oh, the pity, the grief, the disappointment, the lies. So shameful, so depressing, so disgraced from society.  The hate, the pain of  no acceptance, so guilty. Bad decisions, bad choices, the lies that can never be taken away, they just linger in you, taking away joy, love, and peace. And for what, the only answer to be found is nothing. It's all for nothing in the long run, trying to save your skin, but end up getting grinded into the pavement. Stupid, stupid choices!

Friendships are good, except when you have a crush on one of your friends. That's when things get... interesting, confusing, frustrating, comical, awkward, and sometimes if you have enough patience and time things right you might get to date that friend. The only thing that makes things worse is if your friend/crush is already in a relationship and doesn't think of you as a potential boyfriend or girlfriend. Or if they don't swing in the same ball park as you, if you know what I mean.

where the wind blows I shall go,
neither here nor there or any where,
I am neither low to the ground or high like the sky,
I just drift along with the wind floating ever so peacefully,
I never stay but I may come back again SOME DAY,
I go with the wind not against it,
I am what I am,
Neither here nor there or anywhere!

I'm just me and that's ok, I been through the fires and the storms, living my dream. I am who I am because of those experiences, sure they were painful and tearful, but now im living my life cheerful. This is my paradise, and this is only the beginning of it, any expectations or ideas I have probably don't even compete with anything I am going to accomplish in my future. I don't regret my past, because I can't change it, the only I can change is my future. I can't change anything but myself, and can't change anyone, but I can help them accomplish their goals. I don't want to fit in or be like anyone else, because I'm me and that's all im going to be. I found my magic, I have found this passion that fills me with joy. I thank God for the answer I was searching for.

Gravity, love, betrayal, temptation, violence, nothing can destroy me, I been going hard all my life, indestructible, till one day I came across my teenage years, yeah puberty was my kryptonite. Then real life hit me, and I couldn't get up, I was stuck to the ground with my pride all gone. Yeah, I used to feel like I was better than everyone, I fought anyone who tried to make fun of me, I blew up at people like I was dynamite. Yeah I was a king, and the world was my steeping stone, I was reaching higher and higher until people could start recognizing me. Then It all came crashing down, I was lost in adversity, so caught up in materialism and new feelings that I couldn't control. Like they say pride comes before the fall, and I fell hard. I blamed everything and everybody for my problems, but now I just have myself left to blame, it's a different feeling when a man high in himself loses control. I guess you can say I was as indestructible as the titanic, yeah I just keep sinking deeper and deeper in this monotonous world, top dog out of touch in his own yard. Those were some dark times, man I was starving for something, I was desperate, until I found my answer, that cured this cancer of mine. Now Im greater than ever man, back to my throne, looking over all.

Life is like a circle,  You live , you go to school, you graduate, you make a lot of mistakes on the way, you buy a house for yourself or maybe just live in an apartment. You get your first, second or third job, you maybe go to college or university and graduate, than get a better job. Maybe while being in a relationship, you get married and have kids, and then the circle begins again but this time it's for your kid. While you grow older, made some good money, get to see your kid(s) go through life like you did, but hopefully had a better experience. Then next thing you know your in an old folks home. Your kids are married off, and every so often you get to meet your grand kids, and see them go through their circle of life. Knowing that's yours is about to end. But it's ok cause you've done it all, and you don't regret anything, and if you had the choice you wouldn't really want to change a thing if you got to start all over again.

so dangerous, so destructive, so isolative, such a waste of time and energy. Insecurity... the thing that destroys relationships, self confidence, and innocence. Oh, it's not just puberty, it effects all ages. Why do I let you effect me, why do I have to care what other people think of me, why do I strive for people's approval, why can't I be ok with myself, why do I care about things I've never cared about before. Why I am jealous of some person's cooler stuff, why can't I be appreciative about what I already have? Why am I so intimidated of higher powers. Why do I care if somebody's better than me at something. Insecurity, it all comes down to Insecurity.

life, so confusing, so corrupt, so messed up, so essential, sometimes fun.
jobs, so corrupt, so necessary, so stressful, so annoying, sometimes fun.
Poems, so fun, so creative, so intellectual, so good, always essential.  Poems is the only thing that show's the real me, poems are there when I need to grieve, poems is my creativity at work. Poems are me, poems are the only thing I need. The only thing I live and enjoy, and keep breathing in.

im just so addicted, I keep trying to get out, but I always fall to temptation and that quick high. I always talk myself into that dark situation, it's so deceiving, it looks so good but it just makes life hurt more. It leaves me stuck in a muck, I need some help, before I get lost in my deadly desires. I need a savior, who will help me get out, before I end it all. Why do I do this to myself, why do I long for something that harm's me. Why do I always feel depressed, this guilt keeps weighting on me, I need to get out of this mess.

