What is obvious to you
Is not to me
And frankly I don't know
This has to be
That's why I won't
Do what you tell me
Because it's really not
Obvious to me

Surely the truth
Is far beyond me
Maybe I'm wrong
And words aren't free
Epiphany may come
Another day
A misunderstanding
In the way

And I don't know
What to believe
There might not be
Right ways to live
But beneath the point
It all seems
To lose oneself
Into common dreams

I could have known you
But I wasn't myself
A book far from view
To be left on its shelf
Forgotten memories
Of what could have been had
Out of place reveries
No more dreaming to add

I don't know who you are
But I tried to learn
Afraid to go too far
In the distance I burn
Out of nowhere and back again
Another friend lost
Let's meet nobody then
Make sure no one is crossed

We are the same
Just as everyone else
We keep things tame
Lest we fall as ice melts
And drown in the expanse
Of the void between souls
Timidly yearn to dance
With our own kinds of fools

Life is like a less persuasive kind of dream
Things feel they are yet sometimes only seem
Making wonder if there is some real what to know
Or could it truly be there isn't any how
Why are others and might they be made up ?
Under the spell or all drinking from the same cup ?
Still mostly spent looking after new holes in context
Colliding words in hopes some turn out to be what was next
Everything can be imagined but not ever be grasped
Whatever else could in no way be more than swiflty gasped

I stay in the forest
Because there is
Nowhere else to go
I look out of the trees
And nowhere seems
To be the way

I think it's for the best
Not knowing where's
Where death will grow
Let time calm and freeze
Natural dreams
Cast you away

I know my way out
My path inside
Is out of mind
Through misplaced words
Cluttering thoughts
And seas of white

I wander about
Somewhere to hide
Nothing to find
What never comes up in records
And what oughts
To be out of sight

How long does it last
When it's forever
Rolled into the past
Running a fever
True colors, broad cast
One day as ever

All together, done
When another eon lies
Folding into none
Lows and highs
Whispers of old stone
Buried in the skies

Past time paralized
In incessant news
Eternal life sized
Waves of letting loose
Surfaces incised
From current abuse

Whatever goes back
Whatever waters away
Slips into the cracks
Only a matter of day
Some days cut deep
Most are lost to sleep

My eyes,
They always betray me
When I run down the
Uncanny valley

Your smiles,
They mean nothing to me
While I'm going through
What is left to see

Your thoughts,
Are walls that I can't touch
A prison for my words
Where I don't know much

Your names,
They never stay around
Loud ideas of noise
You shared and then drowned

Your eyes,
They always betray me
I confuse your dreams
With what I should see

I made another stain
On the missing pages
Time to pull them again
Away from the edges
Invisible and vain
Lost words to the ages
Letters call for eyestrain
Redaction assuages

I leave empty spaces
Tell another story
I draw stolen faces
And have them say "sorry"
Tell them we'll go places
But everything's blurry
Nothing else than traces
Left in purgatory

I pull on a corner
And make sentences split
The journal gets thinner
But words won't ever fit
I'll make my world cleaner
Since lines come out of wit
Squeeze tight ***** of paper
And trust the trash with it

I don't want to be lame
But you know the truth stings
I wanna seek the flame
And let it burn my wings
To them it's all the same
Another picture springs
Can't keep it into frame
I fly around in rings

Nobody is to blame
We're all just sweet nothings
I want to play the game
See what history brings
I let faith hold my aim
Kept on hitting ceilings
But it is worth the shame
To know which way light swings

There is more truth to claim
Beyond the flutterings
Just see what life became
For all our past beings
Your fears will emerge tame
Wait until the cloud clings
And closer to the flame
Conjure warmer musings

It walks and runs
It sees, it follows
Anything in their path
It swallows
The crowd runs deep
A million feet
Comes to smother
You in faces
By and gone ! An other
Probably off to the races
Locked inbetween polite blank stares
And many strange rules the crowd bears

Okay
I will let the world choose for me
They say
Things are the way they had to be
No way
Could ever truly set one free
𝘖𝘶𝘪 𝘮𝘢𝘪𝘴
There is always enough to see

Today
Such a weird name for memories
Decay
Keeps making everything at ease
Away
Is where we always put the keys
Let's play
With many words and open seas

You sold your soul
To cheat your way into peace
Chose a well lit old path
To keep clear of your own
Discovered many tastes
Of second hand unknowns
Tried what was already true
And then you faded away

