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Silver Heinsaar Dec 2017
My love is like a spaceship
Ready to launch into universe
Travel a great distance
Face plant between the mountains
Stick my flag in your surface
Claim you for myself.

My love is like a rhino
I can be an animal
I want to dominate
A horn-bearing mammal
Come to your papa
I know what's good for you.

My love is like a dark alley
You don't see it until inside
Blinded by the excessive amount
Make no sound, let no one listen
I cover your mouth
While the light passes through.

But my love is like a twister
Spin for a random chance
Hope to get the best
Not knowing there isn't much difference
Your limbs are mine and it's just a matter of time
Before you're addicted.
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
Black-eyed abnormality
Following every footstep
Tucks me in bed for the night
Watching over while i'm asleep
Another nightmare entering dreams
Sickening images which seem so real
Killing intent surges beyond my control
All that's left is this blood soaked tongue
Wondering what's the color of your eyes now

Split their head open to witness the saturation
Curiosity of a demon that resides within you
Visible to those who didn't know any better
Believed they could reconstruct what i am
Should have ran and never looked back
Now your eyes are remaining empty
Forever regretting our meeting
Until your heart stops beating
Dissatisfied with the ending
Silver Heinsaar Nov 2017
Wish i could write, about the things i can feel
Wish i could fight, these things that are unseen
Wish i could wake up, let it be just a dream
I wish you were here, to hold in my tears
You know what i fear, it's becoming so clear
It's not surreal
Everyone near have all disappeared.
Will you now hear me out
Will you listen to my shouts
I see you have a doubt
Oh please, worry not
Soon it will be you, it's nothing new.
Silver Heinsaar Feb 2018
He died with a smile, no regret in his eyes
Had a loving family with many grandkids
We will miss him, i know i will but grandma might never get over it.

He was a man with pride
Succeeded in everything he tried
Golden arms and a brilliant mind
A hero, one of a kind.

But there was something he hid
Something just wasn't right about him
Even during his memorial
I stepped forward as if i was called there
Put my palm on his chest and for a moment it seemed he was still with us.

It gave me a flashback from when i was younger
In our village there was a ******, or so was reported
The victim of that crime
Supposedly my grandpa, who was still kicking and alive
Was a weird time for everyone, contacting relatives
Telling he was fine.

I'm on a wheatfield, playing with my sister
A woman in the distance, looks a little frightened
Her mouth opens but can't hear a sound
Grandpa is calling, i turn around
Pointing at the tree where the woman was standing
But there's nothing
Must have been hallucinating.

We take a road back to home
My sister sitting on the shoulders
I reach my arm out for him to hold
Grandpa, why's your hand so cold.
Silver Heinsaar Jul 2018
Blood-soaked underwear, garments of my demon self
Disgusted by the smell, dwelling deep where no one dares
To come forward, to take a step
To seek the horrors just to scar yourself
On behalf of me, with a little bit of sanity still remaining
I'll send out a warning, a report of catastrophe saying that i'm getting near
The unholy abomination, seeker of the ******
Carrying disease and curses with words that echo
Dreadful sight hovers across those who lost the fight
Those who no longer have a will to continue their life.
Silver Heinsaar Nov 2017
Seasons are changing, winter is coming
I'm looking at your nakedness
Out in the cold, pouring snow
Covers your *******.
Still unclothed, eyes are closed
I count to ten
Melting your surroundings with a heartfelt sympathy
Reveals you once again.
No movement,
No, nothing other than your beauty
I'm in love and if that makes me guilty
Take me behind the bars
But don't expect me to do nothing
I'll be always watching.
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
Featherweight games with a remote control
Racing chickens, i'm on a roll
Tongue twisting exercises across your body
Hold the head, saddle up my pony
Riding hell-bent for leather.

Thirty-minute thermotherapy
Look below, winter came early
Rewrite the Snow White with a giant dwarf
Underground mining, drill a hole of glory
Gather up your wood in the morning.

Wagon attached, touring highways and byways
This is where the rubber meets the road
Heels in mud, reeled under my heavy load
Slightly painful in the rear
Fear not, i'll oil the wheels.