I fall, but I pick myself up, I start to drown but I get saved, I've walked through the valley of the shadow of death. I have faced the storms, I have persevered through every obstacle in my path. I am a warrior, fire doesn't burn me, ice doesn't cool me, but I am also the servant who serves a higher purpose, that doesn't do it for the glory or the praise. I am not some dumb animal, you may cage me, but you can't cage my spirit. You may **** me, yet I live eternal, not by my power, but by God's power.

all around, no sound, but I feel. I can feel cold, I can feel warm, I just go on whispering. Through the day I can change patterns, without any hesitation at all , I just goes on whispering, yet I has no mouth to whisper from. what am I?

fall, burn, heat,love, warmth.
gleaning, glistening, breathing, crackling, memories.
Ashes, all ashes, nothing more, ashes all around the grounded floor.
Ashes that's brings joy and hope, that sparks up scary story's at night.
You fall but yet you can continue to burn, you use your heat to keep us warm, oh that warmth you bring is like love.

People treat life as if it was some kind of game. They don't understand the whole picture of life, yeah they only focus on the frame. Life isn't as easy as connect the dots or tic-tac-toe. Society treats life like it was a monopoly game, buying as many property's as they can, cheating, lying,  stealing, and hogging all the money. Life is a confusing misconception, people say believe in this, believe in that, yeah I guess we can't think for ourselves. We buy stuff to escape our own reality, we say we want the truth but we can't handle the truth. We do this day by day, we are a cowardly mindless slave. We just go with the flow hoping that one day when we die, we will be good enough to be saved.

I am a avenger, I am a defender, you are not my master, I control my own destiny, you can not break me because I can not be broken, I won't let myself become a monstrosity. You can call on me or my team when were needed, don't fight a battle that you can't win by yourself, cause with an army by your side we will unite and not be defeated. When we assemble together, to fight as one, the enemy will tremble and our battle will be won.  No matter the obstacle in our path we will overcome it together, we don't just fight for ourselves, were fighting for other people, so the people of the future can live a better sequel. From the heroes of the past, to the legacy of the future, we unite together as a whole, to live life to it's fullest is our ultimate goal.

What is Life? How do we determine what it is? How do we feel? How do we taste? Why do we live? Why do we die? What is our purpose? Who knows the answer? All these questions, yet it seems so obvious or simplistic to some, where as others it is all blurry as fog. Is religion right? Or is their nothing out their. I found my answer, how about you?

Welcome to the battleground of life, stuff happens that you can't explain, their may be some death and their will be some struggles and pain, and after the war is over will we even be the same. To survive the floods and flame's, to survive starvation, and to fight the thoughts that say I should just put a bullet through my brains. To be able to put up with crap from other people, to forgive a person whose abused you just sounds crazy or surreal, but it's not for them it's for you, time to get rid of the hate so can start a new sequel. Are you living you're life for yourself or for other's, are you the wimp under the covers or are you the man who gives up everything for the freedom of others. Poppy's in flander's field, to love one's we've lost, the price for peace was an expensive and devastating cost. The traumatic experiences that would change the world, the fight for right's and equality, to be able to believe in anything you want, to get rid of hate and stereotypical inogoles. Amazing grace how sweet that sound that saved a hard nosed person like me, from being blind from the truth to being able see it, from thinking I couldn't make it, to being able to build it up for everyone to see. I was lost in my own selfish mind set, to finding the humility to be thankful and honest. I used to think life was like a nursery song like ring around the rosy, yeah I just thought we lived and died and that was it, but I found out their is more to life that lead me down a path of enlightenment.

