I came across mine own hand
'and all the love of scorn
So, when I find myself alone
Without my love and her roses,
I smile beyond emotional thrones

Several seconds of introspection
Wasted moments
You are upset with all that has changed
You hissed and preached about how wrong I was
Yet, here we now stand
Your heart has shriveled and you've had enough
The cold has found you, within it speaks;
"Finally you see, is not this dance of somber indignity?"
I see now I there is nothing left of my baby,
I'll always miss you,
Sweet Cinderella,
Rest in Piece

Outside my own Heart
Lingers a beating, throbbing part
Large and small all at once
Mistified by shape and tone of what once was
Better Loves come about more than once

No sound, reasons without solid ground
Love is eternally,
Circled around
Built from the same cloth,
Once, twice, how many times must cut,
Both know it's not too late,
Made for this life
'and the next

Young and beautiful,
Softer each time
The way I see your eyes
Deep and under control

Would I ever be free of this love
Could I call it home,
I know you live with me
'Here under the banner of "us"

Please just accept my hand,
All the grace and immaculate warmth
I wish to once again hold
Will we recall, something so beautiful

It's tearin up my plans
'because of you
Baby, you took my hands,
Once again

Baby, it feels like we could do it again
If you thought you could jeopardize once,
Why now do you plead?
I still need you

My entire soul, it belongs to you
Still so rough and true
God, do I miss you
It's ripping my heart in two

No matter, a part will always love you
A part of me,
Always shall hold love for you

Never say sorry to you again
'and I will gently close my eyes
Sorry to those I love whom are not you
For I would have followed you into wonder
For you, nothing in this world I wouldn't do
Nothing in this world

Help this idealistic dream come true
Nothing else will do
Follow me down into Hell,
Love me into and beyond, June

Are you going to remember all our nights,
Eclipses unseen unto endless flight
Need you to fight
Stay beyond the brink of the light

I am ready to settle and seed
Draw the covers to a close
Know that we were made to find
'the last sentence of our stories
*Together

Tired of struggling
need to sleep
Cannot keep treading water
must find salvation
Who we are today
is not us tomorrow
Admission that destroys my very soul
oh, never be the same

For auld lang syne and all it's bittersweet melodies
'I returned home
My pond of pure intent soiled with every day spent
Though the feeling of flight was strong,
'where should I hide?
The water?
This was once my home
Now it is but a chain that constrains
Sends legions of pain,
Against this fate I struggled
'Now all fought for is rubble
My heart too tired and hurt to keep
When will my tears cease?

If our love was simply meant to win a game,
Why is it that our suffering has been given great longevity?
For, is this not a cruel reality?
Can I not have my remedy?

Long gone,
We refuse to make friends
You found a port in a storm
Shallow and meek
If the sun came back you know you would not stew
My Baby, chase relentlessly

The parting moments were racked with sobs
You held me with soft pose to your sobbing chest
Together we melted as a mess
With each rise of my chest, I gently wept
All the harm we had done
And would to come
For want of knowing what would come from decisions
We part in love
'return, broken like glass
I shall always recall the warmest moments yet
'Love them all
Goodnight to my beautiful first love
Goodbye, and never fall

Tavern songs in my old sweet city
Playing in and out of open windows
I spent my days that year in good company
All the hearts I broke were akin to mine
For want of will and wish
So, with filtered innocence
I killed my own mast
A black flag,
'sorry for my sweethearts
Reminiscent of my better past
With her once triumphant songs, I do recall
I miss my old love,
Regardless of heart fall

I miss it all
Everything I fought to live for
Fallen, now in shambles
'and for what?
So that you could have a once in a lifetime
'Love
Only to hop aboard the first ship at sea
'had nothing to do with the value of me
Your crotch just couldn't wait for more than a week

It's always change,
The future is here
Alive and dear
I'm my heart
'the same while not
Smile, it's the future

The part of me
Chasing the road home
Our tragedy in melodies
Sanctity of volume
In which we need love
The day we wake up
A day it's over, the sky falling down
Lone down, London Town
Singing to the river,
While the daylight lets us know where it has to go
The story in a blink of your pretty green eyes
Started while the sound was queer,
Now you roam the night
Royality, we tried
'Though our kids are growing up

