You let me scream, silently,
when I am not allowed to be so loud.

A portal to my inner sanctum,
every word closer to catharsis,
every letter less unsure of who I am.

A sentence is enough to give me shivers
when it's late, I'm tired and I need someone
to talk to.

Keep me sane, keep me going
whenever there is nothing left to gain,
hold my hand, caress my hair,
tell me to shush when I feel the need to swear.

Embrace me when I'm cold, when I
need someone to hold, at night
when I'm losing light, frightened
by a veil of darkness, covering me.

Cover me like my blanket on
a cold december night, in snow,
in may, when it's really time to go,
stay with me, hold my hand, don't refrain,
keep me going, keep me sane.

We are not good people, I
don't know why
I never showed up or you
say the opposite you do.

It's like being outside and seeing
birds fly, but not being jealous
anymore. It bit me, struck me, hit me
I don't need to float around.
I'll stay right here, on the ground.
A little closer to the core.

The conversation is different
I would have told you anything,
some of the words, they sting
you seem more indifferent

You did this.

The face, it feels like home, tossing
eyes, gazing through the room,
connecting visions, wire crossing.

I saw you first, before others cared or noticed.

As if, one moment and the next,
as if you zoom in and all else fades
as if you consume my field of view, my eyes.
A part of me, small but somewhere, slowly dies,
slowly decides, it is not needed any
more.

My guard down, you won me with your stare
I am no longer able to not care.
One does not compare, when all he sees is all he wants.
A deeper kind of illumination
almost within, ways of temptation.
And the rest is background information.

To make a change, engage.
To make you feel secure in whatever that you wage.

I vow to tell and speak instead of hide and seek.
To love and to forget whenever you let
me down, I vow to always be a clown.
I vow to be a kid and playful if I can.
I vow my vows are too much for me to handle,
but I vow I'll try to keep even if I don't know how.

I vow to be the better man.