Bonjour, hello to this French revolution, where people fought against the corrupted monarchy and created a new constitution. Hunger, no rights and no respect, they could not seem to solve it peacefully, so they cut off Louis the XVI neck. Marie Antoinette was a heartless greedy *****, she stole the people's food, so now she deserves some punishment, this is a historical moment for these people which they would soon cement. They started the Reign of Terror, which some may say was a costly and unnecessary error. Millions of people were killed and most were wrongly accused, their used to be equality, liberty, and fraternity, but all people saw was death, which is something not to be amused. The French Revolution where the third class fought the monarchy, so everyone could have true equality, liberty, and fraternity. Then came a guy named Napoléon who changed their wicked ways, he founded new ideas which created the future you see today. I know he wasn't exactly the best, he crowned himself the emperor, which no one had a say on, he pretended to respect the church and have meritocracy but really he was just a con, deceiving people as if they were just a couple of pawns. Napoléon is a wimp, he cost millions of lives, he also abandoned his armies multiple times, he may be one of the, greatest strategist's in the world, but really he's just a waste of time. Napoléon should have figured out not to attack Russia at winter time, it never worked out before so why would it work this time. He may be a symbol of France and the greatest self proclaimed emperor, but he died because of his pride just like Maximillian Robespierre. That was the end of the French Revolution, they slowly lost their power but they still hold onto their republican constitution. So aurevoir for now, bon voyage to you grande revolution, till your next controversial decisions and solutions.

good meets bad,

bad meets evil,

time to make a new life,

forget about  the prequel,

man it's all about the sequel,

it's a time to survive,

not a time to die,

time to make a new history,

and no longer being confined,

time to break out of prison,

cutting away the red tape,

cause this is a new age,

redifined and recreated,

we aren't some stupid ape,

survival of the fittest?

man this ain't the hunger games,

if it were we'd be dead,

or in alot of pain,

bad life to good life,  

survival vs denial,

we all make mistakes,

every once in a while,

cause you only live once,

so start living your life,

sometimes i wish i could,

live my life twice,

but you can't cause that's life,

you say life *****,

your glass half empty,

start looking at it half full,

forget about the prequel,

time to make a new sequel.

Bad life to good life,
good meets bad,
bad meets evil,
time to make a new life,
forget about the prequel,
man it's all about the sequel,
it's a time to survive,
not a time to die,
time to make a new history,
and no longer being confined,
time to break out of prison,
cutting away the red tape,
because this is a new age,
redefined and recreated,
we aren't some stupid ape,
survival of the fittest?
man this ain't the hunger games,
if it were we'd be dead,
or in a lot of pain,
we try to play the nice card,
but man people don't play,
that game,they just put on their mask
and fake themselves, man this society is going insane

Dear Dad, we’ve had our up’s and down’s
From being out of my life for fourteen years
To being in counselling sessions that made you realize your mistake
I was so hurt because of you, but I still forgave you

Dear Dad, I am glad we have a good relationship now
Every second week we hang out and play videogames or watch movies
We don’t communicate about a lot of stuff, as long as we still hang out that’s fine with me
We’ve come a long way, and i’m thankful I didn’t end my life back when I was hurt

Dear Dad, I don’t want you to feel guilty for not being in my life
And you're not the only reason, I wanted to end my life
See what’s done in the past, doesn’t matter today
Cause dad, I love you, and that’s all that matter’s to me today

I walk along day by day, getting water for my family
Every hour since the hour I wake up to do this
Some days the only thing I eat is the dust of the wind blowing in my face
Dry heat smacks me around as if I didn't even matter
This is my life, it may look crummy to you, but it’s my life
I am a candle; the light that keeps me going is hope for a better day

Not only am I the water boy, but I’m also the chief
I protect my family; I keep our language and our identity
I am the chef, I use what little food we have and make something from it
I get tired but I make sure nothing is left undone
This is my life, it may look crummy to you, but it’s my life
I am a candle, giving hope and courage to dark situations

Even if my light burns out, another light will replace me
Even if I am discouraged, my family will be there to encourage me again
Even if I am beaten down to the point of death, I will never give up
Even if the water gets ****** up dry, I keep on going till I can find some more
This is my life, it may look crummy to you, but it’s my life
I am a candle, keeping my family positive that we will make it out alright