Virtue tickles good spirits
With the stroke of many feathers
Touches every peaceful mind
Beyond their wildest dreams
Imagination waking up
On the grass of a fresh abyss
With everywhere to begin with
And whatever else to miss

Eyes looking for an horizon
Still have faith in the end
In a foggy smooth apathy
Hunger ate itself out
"Another piece" you think
Trying to unsee a fool
Hiding in a dream of mirrors
Out of the blue then back again

Yet you're keeping it cool
Gliding the day away
Not a foot on the ground
Clear as sky as always
Everything's lost to the wind
Nothing was meant to stay
Remember, new tomorrows
Further forget today

I don't tell you what to think
I'm showing you what I found
In my travels on the brink
In all this watching around
Open your eyes and just sink
You will never hit the ground
Dig into oceans of ink
Travel a land out of bound

We had us feeling monstrous
I'm telling you what I've seen
Truth first comes from the unconscious
Before we don't know where it's been
We're peddling hallucinations
Finding the way to new fears
On our onboard televisions
But it is music to our ears

Tell good from bad and run across
There is still time to get it wrong
Just keep on running at a loss
Because the road is very long
Find a way through each other's eyes
To tell a stranger the same
What's right with many little lies
As long as no one ruins the game

There's been so many strange things
It's getting hard to keep track
We struck unusual feelings
And gave it all a righteous wack
Constant contextual action
In our historical outburst
Nausea's a common reaction
When stepping foot on something cursed

There's no horizon
But the world seems to end everyday
The sun has risen
Yet shadows still dance the day away
Barely out of sight
Right now still seeing years ago
This cannot be right
This cannot be the way times flow

The walls keep pushing on the ground
Trying to float these feet away
Useless names, faces forever unfound
Memories with nothing to say

One stands paralyzed
Wondering yet again where is here
Never be surprised
The world keeps saying that the end is near
Constantly near
There's no escape from tomorrow

This road leads down to the bakery
Jet planes fly along these mountains
There's been a leak near the cemetery
We keep a padlock on these chains

Street lights go out after 3AM
Birds sing as the sun goes up
It's always new yet it's still the same
We pour coffee in our cup

Tall signs tell us we should be giving way
Neighbors call cats home to eat
People came home with some things to say
Cars go too fast down this street

The old playground has been overgrown
The town's sad crank jumped from a bridge
It's winter time and most birds are gone
We have some bad eggs in the fridge

Background bell noise from the old church
Lots of mushrooms grow in cow's grass
Current went out in a power surge
Someone out there just dropped their glass

Brain chemistry finds logical
To put things together
With all that there is to recall
It's taking forever
Our scientists may understand
All the whims of matter
We may just never learn to stand
How the world walks further

We know the way some particles
Just hold on together
And it's said among articles
It's been since forever
In life there's only chemicals
And things that don't matter
But we'd prefer our chronicles
Would go along further

You look so pale
Must have not finished your vegetables
You look in pain
But there's something else on the table
In case you don't know
I'm dealing with my own fables
If you're asking me
I think you make a huge gamble

Sow the seeds of doubt
I know the truth will never grow
The dirt on others
Shouldn't really affect my glow
I know what is right
You forgot to enjoy the flow
Enjoy the great gift I bestow
I don't only do this for show

They told you what ?
I think that you should know better
Don't get held up
On think that should never matter
You know what is real ?
Their airs will just make you madder
Don't talk about me
I'm doing things by the letter

Lost in my own time
Fighting shadows
Why on my soul must darkness dine
Come tomorrows
With a whole new way to complain
Pieces of space
Filled up with dread but yet so plain
I must keep face
Remember how good it must feel
To win this fight
Do not let bad faith take the wheel
Set it alight

We're on our way out and still there is
Nothing to see
I don't even know why you are still
Speaking to me
Honestly think I have discharged myself
Honorably
But the world still feels like I made
An enemy

Back then when the truth was granted
We didn't care
We made a many headed beast
Out of thin air
Gladly set up our bright red flags
In New Nowhere
Then we climbed up our last mountain
And nothing there

Sometimes the answer is right there
In broad daylight
You can't see it through your foggy
Daily delight
Meanwhile we're connecting the dots
With all our might
We recall words are meaningless
And then we write

My brain is the purgatory of thought
Always busy jumping fences
I have to read past sentences
To know what I'm talking about

Things just happen without mercy
Nonsense nothings no consensus
Reminding me I can't focus
Mind in constant adhocracy