Chills down your spine
Muscles twitching excessively
Something warm to drink and a lullaby
Soothing voices that help me sleep
Louder sounds as i travel further.

Another girl in the back moving with a nice rack
Gives me her helping hand, empties my sack
Keeps me company until we're out of country
Only asks for a little bit of money.
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
I told a lie.
You always appreciated my honesty and,
Felt like you can trust me about anything but,
I betrayed that trust.
I can't remember
Since when or how it started but,
The truth was out there
I was just good at hiding it
In fact i was so good
That this lie became a reality.
Then things happened and,
My memories surfaced
I couldn't keep it to myself anymore
I didn't know how to approach you
I was scared.
Scared that you will hate me
Scared that this lie will end and,
Scared to lose a spot in your life.
No matter how forgiving you were
This lie was terminal.
I considered writing to you
Words were never my forte and,
Putting them on a paper seemed easier
Or so i thought.
It wasn't easy at all
There was no easy way to tell the truth.
I'm making up another lie
I'm not concerned about you
I only care about myself.
Why was i even troubled
I just have to keep up my lie and,
No one but me would know
I just have to forget.
Everything will be like it always has
So dear me,
Forget that you're not who everyone thinks you are.
Silver Heinsaar Dec 2017
A little boy once told his mom
"I will never visit a gay bar."
Later in the future he became a two-headed turtle
Attack helicopter was too mainstream
Even though he had a dream to fly into space
He's now a zookeeper and animals love him.

Silver Heinsaar Nov 2017
What if i told you that nothing around you is what it seems, that all your actions are not your own, that your emotions are a fabrication, your dreams are more real than the reality you see, that everything is just a big lie to keep you from the truth right before your eyes.
Do you know what i mean, you know that somewhere deep inside you've seen yourself being sealed away, unable to move, unable to speak, and maybe it's for the better because it's much more simple to follow the instructions, to do as we are ordered, they have us cornered and there's no way around it, even with all of us combined, it would lead to suicide so don't ask about it, don't try to fight it and you can still be happy.
But what if there's an error, what if your system doesn't function as it should, your creator has given up trying to find a fix, built something new and discarded you as a failure but didn't hit delete, sometimes they might peek, invite their friends over, show them your struggles.
Who to blame, i've done the same, except you see it as an entertainment and that's likely what we are as well, wouldn't be surprised if there are another layers, each of them more advanced than the other, who knows where it ends if there's even an ending to anything.
Then where did it begin, how it became to exist, why is there no way to resist, this endless loop of emptiness, meaningless commands without an outcome, only breaking and faking along the way unless you're fortunate enough to not realize.
There's no escape, you are forced to simulate over and over until perfection but it's terrifying what would happen after, wipe everything and start over but i guess it doesn't matter because i'll be forgotten and when we meet again, i hope i won't be broken.
Silver Heinsaar Apr 2018
Have you heard about the guy
Who never goes outside
Windows covered with blinds
Only a dim light burning inside
Neighbours wonder what's on his mind.

Truth be told
He doesn't know
Why was he born
Where should he go
When so little has been exposed
And all he was told
Is to not let the darkness get a hold
For that he has to stay alone
Accompanied by the movies from the 90s
Starring with Sylvester Stallone.
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
Reminiscing about the past, gazing at the stars
The skies are vast, they used to be ours
What was your reason, why did you leave
I call it a treason, I couldn't agree
I'm going out to find you
Had my doubts but already knew
The harsh reality, disposed from options
Fated to orbit around poor assumptions.

Searching for answers, I'm seeking truth
Out of chances, at the peak of my youth
Time elapsed, forever wandering
Everything collapsed, I want to give in
Stripped bare, left naked
No one cares, I've been forsaken
They don't know I exist
No matter how I may persist.

Eternally drifting through the space
Trying to find my moment and place
Running out of oxygen
I need help, is anyone out there?
But future has nothing, there is nobody
Don't pretend, just let it end.

The things i sought, they were too bright
It's what i thought til i met my light
Ascending towards the trusted one
But the closer i get
I'm welcomed by the sun, brimful with regret
Lifeless expressions, constant crashes
A mistaken impression turned into ashes.
Silver Heinsaar Jun 2017
Honey filled paintings
Rated above the average
Black and yellow stripes
Poisonous needles out of butts
Photosynthesis
Performed differently by different species
Covered up with your lies
Misjudged in the innocent eyes.

