the physco
In us all
Is a creature
One others rarely see

Yet a creature
We know too well
Its a chaos we rarely see

Its a creature
That cowars behind
It is rarely shown

Its a creature
That festers with time
Someday it will explode

This thing is fearful
Bashful and
filled with rage
Confusion

Yet no one knows the creature
No one knows its age
No one knows its birth

Yet we know the creature
We know how much it's worth
We know how much we need
To see the hidden strength

It is a feeling
That grows more and more
Till one day
Calm is seen no more

Just a few too many
Pushed too far
Till we fall of the cliff

We dive way down
We drag other with
We leave some behind

Yet as we fall we feel free
An aspect of us unleashed
Revealed for all to see

Its an emotion
Help with in
With the goal of never using

Yet someday
Our brains will pop
The pressure too much to bear

Physo will be free
Our ideals change in an instant
And a once broken heart
Though not fixed
Will be seen as perfect

For our smiles hide our feelings
Our words hide our screams
Our acts hide our tears
And our brains hide our thoughts

We decide to ourselves
For i am best For me.
I never leave, always stay
will always be set free

For I know my values
I live up as best I can
When others fail to meet them
Its my fault for thinking
That they could be good for me

We lose our self
We lose all trust
We lose all faith
As our minds now turn to dust

When time goes by
day by day
You watch everyone
Walk away

Days can come
Days can go
Yet everyone
Takes actions slow

They see the fire
Burn and glow
Yet it never gives sight
Nor heat, nor light

Never gives warmth
Nor joys, nor laughter
Only burning coals
That remain after

The coals are there
Ready to ignite
If someone there
Will give the right

The darkness surrounds
The pointless fire
For its light is a lie
An empty desire

Its heat is a curse
To show you good
Then burn your skin
For bleed you should

For in the dark
Or in the light
The fire is
A source of fright

A thing to observe
But never tend
An item used for good
But then, to evil, bend

This is the fire that sill soon die
This is the fire that is done and shy
This is the fire that will no longer be
This is the fire or sorrowful desire

A thud, a knock
A tap at your door
Will you open

There is a person
A practicing friend
Who desires to know you more

Yet will you chose
To let them in
Or for them to stay on the porch

To unlock your door
Is a notable challenge
With pains from burns and scorch

Yet is the price
Worth having a friend
Will you open the door

Will you respond
To the thud, the knock
Will you hear the tap at the door

The feelings I hide
Pretending I'm shy
Are a painful piece
Of my inner eye

The bottle of ocean
Green or blue
High tide or low
Rough seas or calm

Crashing waves
A melody or fear
Stormy nights
Or the stars are clear

To set course for north,
South, no, west
Perhaps to go East
Maybe that would be best

To spy glass the land
Or measure a star
Oh the distance
Is always far

Yet
My spy glass to you
My ocean in light
My waves on your beach
My stars give a clue
Yet that's a secret
I will never tell
One you want say
Of that I knew.

Running water
Twisting light
Shooting forward
Blocks your sight

Water is running
Down the slide
Back and forth
From side to side

Swirling round
Jumping cracks
Leading the people
Who ride on their backs

It paves the road
For them to follow
Leading them through
To the shallow

Splashes here
And splashes there
Drops are spraying
Everywhere

But then the life guard
Calls your name
The park is closing
Goodbye water
Tomorrow you'll repeat the same

Mystery surrounds
We can not tell
We know not
How we fell

I am cursed to walk
Among those down low
Where people pass
And time is slow

Where leaves turn brown
Where rivers freeze
Where the sky turns dark
And you can feel the breeze

This foreign place
I do not know
I want the truth
That will never show

I want to be told the secret
To this foreign land
But I fear I lost the bet
Question is, at who's hand?

You walk, you drive,
You live your life
And yet you feel
So much strife

You're filled with anger,
Sorrow, and tears
You've been this way
For many years

And with each year
A new tear comes
A new face flees
A person runs

For no one sees
Your pain within
Their eyes are blind
Brains in a spin

They are there
No words to share
No life to live
No breathe to give

Questions unanswered
Messages left
Moods unchecked
Intentions neglect

The reason behind
Is silence ahead
No fulfilled request
Loneliness and dread

You invest time
Money, and mind
Soul and heart

But in the end
All you see
Is love broke apart

You try your hardest
You give your all
But it never will safice

So why try
Why push ahead
When every step
Is a sacrifice

You do everything
With perfection
Trying hard not to offend

You do so great
Perfection really
Then you fall off
the deepest end

Your mind goes dark
Your thoughts become fear
And never do you mend

Your unconscious thoughts
Your fear of loneliness
Have now appeared

Be her friend
Let her grow close
The demons all sneered

But then those demons
They have won
They applauded and cheered

You've been left
Abandoned
Alone

A powerful light
A beacon of hope
That had once shone

Now dead in the tower
Hides above
Never to walk bellow

You have tried
You gave your all
But even perfection
Is only third best

Is this a test?
To try my worth?
To check where my faith lies?

