CloudedVision

CloudedVision May 2018

I live in a world of sadness
One with no hope at all
People don't live long
Before death calls you its spawn

The world is in the dark
No light shines upon
The lights that once were
Are hiding or have gone

People are sad with no joy to share
They live in their homes
with games and greed galore
They live their lives in desperation

But I was taught to fight the sorrow
I see the truth beyond
I ignore that we live
In the age of allegation

I see what we need
We need an inner light
One that will never let us be
To give us our reason surpassing hope.

To give us glory
to give us joy
even when there is nothing to smile for
That is how we should live our lives

With a hope beyond earth
And mission above
We can live with out fear
We can live free like a dove

CloudedVision Apr 2018

Anger is all I feel

This poem may not rhyme
Or give a pretty sound
Buts an accurate description
Of the voices that I hear

I FEEL ANGER

All I can feel is anger inside me
For what I don't enjoy has come
I asked for a friend, I got a statue
One that nods at all my words.

I feel anger
I'm mad at the world
Its doesn't give me love
It gives me little good

People don't see all the greatness there
They cast their glance beyond
They look for something, easy and cheep
Something that will give them much

But by doing so they miss the true target
The target of joy and love
They miss what matters, what's really important
They miss out on it all

That's why I'm mad, for they miss their mark
And throw me by the way side
I'm thrown like trash, a shot and hes gone
Down the hoop of garbage

I feel mad, a deserving wrath
My feelings are not healthy
My fists are clenched
My teeth forced against each other
My eyes are glaring mad

I'm mad at people, they are no good
They only kindle my anger
why cant they see the young man they have tossed
Why don't they listen to reason

I feel like I'm about to lash out
I can't deal with this no more
You've plucked the last straw
SO LEAVE ME ALONE!
I don't want you here.

You've done great good, I appreciate that
But that good was so long ago
Why can't you be like you were
A true friend to me

Now your different
And I hate the change
You can't see the light
The light that sits right in front of you

I don't even know why I'm here
Your no longer good to me
The world has turned its face away
And you have turned there too.

I loved you once
Now you've kindled my anger
Don't talk to me no more

As much as I have cared for you
You've done nothing to accept my kindness
Why do I try any longer
When you only throw me away

I'm angry, and I don't like it
But I can't tolerate no more.
So either you listen, and heed my words
Or else be gone for good!

CloudedVision Apr 2018

Any, My Whisper of Light

Any where and anytime
I'd love to be with you
For it is with you that I am happiest
I wish we were stuck like glue

I love you and you love me
You make me feel all bubbly
When I'm with you im
All filled up inside with joy and glee

Every morning when I wake up
Your the first person I think of
Every night when I go to bed
Your where my thoughts are headed

I love you, and never want us apart
For when im with you
My heart races, and hands get sweaty
For I don't know what to do

Your just to much for me to handle
Your too much joy for me to bear
You bring me happiness no matter where
That's why for you, ill always care

You give me peace, joy, and comfort
You give me reason to continue onward
You are my whisper
My whisper of light

Becasue you give me joy and reason
I see you as my own
But not just that, but as my helping hand
And as my loving friend

I appreciate you and your love
Its what I've always dreamed i would have
But now I have it, a dream come true
My head will spill with excitement

You really do mean the world to me
Ill never lose you my dear
Your someone ill never give up
Ill fight eye, tooth, and ear

I love you more then anything
You've been a beauty in a fallen land
You've been my angel, watching over me
Youve been my whisper of light

You have saved me from sadness and fear
You have brought me life without tear
You have been good to me
You are my whisper of light

You once said you would follow me
Sky, sea, and land
But what i want you to know
Is that ill never go
Through those with out your hand

All I need is your hand in mine
Your head upon my shoulder
I need to know your here right next to me
I need your hand in mine

Im strong with you, or so says I
I feel invincible, so with one hand
I feel I could conquer the world
Just so long as you hold the other

I love you, without end or fade
You mean so much to me
When I'm with you, during that time
My hearts truly set free

I love you to infinity and beyond
You've been my hope i decree
So it is with you, I want my life
A thriving willow tree.