Past reminders of things to do
Taped on and forgotten on walls
After one too many night falls
They're no longer anything new

Everything just scatters aside
Now where did I just put my keys
My things are like a swarm of bees
I need to take a step outside

Feeling somewhat rotten inside
But not really knowing where it went wrong
Looking into no place to hide
Doing what it takes to go along
Wear whatever face that suits you
The tone of things just elicits nonsense
Lying awake dreaming of few
memories when the stars did align

Be whatever has to be you
It is fine to be seeming so bemused
When one's always starting anew
Some things have to bear being used
Stop keeping fingers in your backs
to point on what you don't believe belong
You've really just been losing tracks
And it very well may just be lasting ever long

Why yes of course the devil knows !
No way he's sitting out that one
And no matter how the world flows
Try to utter the word that won, I guess ?
Anything that may help soothe the burns
Of being constantly irate
Helpless, unable of concern
Alone and inconsiderate

Someone has to be wrong
It's written in the rule of things
Cannot keep up, on time for long
Until the end it will pull on your strings
You stole your own soul
Please bring back one when you're finished
Orbiting near the monopole
Finding out that every thing vanished

I don't believe
I'm being sane
I spent so many times in vain
And the troubles
Keep gaining ground
No one believes the things I found

Feels like
I made another stain
I'm not sure if
I'm feeling pain
Just following predilections
Always trusting precognitions

I'm not sure what
I mean to say
Feels like so much
Has gone away
Forgot to put salt on my wounds
Of course you know
The things I've found

Like dust
Floating through the air
Watching people stare
And I wonder what it is that I do
The thinking isn't real
The being doesn't feel
And I wonder what that's supposed to mean
Between there
And nowhere
I don't think I get to choose
I'm on the air
And some is mine
Along the day
Along the night

Like dust
Floating
Falling
Foreshadowing
Drawing faces on a cloud
Seeing
Feeling
Mysticizing
Going places no one would
I don't know why
I don't know where
I don't know that much at all
I keep eating through the air
I keep screaming at the wall

Just got an idea
Of something great to write there
But it left me for some reason
So here's something else instead

It's such a shame
I think it'd have been pretty good
Well I can believe whatever
'Cause I don't remember

If I only could
I'd say all the good things to you
And keep the nonsense to myself
But I can't tell them apart

Walking along such a glitchy path
Fading away in unrecorded memory
Minding your steps in a dance of math
Just blinking thrice
Puts an end to discovery

Rising the stakes, calling the void
toward a rushing horizon
Losing control of a stolen asteroid
Truth is as pure as meaningless
An opinion is romanticized delusion

Finding the way among fragments
Of life simultaneously lost
In time the Dreams will start again
In shared and obvious confusion
And universal vanity

Echoes of faith in the darkness
Splatter meaning on innocent nothings
Let's pray there isn't more to guess
Real is real but what else is
Wait what was the question already ?

This sort of thing
is one of the rare kind
in a lifetime
That, meanwhile you're cruising
Along in the seemingly
more or less homogeneous
lethargic repetitiveness
Of day to day life,
kindly makes you go

What the ****

People are making weird faces around me
Behind my back they are speaking feces about me
And they smear it on their walls
They talk in their 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘵 code

The hand signals, the 𝘦𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘦 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴
The words I barely hear
Words in the corner of their mouth
Their seemingly 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘧𝘦𝘢𝘳

No one's the same when I'm around
And I am 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘦 of it
It's quite telling what I have found
But forget about it. You 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸.

How do I know you're not like them ?
You know the 𝘭𝘺𝘳𝘪𝘤𝘴 to their songs
Would very well want to know but
All I ever feel is that I'm wrong

Am I losing my mind ? Why
Aren't we all eventually
You don't inspire healthy thoughts, to me
𝘈𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 ?


I am so far removed from yous
That I might as well be batshit, to you
Is that a spider on the wall ?
What is looking at me through time ?

Is that the feeling I might have hurt someone ?
I don't know why I'm so sorry
I don't believe I remember well
The last time around was extrasensory

We can't access the memory
Of what has never been a fact
Silly me. The psychiatry.
Oh the inanity. The manipulation knows no bounds

We're all wrong , but hey
"At least this other guy right there
Is way more wrong than me
I can afford to take a break for now right".