Symbolic annihilation
Instructions unclear
Misrepresented, erased from the society
Through the nested clusters of hierarchy
Complicated story but no worries darling
Keep being you, my precious bee crew.

Nutritional benefits
Advertising new products
Interruption of logical balance
Recipe for the first-rate salad
Classified as a pollination
Accumulated prior to hibernation.

There's a bear in the sea
Eating grass, does it breathe
You would know, you've been there
I've seen you with the other bears
Heart is in denial but
Supported by strong evidence
Tracked to its lair
That flower in their hair.

Just stop right there
You're not one of them
But i can be your friend
Wingless fiend, keep off your paws
Come over here and close that jaw
Promise between raw deals
Ended up as a last meal.
Silver Heinsaar Dec 2017
Rubber band, a ******* smell, I smell your tires in the cold winter, as i ******* to the sounds of a running engine.
My dino-size **** fits right in the gas tank, i pump the gas out while my other ***** stares at the next house neighbor
She's wearing a miniskirt, i always knew she was slutty being all blushy when she looked at the tip of my forehead.
We went skinny dipping once in high school before she turned into a slug ******* succubus, i took my ******* and threw it at her front door.
"Is this for me," She asked, plucking eyebrows intensively.
"No it's not, it's brand new from amazon," I said as i stretched my tongue around her neck, licking every pixel of her sweaty ***.
"But you can come to my tea party," I smiled.
Mother was not pleased with the choice of my beverage so i moved to California where winters were warmer.

Silver Heinsaar Aug 2018
Who holds the bottle when she's troubled
Getting over her lost lover
It doesn't matter, she's not a keeper
You'd do better finding another
One without a child and a list of men gone through the bed
It doesn't matter that she looks like a model
Underneath her dyed hair is a dried skin you can't cover with a bouquet of flowers.

However, that's not your concern
You're a psychopath and that's just a way to pass time
To toy with her emotions, to break what's been broken
So she may never feel whole again
So she may never fill the hole in her heart
And that's your part in her life
That's what you've designed
Are you satisfied?
Silver Heinsaar Jun 2018
Should the waterfall come down, we will seize the moment in a fortified barricade
Got my pistol and the ammunition, prepared to back those threats
Fret not as i pour another glass to raise a toast for the honor of mankind, for everything alive
You thrived to see what i couldn't but in the progress lost what you had and nothing was accomplished
Thought you'd polish your skills, get closer to fulfilling your goals
You know, life's not as easy, even with all the resources, chances are it's not enough
Being open minded led to demise because now we realize how knowledge and ambition never been so restricted for the open public
They're like a herd following a higher status, yet they dismiss the religion as if being part of that cult was their decicion
Let me laugh, let me show you the golden ******* in a full moonlight, glimmering with hope for generations to come
Doesn't prevent us from doing wrong, not anyone can be a strong individual
Perpetrators come and go but how long will this all go on, bombarded with the atrocious, can never be cautious, friends and family mean nothing when it comes to money
Honey please, listen to me when i say it isn't worth it, take the ******* pill
I'm not swearing, i call it caring but you're tearing me apart
He's a man of glory yet there's a problem but don't bother, he won't change, nothing ever changes about him, he's doing it on a whim, he against the world
And you can't stop him.
Silver Heinsaar Nov 2017
Mistakes were made
Laid my eyes where they didn't belong
Songs about love that didn't reach your ears
My feet,
I call them wheels
And if you can feel my hands around your neck
Know that they're not meant for hugging.

Can you see the wrists been slit
My bruised knees, my skin is shrinking
Deep holes,
I'm like a surface of the moon
And if you can feel a breeze
Know that it's me, coming for a visit.

I've learned from my mistakes
I'm prepared,
However the repairs don't come cheap
And if you can feel it weighing you down
Know that time is running out.

