Kissed
But not missed.

Listening to the wind d pass by
Blowing past me with no one to catch me
As I cry.

The wind
Whooshed in
Throwing me this way and that
Watching me struggle
Watching
Watching
Always watching
Never saving
I try to run
But the wind always catches me
Pulls me back by my hair
I can't escape
This is my fate
Whooshing in
Like love for someone
Creating a distance
Between truth
And trust
Watching
Watching
But then it stops
I suddenly can move
The binds of leaves
Let go
I rub my arms
Surveying the land
Watching
Watching
For the wind to come back
But it never does
Only a gentle breeze
Reminding me of my past
But never pulling me back
To the dark place I once was
But will never go again

Wind tries
To pull me back
It is trying
To change my path
Again
Leaves start to bind my arms
Leaves absorb my sight
The world starts twirling
It feels like a relapse
I twist around
Trying to see
The light in the tunnel
But there is no light
Because I am the light
I can choose my path
Leave this wind
Pulling my arms and legs
From the leaves
Tugging
Tugging
Finally I'm free.

Scratching at the scars
Bleeding through my shirt
Boyfriend noticing.
Noticing I'm never "fine"
Noticing I'm hurting
Noticing I'm not normal
And I never was
And I never will be.

I always respond with
"Great. I'm doing great"
But in my head I wish to say
" hurting I'm just hurting inside."
But it just never comes out.
I can never admit I'm not doing "fine".

Why is the world cursing me??
Always making me work to be happy
For a minute.

After that minute passes
I am dropping down the hole
In my heart.
The one that used to be filled by
Happiness.

Happiness evaporated
Forever lurking
Just beyond reach
My fingers can never grasp it.
My fingers can never hold on
They always slip through
And the happiness leaves me
Like I never deserved it.

You lay down to only wake a few hours later
You lay down to rest for a while
As you lay
You think and get lost
In the depths of darkness.

Thinking, pondering, worrying
For your love had not responded
As you lay
You cry and drown
In the depths of darkness.

Child, take a break
Take a deep breath
As you lay
You smile and laugh
At the depths of darkness.

Hello
Just bellow
Till your hearts in tow
With the roads
Which you go
Don't just follow
Make it your own
Set the tone
It's your life
End the strife
Let the feelings flow
When your heart's in tow
Creating your own path
To lay down at last
-LW

Watching everyone ignore me.
Watching everyone stop
Caring.

Watching everyone move on.
Watching everyone stop
Loving.

Watching them all leave
Me in the dust
Nowhere to lead.

Watching them stop
Talking to me
And just walk by
Not noticing not caring.

But when I say I'm fine
That's when they start caring
They don't leave me
They don't let me break.

Stop!!
Leave me the **** alone!!

He doesn't respond!!!
He said he's sorry
I am too
But I dont want him
To **** himself
Too

What have I done!
I caused all this
I had to love Gabe.
I had no choice
Nik is jealous
And he's trying to blackmail me.

Help!!
Nik is hurting after his last
Breakup.
He isn't the same.
And Gabe wasn't the kindest.
Nik is mad
Nik wants to hurt Gabe.
But I love him.

I would
Never
Ever
Hurt Gabriel
For a friend's sake.
Even if it hurts me
Makes me panic
Makes me cry
Makes me want to die.

I'm very sorry.
I'm very sorry!!
Don't do anything rash.
Plz.