Finally Breaking the barrier
Telling him about the cuts

He only takes
Deep breaths

In and Out
In and Out.

No words except
He's there
To carry the burden
And that he's lying
If he said he doesn't love me

He says he's losing me
To another, darker version of me.

Trying
But only drowning
Struggling to breath
Trying to see the light
Trying to see him.

Drowning with stress
Unable to breathe
Help me please.
Worry and care
Is everywhere
But I can’t  point it towards myself.
Only to someone else
Someone who is not allowed
To receive my help.

Love of my life
I will not leave you
And not!,
Let you leave me.

I love you.
You are my everything
My Sugar to my flour

You help me flourish
Growing
Changing
Twisting
Between the limits
Finding a comfortable place.

Watch me win
Watch me lose
Watch me when I show my love for you.
Snuggling on a couch
Holding hands
Whispering “I love you’s”
Without an end.

Watching him smile
Watching him laugh
I just can’t escape the wrath of my past
I can’t accept your friends
Not yet anyway
I’m sorry to disappoint
I’m trying I really am.

I love you
So so much
Everyday you distract me
Helping me see
The light
Shining
Blurring the dark
Casting no more shadows.

As darkness fades
I see a bright silhouette
Showing me the way
To happiness.

A way to love
A way to see
the light inside of me.

Watch as the birds fly
Hand in hand
Arms around each other
Keeping the  love united
For if we stay together
I will be won.

Darkness enters
As we let go
Hands breaking apart
How do I start to handle this on my own?

Listening to the voices
Deep and cutthroat
Growling
Mimicking
Me.

Am I crazy
For wanting only you?
Am I crazy
for loving only you?
Am I crazy
For worrying too?

Tell me
I'm not.
Tell me
I’m loved.
Tell me
I’m wanted.

Or I might just forget
The difference
Between love and hate.