regret, but the serpent tells me not to fret.
Twisting tying constricting my soul.
It won't let go.
Manipulation cold contemplation has led to this aggravation, and my ******* lack of hesitation.
Tears fall without grace, the snake and I now face to face.
Its hollow eyes take me in, drench me in unholy sin.
Gagged and rotten are the teeth of death.
It’s jaw unhinges and I see the tunnel leading me straight to hell.
I once was an angel but slowly I fell.
Crashing to the darkness below, I am forever here to dwell.

Doctor help me
give me the pill
the prescription
the fix it all
I’ll buy into the system
just take away the feeling
the shrink he says somethings wrong with me
its my brain
please Doctor
I’m begging  
scam me
give me the drug
the prescription
the fix it all
make me numb
and you could be numb too
we all have a problem
we all have a disorder
we are all bipolar, attention deficit, borderline or depressed
you see there is a name for your problems and a pill that can solve them
now you're hooked too huh?
now you buy into the system
its an ugly addiction
we’re all addicted to the high
addicted to the ****** the Lithium the Prozac
the antidepressants and the mood stabilizers
we all live and breath the fix it all system
over diagnosed zombies
lacking responsibility we beg
Doctor help me
tell me somethings wrong with me
tell me its not my fault
tell me you will give me my fix it all

this feeling
its the memory of pain
its loneliness
its shame
its the drive to cut
its the need to disappear
I hate it
it wont let me be happy