Woke up this morning and talked to God again / told him I love him for everything he bring / he asked why I had so much in my heart / I told him you made me / an image of you / so that's why we're so close / but yet so far / he told me that everything would be just fine / he asked me to Pray and then we drank some wine / felt so pure / just the perfect time / he said your sins have been washed / for a very long time / I shed some tears and told him / you really are my G / he said I'll always Love you son / just keep your head high / Faith high / hope and love / Trust and Believe in me / at that moment before he left I said Goodbye / he said no need to say that word / cause all you have to do is close your eyes and look up at the Sky.

Yesterday I saw a nice looking Forest path in Arlington Heights / the type you walk into on your own and stay inside until you reach a higher flight / in my mind I saw a different place as I stepped in / I didn't look back cause of what I felt within / everyone is fine / and I will be ok / I came into this world half dead / and now my life is gray / I've dealt with blunt force trauma for major parts of my life / so it's no wonder I'm not ok in the head / my bestfriend a pad and a pen / it's kept my feelings to itself so that's not bad / once again / I laugh / but don't know why / so here again I go a lone I cry / but I'm not mad nor bitter / **** for once I do feel like a quitter / this World is filled with enough sour litter / and I'm not one to stay and follow the wagon / I'm the type to wave goodbye and put my heart in a bag when / I slowly walk into that path / you won't know where I took that blast / so rather than to be remembered as a mess / I rather you all remember me for the good of the past.

Yo this must be the best day ever / I swear it feels like it only ******* took forever / I've never seen myself look so fly, hair done, beard great and nice *** tie / it's like I'm just standing still but I'm laying down and it feels so real / all my loved ones in one room it's truly a miracle and I'm feeling happy cause last night I had the best meal / laughed amongst the crowd / cypher really loud / the only question is where to now? I've fallen in love and felt both ends of it / hurt and pain in my heart / but now it seems it's gone and **** / this again feel like the best day ever / I love the rain so it couldn't get no better / looking like a million bucks / **** even my ex is here / lil man ain't little no more **** I think I shed some tears / I feel I'm walking backwards with all these memories / when we all used to just check out the melody / but the plan is this and I can't re-write it / so I must go into the light but know ya'll will be missed / so for me keep smilin.

I woke up and I cried today / don't know what the **** is wrong with me inside today / I'm tired and I don't want self pity / but what the **** am I supposed to do when I look around and all I see is these walls closer to me / wait a minute maybe I gotta breathe / now I'm laughing feeling a different speed / now I'm smiling / but then it easily leaves with this feeling inside of I just don't want to be me! Hi world I'm just a regular guy / hi world I'm just playing my role / taking my time / cause this little life of mine is written so I can't do anything about it till I ******* Die! How can I make these thoughts end? How can I move on / when I still feel you inside and you're just there / while I'm here and this wall is in the middle / but you won't let me break that **** in / All a lone since birth naw / that's not the truth / my grandma did what she could so I'd be all good / friends had many but I had to lose / wrong choices that's what happens too / when you feel you're on top of the world but really you just wanna fall / hello today / goodbye tomorrow / that's a ******* line / of that gun powder / going through my blood stream like you'll be just fine / but I still see this little light of mine / she was born and I had to live longer / I had to love stronger / I, no matter how I felt inside had to try / now years they fly and to the moon I wanna go / Frank Sinatra was there so it had to be cold / I've lost hope and I have so much anger, love, and depression doesn't seem to understand that she ain't the answer / I take a pill that **** calms me down / but that bandaid won't stop any feelings / how? Did I grow up to be this way? I don't know but I gotta live this way / walk this way / put my head up and let my heart beat this way.

Verse

Yo we can make music/ or go through a history of violence/ but to me there's gotta be a different choice/ that's just childish/ I'm the illest in this *******/ ya'll to me are harmless/ so don't you sit there underestimating my kindness/ while ya'll spitting ******* raps/ I suggest a style you try and find it/ 90's kid in the mix/ you can't outshine this/ brighter than the burning sun/ higher than a mountain/ ******* think this is?/ ***** I'm the wildest/ hip hop through my IV/ she's my ride or die *****/ don't need a record deal/ I'm the one who's signing/

Hook

Who am I? I'm the illest emcee!
You didn't know?
Don't underestimate my ******* kindness!
Who am I? I'm the livest emcee!
You didn't know?
Raised in the 80's/ Product of the 90's!
Who am I? I'm the addict indeed!
Emcee with lyricism running through his IV!