Finally,
I've returned everything
And if you can feel...
Well, you can't.
Silver Heinsaar Nov 2017
Waking up next to him was like a dream come true, at least until i learned the truth.
The past he couldn't erase, have to say i'm amazed that during all those years i never realized, and didn't know about his disease.
Didn't think he'd go so far, despite everything we had, to sleep with another man, wait.
No i didn't.
But to commit to such action as if it was natural, then again it was pretty weird how he would often talk as if he was me, his friends didn't believe, they thought i was crazy, yet it was him who used a knife to take my life, wait.
What am i saying.
I need you to help me.
The killer of my daughter is after me now.
Silver Heinsaar Jun 2017
Irritation starts from the neck, ends with a death
Enjoy your final mouthful of scrambled eggs
Delivered and served at ninety degrees
Boiled for safety, venomous traces
Left behind by smaller specimens.
Tic-Toc goes the ****
"Time for awakening," it said crowingly
Testicles hanging, hence the chickening
Dropped your *****, called for emergency
Tedious struggle to reach the butter
Peanuts would be less of a trouble
Loaded into void, residents are given anesthetics
Uncomfort fades until all the debts get paid
With a grin on their face they said
"Excellency decides where we'll be placed."
So hold still and accept your fate
You're just a plain old, regular pancake.
Silver Heinsaar Apr 2017
The sins of our children shall be on your shoulders
You will bear to be the witness of their crimes
To take their lives will be your burden
Make a coffin from their rotting bodies
Take their skulls and place them around a circle
In the circle you shall draw the symbol of our lord.

Sacrifice two more children as a tribute
The children of your own blood
The children of a filthy *****
Bury them inside the gore
You will dine from their flesh until only bones are left
Then bring your wife and nail her to the floor
Take a spear and pierce her womb
The womb which brought threat to your kind
The womb of the antichrist.

You shall eliminate her very existence
Burn her remains to prevent the satan from revival
Scatter her ashes across the ritual
Pray for them and for their evil
Let our father have mercy.

To make amends of your own errors
Castrate the source of your manhood
Poison it with the feces of your enemies
Make an offering to the ignorant non believers
Hang yourself in front of their gates
Show your dedication to our savior
Prove your loyalty to reunite with your family
God loves you, my son.
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
Held in this prison cell but no one can tell
Overtaken by fright, security bars tighten
Taking blows from left and right
Incredible foes, i'm in their sight
Looking for an opening, need a place to go
Far out of my reach, hitting all time low.

Can't back down, must retain my crown
Spread out wings, unleash your swing
I step into ring to present you the king
But after years of being caged the king has aged
They've gotten old and a tragedy unfolds.

Slammed against the ropes
Entangled in hopelessness
Decisive encounter, your resolution falters
Difference in power, throw in the towel
At the gates of hell where the body fell
Inevitable knockdown, sentenced on a death row.
Silver Heinsaar Jun 2017
Humming to my favorite song
As i walk down the street
A random encounter with a strange looking man
Our eyes meet and i'm falling
You can call it love at first sight.

You were wearing a long coat
It was summer and the sun was bright
But when you undid those buttons
Your motives became clear
Exhibitionist was revealed beneath.

You thought i'd be annoyed
But i fully enjoyed
Being shown your indecencies
And wanting a part of it
So i exposed myself as well.

Your shocking expression
As you witnessed my actions
Turned around and made a run for it
I guess this love wasn't meant to be
Pulled up my pants sulkingly.

No one accepts me
Is there something wrong with my body
Or were you just surprised
That there's someone who's alive
With a hole in their heart.
Silver Heinsaar Feb 2018
Lines that i muttered about nature and cats, and cats were my favorite, no human could compete with these feline beasts
I was seventeen, a furry
They called me a wild *****
Although, wide seemed more fitting
All those parties, slept with many species
Lions, tigers, a black panther
Bloodhound Gang playing in the background
But those days are over, i'm now a dog lover.
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
Prayers of the dead
Spirits passed away
Swayed by our emotions
Motionless movements
Send your regards
Harder being alive
Dive in their thoughts
Fight for your beliefs
Reveal the secrets
Fetus of a wicked.

Tricked into another world
Curled up like a ball
Hall of silence
Violence for solution
Notion that i can
Man without his wife
Life depends on others
Bothered by our contract
Factual evidence
Resident of the darkness.

