and now i only see you
in my memories and dreams
i know winter months are coldest
but late december really stings
frost bitten
not by weather but by temperature of shoulder
it is over
it is over
it is over

holding on
much longer then intended
daily doses
much more then recommended

if time were to stop immediately





                                                                      what would this moment hold

If only
The line
Between Swimming and Drowning
Weren’t
So
t
h
i
n

Time does not always tell
     Decides it's lips are sealed
       Although it may tick you off
Appears the clock won't talk

Where do the words come from?
Before they pop up in my mind

Where do the words go?
When it seems I've run out of sentences to scribble

we were drinking coffee
i asked how she felt about tea
"i like certainty"
she replied

i have
always hated loud noises
the refrigerator dispensing ice into glass
the sound tubs make as water boils down
the treble in voices rising in opposition
all make me tremble
my heart jump
eyes dart for possible escape

nothing is forever
though some things stay as long as they can

if ever i could do without
it seems that it consumes me now
with every breath my lungs withdraw
another second chance disappears

i want to make
music
not only with strings and drums
but with
words
and
love

Water rising
Swim or drown

not meant to be a riddle
though not all will understand
footsteps into fog
soul pointed one direction

don’t go they say
we need you to stay
why do i feel like drifting away

if you only write
what others want to hear
you will never know your words

I
“Seem to be ok”
They say
“Much better than before”
I
Tell myself the same
Still
I am not convinced

stick around
to blah blah blah
lets chit about the chatter

I'm a social drinker
I drink whenever I'm around people
Or just prior to a social engagement and right on thru it
I put on a cheerful ruse knowing people will buy it
People are always looking to be sold something
So I sell it
I celebrate.
They celebrate.
We celebrate together.
For a moment in time all is well
Rather all seems well
Though
I'm sure they wouldn't like me if I were sober
More importantly you wouldn't like me if I were sober
I don't like me when I'm sober

she said jesus brought the spring
that she’ll teach me how to pray
but lord knows what I’ve seen
there is no heaven on the way

pit stops and pit stains
smiles dyed with coffee
mix ups and fixings
on the road once more

Hands of time hold many truths
Treasures in the wristwatch
Secrets locked inside the clockwork
Hour is not the only thing
Hourglass can tell
Each grain of sand has whispered
It has to share as well

the road is long
and i am tired
years without respite
hope no longer carries the feet
i am beginning to sink
already drowning
staring at the surface
as i invite the water to fill my lungs
they don’t tell you how peaceful it is

Sola takes her lattes
So late
Solar panels
Fuel the drive
Solstice to solstice
So longs and goodbyes
Come easy on the road
And on the wheels roll

love is not a problem
just find it hard to stick it out
though falling is quite easy
you soon find you hit the ground

often i can see the sadness
through the smiles and the jokes
laughter
just can't seem to drown
eyes that cry out

sitting inside when the sun is out
close all the curtains for shade
i know the highs gonna come down
i'm sure by noon there'll be rain

just have to go until you get there
once we've gone then we can stop

live today
no telling how much livings left

sometimes letting go
is the only way to hold on