Verse

See I'm still the same ol G/ time may have passed/ but not on me/ a ******* can only dream to be/ quick with it/ like my ***** Gvns/ wherever he may be/ I'm still on fire/ unretired/ like the legend of number 23/ Chicago native/ creative with how I speak/ this isn't bubblegum rap or trap music/ it's live from Tiggas basement on BET/ turn the volume up a notch/ if you believe they'll be no defeat/ I carry my ammo/ them hollow tips/ quick to snipe a fake *****/ shooter style like bang bang you see/ I'm underground to the fullest/ straight out the sewer/ Ralph, Mikey/ the circus is back in town/ with the Joker/ me!


Hook

Who am I? I'm the illest emcee!
You didn't know?
Don't underestimate my ******* kindness!
Who am I? I'm the livest emcee!
You didn't know?
Raised in the 80's/ Product of the 90's!
Who am I? I'm the addict indeed!
Emcee with lyricism running through his IV!

Looking back I gave you everything I had / now I'm sitting here like why even be mad / if you didn't see the value of what was us / then that leaves me with that / no need to answer any questions just ride on forward no looking back /

I wish you understood this side of me / the one that Express himself so vividly / you were the one I thought believed in me / Loved me and would always grow old and chill with me / Loving you was like a ******* cancer / but yet I always wanted us to have our tiny dancer / so she could have that sparkle from your eyes / and her big brother by her side / but that was just a dream that I woke up from and had to let go / over some **** in your life you couldn't move from / over the people that you say love you and care but I'm the ******* that was always there! Now listen / I never once told you to leave em all a lone / family is family they **** you off and you grown made a decision to stay on your own / same goes for your friends who say they want the best for you but then again a ***** whooped ***** trying to tell you that he would put you over his Baby Momma / now that's pitiful / you got mad when they only called you for favors / so you detached yourself so how the **** was that my fault when it's what you do so well / maybe they should hear this so they can hear the truth with a different flavor / instead of pointing fingers at the one who could spit real show and tell.

Looking back I gave you everything I had / now I'm sitting here like why even be mad / if you didn't see the value of what was us / then that leaves me with that / no need to answer any questions just ride on forward no looking back /

After 2 chances you just grew shady without the eminems / a call a day or 2 became none / a text from you became a biweekly thing / so how the **** do you expect for me to act than to ask what's going on and what you think? / loyal like a man I am I stood by you / and never said No / stayed true to you / but you didn't give a **** bout me / you just went and forgot bout me / 1 minute you want our family back / I wish I could hear those words again but they're indented in my brain so what's the point of that? Love I asked what you needed from me and would always wanna hold you longer cause i felt you slowly slipping from me / so every day I'm drowning waiting for you / naw you didn't tell me too / but that's what a man do / someone who gives a **** and cares bout you / someone who'd give you the last penny he had just so you'd be good / now that was all my fault / I should've known you didn't give 2 ***** bout that / cause when I asked you to decide you just let me go that fast without looking back.

Looking back I gave you everything I had / now I'm sitting here like why even be mad / if you didn't see the value of what was us / then that leaves me with that / no need to answer any questions just ride on forward no looking back /

I can see a lot in you that I feel I need in me / something that is real / a real woman who believes me / someone who will be there when the storm hits / someone who will hold my hand when I'm at my worst and never walk away / I wanna be the one who holds you high / fall for you by looking into your eyes / never fake or full of disguises / a real man by your side who sees you priceless / I'm your King, your my highness / if love is Blind then let me help you find it / nothing's ever easy but you'll never be a lone / I wanna be the one you see in the future with our happy home / you're more than average / your hearts the kindness / and I just want you next to me when we're both ridin.