I am terrorized by the thought of your hands
And what storms they may cause
What doors they may open
The trail they may leave.
I am scared that they will grab hold
Real tight when I am too scared to allow them to,
They may learn me
They may let themselves devour my flesh
And surround my eyes when falls become of them.
I am scared that they will be able to catch things mid-air
That I was counting on them to lose.
I am scared that they will kiss my heart with warmth
Dance across my lips
Massage my spine with the courage I need to dance through sun dried desserts
Create a welcome mat to a home that I am trying not to fall into.
I am scared that they will be brilliant and beautiful
Skilled and flexible
Everything I need and want…
All I can fathom is terrible things
My own hands shake
Because you keep giving me beautiful…

You enigmatic freak of nature
The way your voice bows
And the guitar sounds
And your legs stomp forward to catch the beat
All while keeping a smile on your face
Your hands fly everywhere, your mouth is a vessel of peace, love and harmony
And I can’t bring myself to move away from you
You tell me…
“Move like you want, move like you need”
And I do all though I am trying not to
I am drawn to your inner wildings
And the way you can’t sit still
I enjoy the calm of you
Because it doesn’t come quite often
The whole of you is beautiful
And I love the way your spirit leads
I just want to be next to you
Be near you
When you vibrate…
It’s soothing to stand in your essence
I don’t think I’ve felt a movement quite like this
It doesn’t even necessitate you touching me
This is an ode to the being you are, the spirit in you
Keep moving
Don’t sit still
People might forget how to feel something.

I guess I like the way you smile at me when I say hello
I am always waiting to say it back to you
You are white chocolate
Mixed and blended at its finest
And you smell like heaven.
If only you’d be bold enough
To ask to share some conversation with me.
I could talk to you about my favorite teas
Or why coffee is the only reason growing is over for me…
If you ask me about literature, I swear I will light up like the sun
And I will never stop talking…
You may not believe me since silence crowds our space when you are near…
But all I know how to do is say hello back
To the beautiful man
Always waiting to smile at his local barista…

"I beg of you to tip toe on my lips
Dance beneath me
And when I fall short,
relax.
I am taking you
inside, outside
soft, rushing, hard.
Hands touching
            grazing
            grabbing
            holding ...onto
           slapping skin.
Melting.
And by melting, I mean you.
I can hear it in your moan
In the distraught face you make
Before you dance into me.
I taste you...
I crave you...
Just as much as I crave your release.
It relaxes me, it pleases me.
All due to your allowance
Of me making a monologue out of you.

We are meant to be Kings and Queens
Gods and Goddesses in Gods image
Women like you sadden me
How easily you shrink into him
How easily you strip yourself
Just to mirror his beautiful
Does it not hurt?
Does it not hurt?
Giving him the pieces of you that were simply meant to show…
Check the mirror without him and what do you see?
Have you seen the color of the corners of your mouth when they come together for you?
Have you seen the sun reflected off your skin
And appreciated walking this earth?
Do you see yourself reflected in his eyes?
Or is It simply a reflection of his reflection that he mirrors in you?
Why are you deliberately forgetting your beautiful
Who hurt you so bad that you stopped loving you?
Why have you stopped appreciating the collage of browns, nudes, and red in your skin?
Our many shades of BLACK are OUR BEAUTIFUL.
…Why are you ignoring them?
What happened to Maya Angelou’s “Phenomenal Woman”?
Did you forget that we were born with Fire in our eyes?
Meant to have stride in our steps?
That there is nothing wrong with being love and deliberately beautiful.
Stop settling for the man who tolerates you
Stop sticking with the luke warm souls
Open yourself to the man that deems life with you as a pure testament to God
And finds infinite amazing in your beautiful.

...But will you take it off for me ?
That cool I mean...
I think you're rather beautiful and I'd like to
Cut through the *******
Flash forward to the real ****
Like why you feel your heart is too overdrawn to give a ****
Or why your smile yet fluid in its symmetry
Is flawed in its frequency.

You. Disarm. Me.
Be gentle in your stare.
Any longer and my love will come down for you.
Your lips have grazed my flesh a million times over...
In my mind, that is.
If only you'd take your cool off and let me see you...

You are divine.
As I gaze at you laying beneath me
I have never tasted any chocolate as rich as you
I have never felt any being quite like your presence
I am stuck in an elevator with you even when you are miles away.
I feel you
And you see me
And you love it.
I didn’t know happiness could pierce a person like this
But you have created such a center
That gravity holds no bars to.
I never meant to love you
Quite like this.
But your smile is the most profound thing I have breathed in months
And I will forever be changed in this.
You flow through me like the wind that dances through my hair
You have shattered all reason to run.
You have created a falter in my plans
That has upset my schedule so far into perfection
I so am in love with you.
God gave me strength in waiting for you
I have spent an abundance of my years running from this moment
But He brought you here
He made me for “here”
Be deliberate with me.
Stay true in you.
Right here.
Right now.
I have wanted you like this for all these years.