Snow upon our westerly mountains
Lost under proverbial covers
Fear the warm dread of Summers to come
Floating amongst our respective coves
Lost, you see
Flashbacks amongst familiar lips
Sometimes I know you see
'banality which now fills your old wounds
Drunkenly you lost track of time
If you were half the human I thought you were
You would thrive

Again I see your heart worn face
Cold and bitter, you drank too deep
Her, once I knew
Long gone now, drown and blue

Hope to never find that same water
Against all better notions,
Keeping hearts clean
Forging an identity

Tainted history
Eyes full of hope and water
Whole body has never been the same

You struggled after we moved on
The story changed, we changed
Pulchritudinous grace never suited you
Jubilant glee looked better on your smile

Now my recollections of you, end and begin there
Chipper and lovely,
Fair and cliched in the best of ways
Heartily fulfilling

Vowed nothing of homes in the water
Never shall I find that body of water in which you do now float
Freshly drowned, buried in satin and down

For what we have done
Is what you have become

In good time,
Black and white
Moonrise over sunset
Unquelled tides, hidden memoirs of forgotten royalties in lost lands
Empty rooms with records playing
Skip a beat

You had a class act
That cost you the best years
Pace yourself!
You only have so much vitriol you can throw at me,
Take a breath,
Learn to see,
You hate you,
Not me

Hasn't stopped me yet,
Leaned out the window of her 50s corvette,
See, honey, you thought I was lonely
You failed to see, I found a much better side of me
Now, that is all you will get from me
Ta-ta, baby

Crisp and clear the signals flown in
No fault of mine
Do you know I've given you too much of my precious time?
All my free seconds wasted, spent

Happy little leap,
'great faith
Delicious resolve
Water seeping in,
Should you run, where would you hide?
Against the light will you find trouble?

Can you keep your head above the waves,
'evaluate each breath,
Kiss my cheek, don't bother
Against the light, why, you are but rubble
Your head is sinking deep
The water is claiming you

Oh, my sweet memories
Make your heart double,
the smiles above the deep
while you sink below the waves,
'shallowly

You need me but I don't need you
In this old and dusty room
Cold, quiet, overblown and unassumed
My old lovers heart whispers to her open wounds
Hazy and angry in late summer afternoon
Hot, heavy, weak, few
Lost your true love,
'only to succumb to hate and fear
All I loved about you
'now only exists in a faded photo,
'My Dear

If this is to end,
Should we not hold onto each other?
Long after the final song has played,
Would it not be better to be together?

Should her eyes be filled with bright and rich gold,
Cold on the outside,
'hot and old
Burning bright in my reflection, she cries
A Fire under such a historic sea
Furious and green

I see that gold
'Burning deep within me
Oh, that green,
Fuelling my desire to dream
So, colour my eyes,
Strike those tears and smite our final breath
For, I will never stop,
Never cease,
I'll pursue every single dream

You can cry all the tears that would have once come to ye
Only to finally be able to breath,

For this,
I will still be me
After all these long stories are complete
I will feel the joyous reunion of reclaiming an ocean,
A king of the sea

Every minute rains
Thinkin' about it lets me fall
All the pretty things say whatever they want,
I laugh it off

Must look back to save the day
See the river down the road
Cold, frozen, old
Like our hearts once I left town

Talk-Talk-Talk-**** about me
Out on the water where I can still see
All the pretty scenes,
Say whatever you want, I still remember the truth

Love the revolve around me
I laugh all these remarks off
For I did everything humanly possible to me
So, I laugh you off, along with those mad fantasies

First one I let in, taught me to love and lose
Bleed and bruise
Recover from the worst injuries
Last time I let her in

The second one was gentle and thin
Shallow though she was, it felt like a win
Gracious was her beauty, little was her mind
After all she only wanted to fill the void in

Third girl called me Addy, too
Loved to hold my gaze and touch our lips
Never would have lost her if not for the waves
Still reminisce our perfect days

Fourth knew me better than I did
Called me out when I thought within my emotions hid
Took me to a better place,
Led me to be a better man

The Fifth had mastered the arts
Was able to sing and write, she captured all men's hearts
Took a while to realize I wanted her too
Now we write together, in Love for good

Or maybe not, as is the nature of this life
One moment, happy
The next, the loss of your future wife
Clean your tears, wash your cheeks,
Welcome to the world of any other week