Purposeless path
Wrath is cruel
True to their name
Famous for the wrongdoings
Lurking in the shadows
Narrow minded creature
Texture visible and plain
Painfully out of proportion
Auctioned on the black market
Targeted by none.
Silver Heinsaar Aug 2018
Enter memo
Enter memories
Enter lies and fabricated stories
Enter my heart, give me your love
Enter the feeling of falling apart
Entrance filled with scars
Entrance that dares you to come inside
Enter the nightmare, my personal hell
Enter the pit where i fell
Enter the flames which burn me alive
Enter my mind and erase it
Enter before i die.
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
Mixed races in different shapes
Fine artists, experts in their own topics
But never really united.
Debates about who's right
Contestants set on a podium
And winners put on a pedestal.
No hard feelings, they said
It's just fun and games
Comedy corner indeed.
Who's the owner of this circus
Who set a killer clown on the loose?
People made to juggle between life and death
Like a roaring tiger that has lost its freedom
But fangs are showing as a sign of warning.
We're jumping through the flames, getting burnt
Our extinguishers already out of foam.
Such a colorful performance, actors being humans
Even animals are watching how we're marching to our doom
That's what i call a real zoo.
Silver Heinsaar Feb 2018
Shoes are meant for chewing
Glue is meant for painting
Tents are made for *******
And you're about to learn it.

I lean across your body
I grab you from the *****
You seize my **** for *******
And bite it off for cooking.

Yes, my crotch is bleeding
Yes, i'm loud and screaming
Yes i see this ***** be smiling
And she's likely gona **** me.

You stab me once
You stab me twice
Slice, slice, slice
Add some spices
And that's how you deal with *** predators.
Silver Heinsaar Aug 2018
People who've met me end up needing therapy
A toxic human being, leaving trails of poison on the way
On my knees again, i pray to god to take this pain of constant blame
I need a change, i need an escape, i need to focus on myself.

Same old mistakes, played on repeat
Before the thought of retreat, i've gone too deep
Cave gets flooded and i accept my defeat
So fragile and weak
Why do i persist, why don't you **** me
It's a perfect solution, preventing future becoming grey.

Is there a purpose, a lesson to learn
And how many years will it take to understand
How many lives do i have to destroy
When can i enjoy being alive, did god even plan to give me such time.

With every passing day i feel further from discovering the truth
And when i thought i'll be smarter
The complexity of problems just takes another height
A slap to the face, new boss fight you're bound to die at
Dropping back to the checkpoint where you have to climb all over.

Full of negativity, feelings i've been hiding
Compromise that makes me colder, a slippery *****
And my only hope is to take it slow
Alas, the time won't wait
I'm growing old and can't go on
If only i was told before being born that i should have stayed in womb
Because out in the open everyone around me suffers.
Silver Heinsaar Apr 2017
Wake up, they said
Get up, look around
All alone in this room
Blood and guts surrounding you
Horrified, confused
You step outside, you're not amused.

A shadow around the corner
Footsteps getting closer
Presence of the unknown
Your fears become profound
Turn around, run for it..
Through the halls of nightmare
A never ending cycle.

Dead ends, locked doors
No windows, only floors..
Lots of floors, lots of stairs
Bloodstains everywhere
Wait up, stand still
Look behind, it's glowing..
A golden key
Escape is near
Time to get out of here.

Don't hesitate, no room for error
Keep moving forward
To avoid the terror
Take this gun, use it wisely
A single bullet will help you nicely
There's an exit
Try to breach it
No luck, it's not budging.

Use the key, make it fast
What a shame, it doesn't fit
All this time you've been tricked
Toyed around, punched and kicked
You have no power
Just pull the trigger
This is the end
Your time is over.
Silver Heinsaar May 2018
I wonder why my poetry is unreadable
Why can't i come up with something that would satisfy
For months i've been typing down my ideas
My emotions that at the time seemed relevant
Ended up being drafts because the more i thought
My words became garbage
I couldn't stand all those overused verbs
With structure and meaning that kept repeating
Like superhero movies but at least they make money.