You can't, 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳, take a break
And death is a permanent state
Of being drastically tired of life
Not a break and no salvation

𝘕𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴, if I got there
And did not manifest in a fraction
Of wet darkness at the bottom of some
Existentially forsaken mud pit....

Considering an amoeba's
Probable take on existentialism
It's no wonder we're not in the mud pit anymore
We've always been chasing the light

The illusion is so shallow
Drowns in poetic arrogance
Manifests a world in my mind
Then cuts my mind from it

Why is the void still stealing my thoughts
I keep hiding them nowhere
They've been talking they've been watching
Sometimes even started thinking

What at all do you think
With all you sanity, do you believe
That we are more than a blink ?
Well I'm keeping an eye on yous

This morning my little bird died
But I don't know it yet
The air grew cold, feathers grew old
Gazes unusually wet
Yet after all another day
I wasn't so upset

A month flew by and he still died
But the days just reset
He's still in there behind the bars
We got the story straight
Bears the same colors, shares a name
Chirps slightly out of tune

It's been a year and he still died
But I don't know it yet
And memories began to fade
But I can't share them yet
I can't believe he flew away
But I don't need it yet

Before another year goes by
I'll lose another pet
Bring it with me to the deep lake
Of tears I never let
At the bottom of my own heart
The days will just reset.

Nobody knows.
Reality is so verbose
Full of unintended purpose

Who are we,
Nobody knows

Lives right across the undisclosed
With many living things so close

Who are
No body
We know ?

Fictions and dreams of bygone truth
The real world juxtaposes
Stepping inside the living booth
To experience blood and roses

Who are
The body
We know ?

Move away
I want to hear my own sound
Rejoice
Over what is lost and found
By the way
I think I missed your phone call

Memories
Lost touch with reality
Some day
One with a cloud of eternity
Time left
As it was written on the wall

Fiction is such a welcome lie
Under an indifferent sky
Pictures are soaking up the night
Put up some omnipresent light
Not unlike describing colors
Not seeing further anymore
As Time without interruption
Pulls new days back into action

People are the last of their kind
Raise some incoherent hivemind
Mouses all runing down the maze
Moved on by an insolent blaze
There is a place above nothing
Where one could outdo anything
Mountains around just got steeper
Pick at the contextual blur

Fortune seeks only the living
Pulling some omnipotent string
No other task ever given
Courses of fate interwoven
Guiding stray fish out of the sea
An unconscious conspiracy
In disingenuous fanfares
Lets you remember something cares

We've seen it all and we're livid
The illusion is so vivid
Beneath  inconsiderate stares
Through such superior softwares
Almighty, calm and innocent
The world always gets its consent
In due blissful incompetence
Adrift yet always on the fence

Amid evermoving edges
In fantasy and in pages
Looking for a new way to find
Another path to nevermind
We call for the puppet master
And Time couldn't go on faster
On teaching us to get a clue
That nothing else that it is true

The tolerance has grown stronger
We could go on for much longer
Through an antidepressant screen
Reliving the anthropocene
Keep on rekindling the fire
Find the end of the quagmire
Drowning existential distress
Alone with anybody's guess

Lost in contextual warfare
We truly have no word to spare
If we should ever get a clue
On what we believe to be true
Matter of mind, remind later
Learn to spell out endless chatter
Wouldn't mind bending heuristics
Around unfortunate metrics

Another morning to reset
The pawns on which the sun will set
And some times feel like providence
Made so you could tell evidence
Morality monopoly
Lobotomized territory
Hide luck beneath the thinking feed
Be mindful of the word you breed

Straight ahead with the workers of the mind
Lost in a minefield and walking blind
Sempiternal might against alienated sparks
Aiming for stars and earning these marks

Waking away into some unfun feeling dream
The only way out was the one way in
During the day, when the righteous fury starts
Pure automation with many moving parts

Glimpses of old life shining in through the night
Auroras fell into few eyes tonight
Moving to nowhere, pick a favourite shade of grey
Negociate with death as you sit down to pray

It's a different kind of order
Laying beneath the flying moon
Through blades of grass, mindless fodder
I know the clouds are leaving soon

And right on time mine is about
Shameful visions crawling away
Some better eyes may express doubt
I'm waiting like I know the day

Infinite stream, endless wonder
Just out of sight and everywhere
And then the space where dreams wander
Inbetween this all we're aware

What is up close will start to blur
When one just stops and looks away
And voices lost in the future
Will then begin to show the way