Was back at home that snowy day,
Oh, but you didn't know
'Cause we didn't talk anymore
Not since the last time
'you broke my naive heart
Was thinkin' bout you
Now that I'm back from where I once was gone
Couldn't help but remember all we've lost
So wondrous and renown
Oh, when I smile it's real again
'Many months since I could say
I'm happy to be the better man
Overjoyed to have escaped your game
I'm not vacant anymore
Left and closed the front door
My heart isn't naked anymore

Baby, I saw you the other day,
In the mall,
'Workin your old job again
All hollowed and afraid to win
You crawled back to from whence you came
Fed on the memories of your better man
You didn't smile when you noticed I was back again
Just closed your eyes and refused to let me in

Turn the corner, the snow descends
A crowd has gathered, all dressed in white
Mourning you
Not one weeps, they know what you have done
They simple stand and stare at what could have been
The snow falls faster, the scene changes again

Now under an open sky, the moon so high and bright
All is quiet, no children of men
Here in this cold Summer, I remember,
Once warm and soft, now frigidly stiff
Memories of black and white, colour photographs of a forgotten Love
Faded beyond recognition, here, in this long hallowed night

Air was cold and present while also gentle and serene
Streets were empty with the exception of myself
Wind rushed over the exposed skin of my face and hands, a fine caress of indifference
A lone bus quietly hummed past me, lights dimmed, passengers docile
Almost a humorous sight was the great mechanical beast, large in physicality, miniscule in mindshare
The green of the grass in mid December almost could deceive one into believing it was summer if not for the biting frigidness
Benignly, I wondered if I could make this place my home come Summer
Doted upon the idea, knowing that eventually I had to return to the Land of the Sea
It was not some great death of hope to my heart, this truth,
Merely a four month gap of nothingness in between an otherwise pleasant and enjoyable existence

Remember your neighbourhood in the late afternoon sun
Your body small, mind innocent
Every image a wonder, visages of beautiful naivety
The earth was a different place
All you owned were a box full of toys and a smile on your face
Love wasn't your hunt and conquest
Adventure could only quench that thirst
Wonderful, everything was
Freedom in childhood

Speaks volumes of me
When fighting for what you believe
And letting love fade
Is never easy

How I loved, how I bled
It all sounded so perfect in my head
Your voice, your heart, your hair, lips, and eyes
You were the reason for my heart
Before you,
I could never open my self
And because I opened up I bled deep
The light I fought to grow
Left me cold in the fading snow
Only when I loved could I come to know
The real me was never alone
The friends and lovers I would come to know
Outclassed that first love that would soon go
The future had better plans for me
This included being happy
Something she could give to nobody

It's my turn
No sympathies, the rumours true
You'll find out the mountain blue
Your insides as hollow as your lies are true
If you'd like, I can take you
Back to the start, to thank you
For all that you've done, all that you've raught
These life lessons, your heartless chest has taught

An old cassette,
Your name perfectly printed,
Faded now
Old and thin

Still plays the same old sounds,
Only now,
Garbled and strange
Not really the same songs from yesterday

Write me a song with your hate
Scream out at my indifference upon your first, second, third date
Ask yourself many a time,
"Why do I deserve such a fate!?"

For, I have the answer for you
It was you that chose the path of ease
The lowest in which you let cheating breed
Swallowed by the maw that allowed you to go too deep

My heart learned of hell
My eyes knew the water well
Now I only smile at the poor old me
Because I have met a woman that truly loves me

Left to my own devices,
Sink or swim
In the distance I can hear the ringing out of Cathedral bells
A slow smile births across my face,
A knowing comfort in the coming grace
As the waves rise higher in their great swells
To consume me

I awaken to the pictures of my past, hallowed and vast
Not as deep in colour as they once were
How ironic, that for even a moment, I missed her
Now the tide has receded, my heart retreated
I'm safe in my new home

The prospects of the later and the now gently guided me through turbulent waters
Their eyes glimmering with pain as I recalled past slaughters (of heart)
They gently murmur "Ah, ha, ahh, ha", like Angels slowly coaxing melodies to those in Hell

Now, I recall
I drove away slowly, tears streaming down my face
Because it was you I did not want to leave
Yet, it was you,
You were the one to leave
And all I could do,
All I could do, was bleed

