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Cnk Dec 2014
She
Loneliness secrets through my body
As I struggle to understand
What’s wrong with me
Answers
That’s all I demand

Left out in the cold
In a cave of inconsistency
Who knew I could be so bold
Finding truth in the lies you’ve told
Trying to escape this mold you trapped me in
Set me free
Let me go
I’m turning cold

Darkness surrounds me
Enclosing my walls
Setting me off as a torn soul
Some wouldn’t say I’m damaged
At all

Look inside me…
All the way in the back…
Where it used to be flat…
You tore out a valley…
Now it’s black…
How about that

-Cnk
Cnk Dec 2014
Why can’t poets be happy
All we talk about
Are tales of depression
And minor suppressions

That lost eye contact with the girl down the hall
Maybe it was saving you
From an even bigger heartbreak
The world saved you that mistake

Why do we think everything is lost
We’re the ones who tossed it away
Maybe we just want the thrill
To be lost up a hill
With no one to save us
From the fate
We gave us

I’ll never understand
Why we can’t withstand
The thought of happiness

It’s so ****** up
That we write in the shadows
And we close up
To those who love us

Maybe I’m just mad
At the world for all it could be
Why does everything have to be so sad
Not all of us go bad
I had a dream everything was okay
And had happiness written in the sky
Too bad dreams end with what we could
Have had
It makes life seem so much more sad
-Cnk
Cnk Dec 2014
Some say I’m warm
And inviting
Like Liquor on a lonely night

When my friends leave
And my family’s off to bed
I’m sentenced to face myself
Through everyone I’ve mislead

Above my face releases
The sight of being nice
But journey under my skin
And realize I’m cold as ice

I can’t help the disguise
Connected to my skull
It hides the real me
The one put away unconsciously

I don’t want anyone to see
What’s not the best of me

As I sit up I stare
At the blank walls
The dark closet

It’s 8 O’clock again
Time to go
Make sure my dark soul doesn’t show
-Cnk
Cnk Dec 2014
I’m empty and I like it
Every now and then
I search my soul
Only to find what I’ve known

I’m prone to feeling alone
It’s not something that I condone
Like a shadow in the dark
I disappear to where
No one can hear

I feel a certain kind of sad
One not for everyone
The mellow entrancement pulls me under
Thunder comes from above
I’m stuck in the slow drizzle of an oncoming storm
But unlike everyone else
I don’t want out

Some call it misery
I prefer to understand it as bliss
No one to bring you down
No one to keep you up
The emptiness inside
Only makes me feel more alive

-Cnk

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