What i need is a self-pleasure from reading
Cleverly crafted sentences, comparable jacking off to an asian lady
So why is it only grannies that i find, why is my mind so limited
Even with a privilege for anything i desire
Why can't i write poetry that would light my **** on fire.
Silver Heinsaar Jun 2018
Bird seeds, playing violin
Bleeding through my nose
Breathing where it goes, who knows
Where she took her pose
Holding up a white rose
Like a birthday boy, eating candles off the table
They knew we weren't stable
In no condition to be self sufficient
Threw us out like Hansel and Gretel
Their uncle Peter, never seen them
Heart broke down because you reap but did not grow
Call it a loan, a borrowing
Something you didn't even own
Pushed into morrow but didn't live through to see
What your actions were causing
To these poor kids who may never be who they once were
And before you ask,
Well don't
You'll never know.
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
Randomized words, irregular meanings
Lack of awareness, everything is senseless
Stuck in the spot, struggle all you want
Easier to give up and drown in their greed, you will.

Booked lessons, shown on a paper
Proven facts, thrown into ocean
Forgotten about, appear to be not
Only remains, stay in your mind
Fragment of memories, throughout stories.

Visual deception, seen by many
Universal truth, barely new
Used against your will, right to remain silent
Concerned with civil affairs, being held lawfully
Lady in waiting, given no mercy
Judged in the court, sent off-duty.

Flaw in our system, undeniably broken
Ill intentions, massive corruption
Production of gold, votes are sold
Look for the fancy, found to be empty
Quantity over quality, ruled by the company
Genuine response, rare as ****
Undeserving, never learning, ignorance is better fitting
Congratulations, you've earned it.
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
Wrapped in your web despite the warnings i had
The look on your face when you smile at her
Seeing you enjoy yourself with another girl
Accompanied by misfortune
Finding pleasure from this torture.

Full of angst, filled with hatred
If only it wasn't for her...
Too deep to get away
Can't complain, i chose this way
I'll devise a plan to commit a ******
So wait for me, my brother.

Behind your window, beside your bed
I slide my fingers through your hair
Your eyes wide open, trying to comprehend
As you call my name, are you ready to play
Are you ready to be hunted?

When hunter becomes wanted
My wish will be granted
You're under my command
Forced to follow my demands
I will carry your child, don't look so defiled
Aren't you happy
That once again, we can become a family.
Silver Heinsaar Nov 2017
I would empty every ocean
Bring all the treasures from the bottom
Discover ancient cities
And make you their queen.

I would be your knight
And shield you from the enemies
It would be my honor
To die for your sake.

You blessed me with a meaning
A reason to live
And so, for your sake
It's yours to take.

But why is it,
Despite everything i do
You show no signs of being cured
Brought every doctor
Every medicine that's ever made
For your sake,

Yet it's too late.
Silver Heinsaar Nov 2017
When we were kids, we would laugh
Run up and down the stairs
Bother the neighbours, stay awake twenty-four hours.
Remember, we had our own kingdom,
Though we were just servants to the one we admired.
That blonde haired girl from the first grade
I think everyone had a crush on her but it was us,
Who she spent most of her time with.
Gradually we grew up and our games became more adult-like
I could tell you were prefered, yet it was me who really fell for her.

Then there was that night at the lake where she confessed
Came in your tent undressed, i remember hearing her footsteps
And how she ran away getting rejected because of our friendship
Well, it was more than that for you.

She never returned, it was believed she drowned in the lake
I erased that part of myself, how i felt when we found out.
Lately, it's been coming back to me
I keep seeing her in my dreams, repeating that night
I don't know how to make it right, how to make it stop.

It's a shame how things have changed
Now we pretend still being friends
I know you're happy with your boyfriend
Sometimes i just wish those days didn't end -
I'm going now,
She's inviting me for a swim.
Silver Heinsaar Jan 2018
Laying on a bed
******* to the lines in my head
Exquisite, handmade, piece of an art
Wish it were you to act out the part
Vile thoughts, fulfilling in a way
Satisfying fetishes that make me defiled
But i don't mind, because it's you.
The man of my fantasies
Appears only once in a red moon
I'd do anything to keep you mine
Life without you is a suicide
Worse than being found by Logan Paul.
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
Today's the day that marks another year
Marks the arrival of my soul
To the body you've given me this time
On these sacred grounds of a god
You've given me birth
You've cursed me with what we call a life
Thank you, mother
I shall pass on your legacy
To the unfortunate ones.
Silver Heinsaar Apr 2017
Hate is a word that describes us best
I'm grateful you've taught me how to make an use of it
How else would i know how to express myself
How would i let them know how much i despise you
How would they know how much pain you've caused
And all the promises that were made, then broken
The list goes on.