Adrift where everything is vague
Waves of meaning scatter around
Avoiding reason like a plague
Flying too high missing the ground

One look at the world that made you
Do you think that it thought it through ?
Another day another clue
Another dance around the *****

I'm putting clues out into the universe
I seem to always find new ones
Lost in the past stuck walking in reverse
I can see only days ago

I'm making sense of something that doesn't
Put it right back onto the pile
Discarded bits of thought by the dozen
Fresh memory from days ago

Something's not right with the way the world looks
Water feels dry air sounds filtered
I wonder what is left for the history books
It was still like that days ago

Look down a while and you'll find stranger things
Nothing can get past true boredom
I let my body walk while I'm pulling the strings
It started running days ago

There is no game of power
Inbetween pawns
From here only what's leftover
Until on one the truth dawns

Living in the small world
One would learn to look away
From words uttered and faces whirled
Smiling because they know the way

And somewhere deep inside
Seems like somebody hid the key
We were born the day freedom died
Stumbled our way out of the sea

Whatever ever it may not be long
Before I dabble in psychiatry
I'd urge you not to come along
Disease has its own poetry

I hear a song softly whisper
Into the wind out of the blue
Hear notes hanging on the aether
But the voices cannot come through
Left to guess in the hereafter
On what I believe to be true
I fear I couldn't tell ever
There are much better things to do

I saw in beautiful colors
Much of what remains to be seen
In the body my soul weathers
Fragments fall back into the screen
In a boring land of wonders
Into the gears of the machine
I walked in looking for answers
Got none and lost grip on my spleen

Sometimes I wait and hear nothing
Feels like the thunder's gone away
Like reality was bluffing
Keeping the nosy minds at bay
My muse just took me for a fling
No matter what I have to say
Most things are worth remembering
But most of it will just decay

Nothing that great is being said
Accross the pomerium ahead
Can talk for hours, can't hear nothing
Over the dull voice they're casting
Some body stands, some body sits
And this one couldn't be bothered

And as the slow lights fade away
We're incomplete another day
Follow the easy way they say
Another swing at the ashtray
One miss and the whole place will burn
And these ones couldn't be bothered

Playing with fire in the dawn
Every true color is long gone
Not seeing people through faces
Not seeing yourself through the screen
Putting the pawns in their places
Because they couldn't be bothered

Don't you all want to be like them
Aren't you way above the ****
You show it in the way you walk
The words you smile the colour you talk

Don't you all feel lost in this land
Surrounded by lines in the sand
Unspoken lies outrageous dares
Living among the many blank stares

You're words apart with your own heart
You don't really know when to start
Don't you all stand there mesmerized
Doing first whatever is advised

We're all the same to each other
But some are just ourselves better
They show it in the way they walk
The words they smile the colours they talk

I distrust reality
There is doubt
In my gravity
Casting out
Some lines
In the well
Finding signs
The whole world just fell

I have doubts
In their sanity
Ins and outs
Dreams and vanity
Far beyond
Conceivable terms
Pretty fond
Of feeding the worms

I take pride
In our eulogy
I abide
By mythology
Our latest fever
Got us out of bed
We could feel better
At least we're not dead

The void difuses anywhere
Takes onto each given up thought
Rots through your every memories
Behind your eyes you cannot see
How much its has taken its toll
Burning through all you'll ever be
Neutralises what once fought
To save this gorgeous scenery
From blindness
You thought once that you could fight back
Meaningful words
Hard to come by
In the echoes of distant fear
Days forgotten
Seconds pass by
It couldn't be any more clear

Accept the mystery
Of the deep unknown
Lost to history
The unseen you own
To fulfil your dreams
Don't step on others'
With so many teams
Nobody bothers
Lay the words in pages
And lay the pages up
Hold them through the ages
The world will never stop

I want to see your favourite colors
On the walls
We all belong to others
No matter where destiny falls
Please show me the astonishing
That we'll keep forever
Just a piece that we're missing
We have to find together
So much is hidden in dreamland
That we  know where to find
Casting away anything bland
We'd no longer be walking blind

You eyes
Feel so very heavy
Right now
Just take a deep
Cool breath of air
And let your mind
Fill up with snow
Come back to where
You always were
Ominous peace
Surging below
Failing time in
The blank you stare
The voices you
Gently follow
Blissfuly blank
And empty
Magnetic words
Softly hollow
Crossing the void
To sound pretty
You're falling out
Below the flow
Forsaking your
Humanity