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Courtlyn Quay Aug 2016
my hair was harvested with the fall
my skull was frozen with the winter
my body was buried with the spring
I sprouted in the summer
Courtlyn Quay Aug 2016
In the midst of my depression, I have noticed omens of my past lives.
the moments left behind in old houses, My habits layed out and discarded on my bed. I've grown estranged to their music and the lyrics that parch my tongue like bread.

The same with people, Not a moment goes by and the image of her grows blurrier. Not a moment goes by and my image grows weaker. and all the while I seek no cure so I must be all the wiser

Living up to the name shouldn't be hard
That the melancholy that ails me is just fortunes card

I'm just merely a prolonged chord on deaths strings.
or maybe a bird caged who wants to spread his wings.
Truly though,
I must be a velveteen rabbit
Burnt among the playthings
Courtlyn Quay Jul 2016
How come when I am nearer to sleep
That my eyes should close, not even a peep
I only hope then, that my eyes do not open
Courtlyn Quay Jul 2016
Ripped in two pieces at one place
At another time it could've been different
Now that the embers float in the air
Now that I know whats left standing
With the trees beginning to sprout
I'll survive
Courtlyn Quay Jul 2016
The tide inside my head empties into my heart
My heart empties into my stomach
The alcohol lurches ever so slightly
Exorbitant
That's the price I pay tonight
My poems no longer rhyme
My heart no longer speaks
My head rules with the crashing sea
A typhoon that cannot be quelled
An earthquake that ruptures the world
A beautiful mistake
Named you
Courtlyn Quay Jun 2016
A fanatic devil in my bed
an acolyte to the color red

I cast my eyes upon the dirt you dragged in
I set my hands upon your horns

The tragedy shed in light is that you lived without sin
A face touched by god and a spirit that rivals hell
I take your crown off the bed post and wear your thorns

I promise to show you the mercy this world has denied you.
I promise the love that this world has showed so few
Courtlyn Quay Jun 2016
I get the text
I flash back
When you told me to quit smoking.
That every puff you caught over the phone upset you.
I remember how you told me someone close to you died because of it.

I remember that night
Picking up a bottle when you texted me.
What was once an enjoyable activity
Now became a hole to dig myself into.
You called
I couldn't find the strength to pick up my phone
I'm sorry so I picked up my pack.
As I flipped it open I thought about what you would say.
Should I be angry?
Sad?
Or should I be happy for you?

I lit the end.
If I was going to **** myself.
This is the way you'd want it
once again you text me.

You call me
What do I say?...
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