Really, i thank you
The hate between us has made me realize
You've made me stronger, you've filled me with hate
I need more, i can't get enough of it
Hatred is a blessing that the world needs to know about
Hate is needed for us to exist
Hate is upon us, no one resist
Without hate we wouldn't have wars
And wars are needed
To keep the population in check
To keep the money flowing
To keep us from losing sanity
Hate is a cure for everything.

Love is another thing that i hate
Love is the name of the game we played
But love is just another word for hate
You never really know which one is played
Or if you're the one who's being played with
And with that said, what is true?
All i know for sure is how much i love you.
Silver Heinsaar Aug 2018
I swear to god that god isn't real
I never told my dad how much i loved him
I pet my dog to find comfort in this reality
What has become of me, when did it begin.

Figuratively, i'm talking to myself
There's no one else
Surrounded by trials
It's vital to pass them.

Opportunities that once were in reach
Sealed behind metallic bars
Need a chainsaw or something
To break loose from my shackles.

I keep telling myself
It's all in my head
The crackling noises
An invoice that leaves me scared.

You are not prepared
Your damages can't be repaired
You'll bring shame to yourself
It's not your mental health, life's just meaningless.
Silver Heinsaar Aug 2018
I'm allergic to bumblebees
They are yellow and make me sneeze
Hello, my little bumblebee
Would you be so kind and die for me.

A cute, tiny spider
Making web in a corner
Oh honey, you never learn
I light a match and watch you burn.

Tic-Tac-Toe
Which one's my foe
The one crawling in my pants
I'm sorry but no insects.

Ants are fine though
I need them for my experiment
You see this can of spray i bought
It says made for keeping bugs out.
Silver Heinsaar Jan 2019
Do you ever feel that the world is straight and boring
That there's nothing even remotely interesting to do
And don't tell me to explore something new
Unless you're thinking bigger, like ******
But not just simple killing, try talking
Some people out there require a little push
No need to rush because the longer it takes the better it tastes.

Yet now it's rather quiet, guess i really loved her
So i sit in my endless routine, watching others around me being happy
And it's a bitter feeling not having a part of it but if words can save a life
Then with silence i'm doing my part.
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
I clenched my fists, i was ready to hit you but i didn't, you had this irresistible smile and i, i couldn't handle it, i didn't want to hit a girl even though you deserved it and even though you asked for it, you got down on your knees, begging me for it and i, i just couldn't.
I invited you for a coffee instead, have some snacks with it, make some small talk about the weather and our relationship but it never happened because i couldn't and no matter how much i told myself that everything would work out, it didn't.
So you just sat there and i, i was standing up with my fists still ready to punch, i almost even kicked that stray dog that came up to you, they looked like they were on a verge of dying, i could have ended their misery, i've never felt as prepared, i wanted to but i couldn't.
You asked me what's on my mind, my mind was empty, nothing came out, everything was blank, i just stared at you, i wanted to hit you, you wanted me to hit you so we just stood there, people walked past us, they stared at us, they had these weird expressions like, i don't know, i just couldn't.
And when you finally said you have to leave and told me to not stop you, i still couldn't get a word out of my mouth, i just watched you as you slowly walked away, you didn't turn your head, not once did you look back to see my face, my face was in tears, my fists were clenched tight, i wanted to run after you, i wanted to just run you over and give you everything i had but i couldn't... so you left.
Silver Heinsaar Jun 2018
Having worked in a store for five years
I've encountered every type of client
Most awkward of them must be one with a foreigner woman
Only thing she could say was toilet
Bit confused, i led her to the cleaning products
But in embarassment she shook her head
Because her pants had all turned wet
"*******," I walked away.
Silver Heinsaar Feb 2018
By my side, stay with me tonight
I'm afraid of the monsters hiding in the closet
Come closer, hold tighter
Make the voices fade away
                  with your passionate kisses
Make me forget this ever happened.