If so why have You left?
The temple gone
The millenium far
Unhearing to their cries

Everyone is happy
All dancing around
But no one realizes
They're all earth bound

They are all cursed
Forever failures
Always kept
Locked by the sailors

The sailors of sorrow,
Mishief, deceit
No one will ever
Reality, defeat

The truth is we're stuck
Together in death

So why do we try
To lean on those not there
To give angry glare
To ask for help
From those who don't care

Why try to be close
To people so far
So distant from reality
No one sees the char

The ashes remain
They flutter here and there
Its a permanent snare
That we all ignore

Optimism they say
Things could always be worse
But they are the ones
Who ignore the curse

The curse of ashes
Poisoning our air
The curse of friendship
One oh so fair

Yet it all crashes
For no love was real
This is where
Your death it does seal

Only those who are strong
Can truly see the world
And the curse we all know

Is only acknowledged by them
The world is broken,
Shattered, and torn
Yet we desire to see joy
Fulfillment, and love.
But none of it exists

Your head
Is in a spin

But sometimes that
Is what you need
To see the earth
In its orbit

Around the sun
It spins around
It never stops
Always in motion

So spinning
In life
In shadow
In your head
Or in your heart
Should only be
Seen as natural

Time with you
Walks and talks
Drives and shops
Never is a waste

I cherish the minute
The moment
The hour
It passes by
In haste

Never does it feel
Like it lasted long enough
Always passes by too fast
But it's joy
Will always last
You make me happy

Time with you
My favorite thing
I get to know you more

Talking with you
My favorite words
I wonder if you snore?

Walking with you
My favorite steps
Along the rivers shore

Sitting with you
My favorite rests
My heart wants to soar

Eating with you
My favorite sight
Food never is a chore

Dates with you
My favorite nights
Endless fun, smiles galore.

At these times
Time spent with you
My happiness shoots high

My mind awakes
My heart is alive
I feel at peace inside

But pursuing you
Is my favorite call
For it is with you
I can overcome all

We sit and watch
We look around
But what we see
Is never sound
Our ears can perk
Our noses smell
But never will
We realize Hell
Is often closer
To our hearts
Then all the clouds above

Our vision blurs
Our ears can droop
Our noses plug
Our hands grow cold

So ever key we hit
Only becomes
harder with ice
We play a key
And yet don't see
The giant size
Of what is lost
A feeling
An emotion
A thought
A song

For in a moment
It all turns wrong
No note is heard
No shadow seen
Only a growing fire
With but one desire
To burn all
That we love
And rid us
Of our hearts

For deep inside
We all know
Our shadows grow
When no one sees
When no one listens
Hears or smells
And slowly we enter
A dark damp room
With locked doors
And no source of light
In this room is a piano
One with shimmering keys
Tainted in blood
Wood is sanded
Smooth and soft

Yet,

Hit a note
And no sound comes
For all the stings
They have been cut
And each string
Represented
A dream that will never come

So curl up
Hide
Try not to cry
For your head is gone
Your eyes are blind
Your ears are deaf
Your nose is plugged
Your hands are cold
And feet are numb
And soon you will
Be dead

We look around
The world is full
People everywhere

Yet, as we look
We see no life
No breath in the air

No one sees
The suffocation
Of hearts that care

No one sees
The coming death
Of what once was there

People come
Breathing joy
Only to turn away

They snuggle close
Then flee in horror
And this is what they say

"The darkness rises
The clouds grow
The moon shines red

The trees creak
The fires glow
Yet no light is shed

I will search
For those long gone
Till all breath is dead"

The earth spins
It hurdles onward
Floating through
And falling downward

Towards the depths
Of empty space
Towards the center
Of darkness race

Into the void
Of blackness thick
Where blue souls
Are all your pick

In the floating void
Of menacing eyes
With tumbling rocks
Of crushing size

This void is black
The center burning
Burning dark purple
And burning people

Our souls are on earth
All blue with sorrow
Heading towards this void
To be dead past morrow

This is where
We see the night
We see our world
We see the flight

It all will end
In a purple flame
With our souls all crushed
And filled with shame

Our spirits are weak
Our desires are lost
For in the endless void of fire
The earth will be tossed.

A candle sits
On top a desk
A lonely flame
A shining light

But then the darkness
Breaks away
Another light
Now shines real bright

It casts a flicker
It catches the eye
Of the other
candle present

Is this light
This flicker
This flame
A friend?

Or maybe this sight
Should be a source
Of worry, dread,
And fear

After all,
It seems that each
And every year
A new candle
Can be seen

So is it a friend,
A foe, 
A fear,

Or is it someone
Who should be
Brought near?

No matter the twinkle
No matter the star
No matter the wish
Or the distance far

No matter the night
Or the monsters fright
There is someone
With all the might

Watching, listening
Keeping you safe

It's our Father Above
With eyes of love

He desires your best
A good nights rest
A kiss and a hug
With no bed bug

A sweet calm dream
Of a steady stream
Or a sailors ship
Or a family trip

No matter the vision
Through out the night
There is our Father above
Who keeps away all fright