We fell asleep
Very close, together.
I assured you we could doze
off.
Without obligations
declarations
just sensations.
Still ambiguous, gray, but stronger
I kinda wished you'd stay
longer.
We fell asleep
after watching without missing
without kissing.
Close.
We fell asleep.

We fell asleep
Not that far away, separated.
I assured you
You could come and stay.
Gray
Areas, ambiguous designs,
My common sense resigns
Denies its whole existence
Evaded
Its persistence.
We fell asleep
After talking without touching
Without walking
Closer
We fell asleep.

The conditions have changed
the setup however has not.

I couldn't paint her in words and red
I could never explain in art what lead
her to me in this landscape of green and rain.
Her lake has a thousand colours,
her shapes would consist of every shape there is.

She is more than just the colours and the shapes
she is more than flesh and blood in covering drapes.

But she disappears every morning to return again at night.
She slips away comes right back slightly less prominent.

On that second day we are,
as free of risk as any day, but unaware
of the button to replay.

So we mutter on about
take it as it goes, what comes, he knows
whatever it is it'll be the right route.

And knowing is what lead me to her bed,
predicting as it was, seconds before, in my head.
I never told her what it was. I just accepted it.

Unreal it seemed, I'd do the same
just to see their affection. They came,
lined up as friends or family. I went,
when others weren't looking.

Little dots of light and energy, ready
to be little dots in some place new,
spreading their light and energy
and dottiness and the love they grew.

I wish to be a dot one day
but I have years to come.

Sometimes I run on grass to feel
the end of every story. I imagine
myself crawling on a sandy surface.
Breaks to plan steps or get a meal.
The schedule is without a finishing sin,
the road without a mark and helpless.

Are you waiting or
are you making efforts.

Are you running, is what I ask myself.
Motionless for more than hours I would reject,
even if you and I, we would connect.

I'll treat you as deserved when movement is observed.
I'll kiss you if you make your path.
Likewise you surround me as in lonely matter.
If I keep running you can call that my wrath.