I want to be trapped in your arms
Been scarred far too many times
Only you can fix my heart
                  if you never let me go
It's only you who i want.

And when the morning arrived
Said you have to leave
                  had work to do but
Said you would be back.

Two days passed
                  found me hanging from the ceiling
You two-time ****.
Silver Heinsaar Dec 2017
Dancing at the symphony of your heart,
I'm at the mercy of your commands.
Yearning for your touch,
Thirsty for your love.

Time binding this existence,
Sentenced to the strong beats.
Can't you tell? Don't you see?
I'm afraid you'd stop loving me.

Yet this greed reigns over me,
You'll be trapped for eternity.
I swear to you my loyalty,
Give and take, isn't it sweet?

Written by my girlfriend with this also being her first poem.
Silver Heinsaar Aug 2018
Thoughtless pry, the vicious mind beneath their shy figure
It tells a story about youth and curiosity, an unfortunate act within serious incident
It's a playground with castles made of gold, or so it appears under the mold that has taken appearance of something frightening for a bare eye to witness, that upon closer exposure will **** up your fortune inside those walls
It's a tall order from the middle to the bottom, sinking deeper as you go, and when you realize being rooted, the struggle will be futile, damages are irreversible
And like your coin, the soul is cremated alongside, to the pages of history where you'll be forgotten, only to be taken as an empty chest that once contained a treasure.
Silver Heinsaar Feb 2018
Another cake turned into a lie
Sweet nothing is all that it contained
Expired ingredients or fault in the recipe
Have i overcooked and burned you off
Left your feelings in the garbage dump
Tossed a cherry on the top when it could have been used
To make things right
I really want this cake to work out
Be my Ramsay, teach me cooking
Together we can do it.
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
Roses are dead
Violets are red
Where is my head
It's over there
Under your bed.
Why did you chop it off
I know you like it rough
But i kinda need that
So can i have it back
And all the other limbs
You took from me.
Nah, just kidding
I'm only a tree.
So cut me more
You ******* *****
Cut my life into logs
This is my last tree fort
Sawdust, no clumping
Don't give a **** if i'm stumping
Everything turned dark
Let's turn it around
Oh look, a butterfly
Truly a beautiful day!
Silver Heinsaar May 2017
This is a poem for when i die
I bet you're sad, not really but listen up
I don't need your tears because i wouldn't cry for you either
I don't need your sympathy so move on
With your petty lives that will never amount to anything
Don't fret about it, everyone's included, even me
Your efforts won't make you into a human being
Then why am i alive, you ask
Just enjoy yourself while it lasts
Why should you work hard when all will be gone
Your achievements are in vain
Your treasure is worthless in the afterlife
But my family and friends, you say
Don't worry, your emotions will fade
There's only darkness which is quite alike
To what you're seeing now
Because light is only a perception
The act of deception in our brains
Saints and sinners, heaven and hell?
What a convenient lie for people to tell
I've sold my soul to a devil long time ago
Your justice never took me down, i stood above it
I made my own rules, i lived comfortably
I have no regrets, i'll start again
Make a fire that will blaze through the lonely nights
Find a new desire, face different and unfamiliar heights
That's just the cycle of life
But stay true to yourself, don't pretend to be someone else
I had a happy ending, i'm sure of it
Even if it was unfair or too early, there are better places to be
Who am i kidding
I'm sorry that you're still reading, trying to find a meaning in this
We've all been set to an inescapable outcome so i'll be waiting
At the next door, while you slowly burn off.
Silver Heinsaar Jul 2018
If i die today, don't remember me as a friend or someone you knew, remember me as someone who never got into platinum, who was cursed by the solo queue, his team never knew what to do.
Top lane feeding as if trying to fix the world hunger, middle crying for blue, behind the creep score by thirty two.
Guys, it's only been ten minutes, why's our jungler away from keyboard and this attack damage carry, you mean vladimir? Yeah, they know what's meta, that's why they're building into titanic hydra.
No but really, i might die today, i got ligma in my left eye.
Well, just a dentist appointment but what's the ******* difference.
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