This tree will grow tall and strong
Because of the good it receives
The good is from you, its morning sun
I love you beyond degree

CloudedVision Apr 2018

Lost in Space

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone in space
Sometimes feel I'm not running the race

There once was a time when I was flying on by
But I feel i've fallen by with a sigh

So here I am lost in space
clinging to an astroid
Floating in place

I'm stuck here all by myself
Because those I thought were close
Have gone somewhere else
Ive lost those around me
I'm stuck with no glee

But as I sit here floating aimlessly
I cling to the only friend I can see
And that is this astoid that I'm holding onto, cold and small

My feelings are lost I'm stuck in sorrow
Stuck with anger and pain
Then I sense in my mind the depression start to rain

I have no comfort no one to help
No one is hear to wipe away my tears

There is nothing I can do but hold on tight
My brain is in for a really big fight
A fight I will lose because I'm all alone
No one seems to care
Often times people gaze upon me as I float on by
Only to think theres a poor fellow and then skip me from their mind

The sun doesn't shine only darkness I see
The world has left, it left with out me

Now what can I do, I can sit here alone
Sit until I'm ****** up into a black whole
And its in the black whole ill truly see
Just how pointless life truly is to me

CloudedVision Apr 2018

Loved

Sometimes people feel left out
They feel they're all alone
But you make me feel important
For like a light you've shone

All those years ago I asked the question
Will you be my valentine
You said yes and that was the start
Of a love so true, please be mine

You'll never know how much you help
To make me feel alive
When I'm with you I feel my heart
Is flying, gliding high

For the joy you give I can never repay
Nor for the kindness that you show
Please don't ever go away
For like an angel you glow

CloudedVision Apr 2018

In the Darkness, In the Cold, Where am I?

The darkness here is thick and cold
Im living a life but I'm not bold
I sit here scared
Scared of my life
Scared for my life
Scared of where my life will lead

There is no light
For it has ran
My life's not bright
Its boring, bland

So here I am where ever this is
In a place of darkness, fear, no bliss

Its dark in here
Its cold in here
I look around
can't see the ground
where am I

Then I see a flicker of light
I come closer
Its suddenly bright
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

Then the brightness fades away
Im stuck again where i was before
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

My skin is burning
I'm freezing cold
I want my pain to end
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

But then all a sudden
In front of me
I happen to see
A figure a shadow
Of who it is I'm meant to be
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

This figure reaches
Outstreched hand
Gives me a light
A torch in hand
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

I thought the torch
Would warm me up
But the fire's cold
The wood will not scorch
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am i

I look around
Now able to see
I see no color
Only dark empathy
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

Im all alone
My feelings drone
I feel like I'm
A life unknown
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

I live my life
In the darkness here
But no one truly knows my fear
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

I fear a lot of what is to come
And where my thoughts will be
Im lying here my thoughts all dead
Then I remember my life I dread

In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I?
The answer is
I'm in my mind
Alone and unforgiving

My mind is dark
Not easily lit
And if a light
Can manage to shine
Its only for a bit

My life is shattered, torn, and cruel
I feel like I'm in a standing duel
A duel I cant win because if my sin
Because of my lack of sustaining joy

So here I remain
In the darkness
In the cold
Stuck inside my mind
Please someone
Make it end

An end to all my grief
Only then will you be
Someone I can love
A sincere and true friend.

So please my friend
Be a light
A light that will last
Or else my head and I
We may just have to never see
An end to this dark sickness
For it to end is what I plea

CloudedVision Apr 2018

Ocean of the Wicked

Here I am on top a hill the water closing fast
I hope I learn how to swim or else my life won't last

The water now has eaten me I'm in the deep dark blue.

Now I really have to wish
That like a bird I flew

But now I'm covered by a blanket of blue surrounded by those I love

But being with them I'm still not happy
Done is my life above

So as I sink further down I open my eyes to see
But the water around slightly stings my eyes
that are in that sea

I'm stuck down here below the surface the water squeezing in

So as I know my life will end
As I think of all my sin

Of all the sinful acts and dreams I have thought and done

I realize I'm such a fool for not believing Noah

He is the one who could have saved me
Buinside
Despair is swimming
Lurking near laughing at me
no hope I see
Only in a matter of time my life will no longer be

So as I take my dying breath a pain I will imbibe

The pain of water filling my lungs and the pain of my grief inside