Beauty had a face
Reminded me of you
Soft and warm
Bright and true

Before I came to love it
It came to love me
Yet, for all I have learned
You still think you are above me

She who would want not but destruction
Deserves not but life deduction
Taken down from her high rock
For, we no longer can simply talk
Too good for me
Too proud to yell
I look back somberly,
On all that Hell
Now you drop your eyes
Like the December pleads
Won't you Love me?
When you Loved me
Ah, ah
Insanity you plead

As long as I have been able to, I have written when I felt pain. The longer I wrote, the deeper I was able to delve into my own mind. As I began to question my world more, I began to write on a daily basis; developing a pattern in which I could healthily express myself. Eventually, I began to fall in love, and as love often does, it gave me a strength I could not have imagined I possessed. I had found a Muse. A woman with whom I found no faults I could not overlook. An individual I wanted to spend my life with. She became the reason I wrote. She was the fire that burned stronger than a million dreams. She began to encompass the entire scope of all that I could ever hope or dream. It was because of her that I gained the confidence I desperately needed to be myself. It was because of her I gained the knowledge to voice my wants and needs and become the man I sought to be. With my Muse I took the power she gave me and shared it with her. We basked together in the joy and hope of the free, swimming an ocean filled with dreams of a future that most likely will never come. The sentimentalist within me still holds an ember of that reality, a single passionate light that reminds me of a simple, beautiful time. My Muse has left me for another poet; my dreams have left me for another man. Now it is time I leave too. Leave the man I once was, the identity that fell in love with the girl of his dreams. It is time I seize control of the future I want, the one I need. I am my own man now. Thank-you for all that you have shown me, my once beautiful muse of 2013.

Come on down to Conscience Falls, where the lights are always dimmed by the remorse of humanity. Where all of the scenery looks like the immaculate image of lonely country roads after midnight, and quiet lakes embalmed by the comfort of night.

Dear City of Dreams,
Would you remember me well?
In you I waited to leave
Bright horizons a little blonde told to me
Couldn't wait to be home and free
Rushed our time in the warm city,
Raced towards the sea

Now, I look back
Ponder such a coincidence that two would wish to win
Though I made my decision,
I have nobody else to blame
I chose one, and one chose you
Ha, what a way to "win"

Sweet baby,
Innocent and warm
Simple to hold
Easy to love
Ethereal eyes
Seamless and green
Hair shining effortlessly
Ready to gleam
Whisper from red lips
A gift to behold

Now you're raising a family
But still you remember,
You do it to escape your current hell
Like the autumn leaves,
You wish to flee

When your smile gleams,
The light hits your eyes just right
A familiar smell brings your heart and mind
Back to me

Love you once had, cast out so easily
Wish you had held on
Now tearfully, you lose your resolve
You think you know who you are, I see those symptoms from afar

Hush those fears, they will only grow
The December of now will thaw one day
Eventually you'll be free to pray
Until then, remember a better day

Through the trials and journeys
Beautiful but sick
Accrue denial stories
Juvenile and thick

Little Dear, I fear I may
Lost all affection for that blackened husk  I once called beauty
Held it small and well,
Loved it for the faults,
For that you could tell
Told you they made you, you,
Bright and pulchritudinous our imaginary future swelled
I now call that little heart Hell

Like cathedral bells,
I can ring as well
Oh, beauty,
Oh, hell,

What has this heart done to me?
Every song unfold
White smiles, pictures told
Green to brown, Ocular, tall
So many hands I have yet to hold
When it hits me, I have yet to live at all


I wanted far away
Never would I mourn,
Never did I

You fall away, slowly,
Like the autumn waves,
Rolling gently
You sleep through heaven
You're awake when we all dream

Now you're ringing out your hair
Black dress swelling in the wind
Just another passage to hell
Dropping towards the diving bell
You lose colour and plea

I see you from afar, once would send shots through my heart
Now I smile and commemorate
Happy little dates
All those memories I still own,
Can't take that horizon of a hundred days away from me
Never will that smile fade

When you see me
When you see me
Oh, baby,
When you sink quickly
You won't see me,

Like the autumn moon and the trees,
It's a big sign,
It is time to leave

Once you did try to run my heart aground
Yet, you did not seem to understand how I operate
Since you abide, begun to confound
My heart, a quintet of tidal streams, off hand oscillates