Your understandable uncertainty
is messing with both you and what I get to see.
I haven't and I have done stuff I may regret,
felt things that may have gone unsaid.

You're like a pack of smokes,
attractive to young blokes,
expensive and rewarding
yet a tad bad.

In time I'll know if she will be
the last unhealthy
cigarette for me.

It's fair to say I need you
but out of sight means out of mind
I can't be the one who's left behind.

I'll never know what to do
If you don't tell me what you want
I can't
just wait, just be, I need to know
where it is you want to go.

I could have kept on asking
You could have kept on masking
what you wish for in this life.

Five vague no's for all my tries
while one clear one could suffice.

I've been writing inconsistently,
way too much for you to see.
So until now I have denied
that there is no one else, I lied.

I am connected to a sense of reason
sensing the origin of treason.
I did what had to be done
it worked, you thought you won.

I did not win either by the way,
but I got her attention on replay.

I dread the times in our near future.
Time will soon be running out
and I'll have to let things go without a pout.

I wish I'd been working harder, I wish I had
my priorities in line. In the end it'll all be just fine.

I hopped off without regret
things unknowingly were said
and my mind can't comprehend
why my thumb pressed send.

Closer, I get pushed away
farther, I get pulled back in
and every other day
one of us can get a win.

You're playing games, it seems
and your mind works in experienced teams.

Leave me be, I've seen enough
maybe I'll get back to it
when one of us returns less rough.

Let it be, it's not that big of a deal
I trust you'll know how to seal
the past and let it go.

You're stronger than you think
You'll see the weaker link
destroy it and be free.

You can be anything you want to be
so turn it back around
and get your feet back off the ground.

My thoughts are more or less devoured
by that time my tea went sour
not a single hour
passes without it crossing my unfortunate mind

Yeah I know I have been kind
and I know you don't really care.
But it's a heavy cross for me to bear.

I know I will be sane again
and that I can be your loving man.

I just wish you hadn't made that joke
cause that's the moment wherein I broke.