Everyone's getting drunk
I'm getting sick of it
Calling each other
@ so n so
Like they really gettin used to it
I could talk about my heart
But I've already been through all this
Who's really gonna listen to a girl
Who's souls’ been through the worst of ****
& what's worse is, yet
Have I spoken on how bad it's been
Learned to keep my distance, even from my closest kin
Demeanor’s embedded, loyalty nothing like you expected
Raised myself, all alone, I never been big on affection
I’m never comfortable in a room unless I can see all the exits
Grandfather told me young, being misunderstood was a blessing.
If you’re pretty, now you’re dumb, & they don’t even expect it..  
When they start talkin reckless make sure that you’re checkin
Who not sayin much, and who just walked into confession
The realest ones won’t ever speak in new presence
the weakest of minds go the hardest when flexing
When u listen long enough, they repeat the same sentence
No luck with trust, the word alone ****** stress me
If mom came home we called is a blessing
Father was African, that was our only connection
Life was never easy, even with a privileged complexion
We tried to raise eachother but they gave us no direction
Now our mindset stuck on nothing
But money ******* and clubing
And if a sacrifice could save us
Then why did **** get this way since Jesus?
I can't even trust in any preachers
God give me a sign cause I need you

I've been walk towards the light
But it's hard not to trip

Having you on my mind is driving me crazy
Not the heart broken kind but the kind that got me smokin alone lately
See when I think about what we went through
There’s a void when I remember you
I think my soul only sees souls
but I never got that close to you

I know I sweep in like a storm
And I know you’ve been broken lately
That’s why I left easy
I noticed your suffering daily
I just thought maybe I’d help make you feel alive again
I recognize that sad and hurt in you, for I have been
I just needed you to be stronger baby
To give in and not give up on maybes
Didn’t you think I’d be worth it,
      Or was it,
                All just the way you would word it
See I think we get what we deserve
What do you wish for when you get hurt?
Cause I’ve never actually seen you frown
Oh but darling, how many times I’ve watched you drown.

You never let me see your pain
That's why the music is where you feel safe to say
How much you love me
Or through your eyes
How you cut me
Into three
Two for you one for me
One for your music one for your company
I'm use to the pain
But not the gluttony
Bite into me
Your demons fit right into me
With every piece you steal from me

But eat my darling
Just save the last slice for me

Perfectly patient or patiently perfect,
Any way you would word it
The waiting seemed worth it
Perfectly believable
Or unbelievably perfect
Was it really that worth it
Or was it the way you would word it

They got my life under a looking glass
Funny, cause there's so much they're looking past
Out in the cold, got me questioning "where my riders at?"
But pull up to a party
& ain't it funny how the car is packed..

We've made it this far but where's the progress
We preach about love
But we embody a darkness
The angels of gods stress
Can't even imagine what he thinks while he watches
Like please god don't let this be my last test
I'll change I swear
Like I ain't say that the last test
Like I didn't just clean my hands from my last mess
But if you hear me out dear lord I can promise

I'll bow down to you
I'll Give my heart and soul to you
You own my body but my mind
Father I condone to you
I'll lower my crown, I owe my thrown to you
If you accept me father
I'm coming home to you

You'll always get the best of me
even when there's not a
**** thing  
left
in me.

Wake me up when we are free
When we've mastered stability
A true unity
An honest gathering with out the eulogy
Wake me up when it's just you n me
Steadily
Workin towards infinity
Be true to me
Say them vows to me
Show me what you believe
And if you ever let me go
I hope it's to hold on to our legacy

Exceptional
She was always exceptional
Underly loved
Overly impressionable
Completely unintentional
The way she tends to get emotional
Always taking things so personal
Like if it came from a mouth
Then it's just gotta be credible
Unbelievable
******* with her heart
Mending it till its flexible
Bouncing back
Like goodbye is the usual..
Giving her all but only ever getting Their residual

Exceptional
She will always be exceptional
Underly loved
& overly impressional

I was fragile
& you were strong

"You are right, I'm always wrong"

You notice my lies
And how I've been mending my ties
My bridges were never as strong as stone

In the midst of a tragedy
I found a drop of clarity
The way you showed our love would be
was nothing near a fantasy

You joked that one day I would leave you
There was a long silence like

It might be true

I never should have told you I would need you
When I knew I'd be gone when the night was through

I'm used to it, I guess
A life full of mess
Pulling together a smile on my face
But always feeling stressed

You said, I'm used to it, you guessed
You see the monster beneath my dress
The way I show up all alone
And leave with even less

They guess, they say I'm blessed
More like a damsel in distress
The way my eyes show all my secrets
My words, always a test

We're used to making guesses, I guess
And we never take a rest
Never knowing how to move
A ****** up game of chess.

I wanted to be as
important
as that
ashtray
you tend to carry all around the
house,
not just the ash it collects, eventually being
dumped
        into
             the
                           trash,
along with all of your other
bad habbits.
I tried to replace that
cigarette
with my
fingers,
but no one will ever be
good enough
to hold your
hand.
The
                      smoke
is the only thing that has
ever
reached beneath your
rib cages.
Anything else that has
tried
has never ventured back alright.

Like the thoughts that conjure now,
The last room I saw you in was bare and  cold
You didn't know but the devil was that bottle in your hand saying, "**** me, Man!"
But you were the one who lost control.
You've lost all recollection, on your life, you'll always swear
Your eyes hold no regrets, but wisper,
"****, I'm scared.. "

I want to get up
and dance
with you
Share jokes
and laugh
with you
Or at you
Either way
I know you'll smile
I want to dive into your mind
and get lost
with you
Open your heart
and show you
What it's like to
see you
through
my eyes
I want to runaway
with you
Find myself all tangled up
with you
Hold your hand and
lay
with you
Or on you
Either way
I know I'll drive you wild
I want to sit down
and talk
with you
Drink and a beer
or scotch
with you
Watch the sun and
                                drop
                          
                                      down
                                            
                   ­                             low
with you
And stay up all night

I talk in a way,
that, the things that I say
Start to portray
how my sanity plays,
In the hands of the devil......
A subtle treble.

I'll stop these tears
I'll drop my fears
And I'll
Roll
The ****
Out

You can tell there's something missing,
Her invisible flaw.
Her walls are up,
She built them tall.
Detached for too long,
She learned it young.
Daddy's little girl,
His absence stung.
Now she's grown,
His trick up her sleeve.
He never showed her how to love,
But he taught her how to leave.

Wake me up
Like you used to
When you'd struggle to leave
Knowing I'd be
Wrapped naked
In
Your
Sheets

Wake me up
Like you used to do
When my hair was crazy
My smile was lazy and
My eyes had
Lack
of
Sleep

Wake me up
Like you use to
When you'd pull me to your chest
How you'd kiss my head
And call me
Your
Little
Mess

Why is it that I only write
When sorrow has arrived
All alone in the night
From the recesses of my mind
Why is that I cannot write
Of the love I frantically seek
So pure and beautiful
The kind that won't let you sleep
Why is that I write these words
In hope you'll soon comprehend
I only write poems like this
When my love is coming to an end

Passion runs through her
It's infused in her blood
Rushes into her heart
& comes out as love

Her body is poetry and her curves are the words.
Her eyes are the hook and her lips, a cryptic verse.
As much as she pours out, there's not much you'll really know.
There's memories she hides, and even more that she won't let go.
She's simple at its best, yet chaotic at her worst.
She'll catch you with her hook, and leave you with her verse.