Creux

Creux Aug 29

happiness is heavy when it's brief
and doom waits patient at the door.
so while i still can, I'll laugh with you
even if I end up crying alone.

issues i choose to set aside so we can be happy while we still can; while we're still "we".

Creux May 18

why?

if it was mine,
if it was right,
why does it feel like holding on
to something that keeps letting go?
why does it ache like splintered bone;
like the sting of a light too bright;
like pressing a bruise to remember the pain
or waiting for rain that never shows?

if it was mine,
if it was love,
why does it feel like mourning
something still alive?

empty thoughts

Creux Apr 13

my multo

my multo isn't an ex—
no familiar voice nor steps.
she stood kind-eyed and distant
the woman i wished to become
but simply can't.

she peeks in mirrors i avoid;
in notebooks i never filled;
in choices i couldn't make
when the world felt too heavy
and i was too tired to lift it.

my multo isn't an ex—
it's the ghost of a life i never lived.

sabay sa uso alexa play multo by cup of joe

Creux Mar 31

midnights

...and when the world is quiet enough to breathe,
I'd have you, the dark, and something close to peace.

Creux Mar 29

lay me down

lay me down where the earth is kind
where the roots curl soft around my bones

lay me down on a bed of quiet waves
where the tide carries without question
and from the shore, it scrubs my name

lay me down beneath a sky too tall
where the stars do not blink, do not watch
where the night is endless, and i am small,
where nothing reaches for me anymore.

lay me down to sleep, 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦.

take it as u will

Creux Mar 22

I'm sorry

for the way i shrink inside myself
like i wasn't meant to take up space;
that even though you held me tight
i still slip through the cracks in my mind.

i wish i could rest without dreaming,
sleep without waking,
and erase myself so gently
that no one would notice.

but you would—
and that's the only thing keeping me here.

i wished to never be, to not exist;
no weight to bear, no love to miss.
but down the line i wished for more—
that if i fade, you'd shed no tears.

so,

𝘪'𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨.

Creux Mar 14

home

when the night feels heavy,
and the dawn seems far,
let not your heart be troubled.

when the silence screams,
and the weight pulls you down,
let not your heart be troubled.

...but if you must weep,
let it be like rain — then let it be gone.

until the night feels lighter,
and the dawn stands near,
let not your heart be troubled —

soon, you'll be home, dear.

i want to go home