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6.4k · Mar 2018
My naughty naughty
Chinny Maia Mar 2018
U gat me thinking all *****
U gat my mind all flirty.. Or is it filthy..Hehhe
Mehn.. U gat me saying.. Yes papi

Wind on me baby
The way u move ur spine is alarming
U gat me blood all hot.. I'm screaming
Don't let go baby

Bring that body my way
U knw u ain't goin no where
Once I have got my way
U know u wld want to stay

Can't get u off my brain
Thought of u flooding my viens
Drooling over u...
I gat to have u

**** u gat me thinking *****
U make me want to be so naughty
Bring ur body this way
I have got plans.. That wld make u scream hey!!

O my.. Naughty naughty
U really gat me all hot n sweaty
I ain't leaving here alone
Come on..i knw u want more

Yes u are my Naughty lil secret
The one I cant regret
The one that i hv bn looking for
The one that always has me wanting more

My naughty naughty..
3.4k · Mar 2020
Nighttime
Chinny Maia Mar 2020
Night time...
I love nighttime
I abhor  nighttime
Why are you just not the same
Why torture me every time

Nighttime ...
When my mind is awake, alive and full of ideas
When my body remembers every single thing
Every ache it could have , in weird and wonderful areas

Nighttime ...
When inspiration is at it’s peak
When the pain is so bad I can’t speak
When memories flood my mind
But I can’t move , I’m just a freak

Nighttime...
When the lyrics make the most sense
When my pain is at the most intense

Nighttime...
When the beats and rhythm are all i can feel
But this agony won’t let me be
I wish it would just set me free
I wish i could just get my mind out of my body and flee

Nighttime...
I’m awake
My body is craving sleep
My mind is as wide as the lake
My body is laying all limp and weak
Yes i know I’m a freak

Nighttime....
The best time of the day
The worst time of the day
The most creative time of the day
The most torturous time of the day

Nighttime...
I ride the wave every single night
The ups and downs
The laughs and the cries
I enjoy all of it every night
Or maybe not- maybe it’s all lies

Nighttime..
The sun is rising
It’s getting brighter
The dawn is no better
Maybe its time to finally start sleeping

Nighttime
My best friend
My worst foe
But its all I’ve ever known
And looks like it’s all i would ever know

Nighttime...
881 · Dec 2019
Dance- like i did way back
Chinny Maia Dec 2019
This a very strange and odd feeling..
Dead exhausted..
Sleep deprived for a week...
Having a nasty migraine..
A bad tummy and aches and pains...
But for some inexplicable reason...
I am in the mood of dancing..
Dancing like i used to do..
Dancing like i danced way back ....

I’m driving home after a horrible n busy night...
I ought to be looking like the dead...
My eyes are heavy...
Can’t see the road ahead..
But for some inexplicable reason ..
I’m feeling like dancing..
I’m blasting loud music in the car..
I’m dancing and driving..
Don’t think i should be doing so..
But I’m dancing like i did way back..

Before i put in the key to my front door..
Backpack , eyes. And feet all heavy and sore...
I connect my phone to the Bluetooth..
On it comes blasting the beats that move my feet...
I ought to be collapsing in bed..
Tired and weary..
But for some inexplicable reason..
I’m stripping and dancing..
To the loud music I’m blasting..

The music is going on non stop..
I’m playing it on repeat
My body, soul and my feet have a rhythm..
Making me feel complete...
I’m still moving, i can’t seem to stop..
I am feeling like both death and life..
I can’t explain it.. my soul is filled with jive..
Oh what a vibe!!
And for some inexplicable reason..
I’m dancing and dancing like my bones aren’t old and weary..
dancing like I’m not all fat and heavy

I’m dancing like i used to way back
Moving from the front to the back
Winding the waist like its not old and achey
The shoulders are rolling and groovy
Yes I’m dancing .. like we did way back

Yes I’m back
Gotten my groove back
Almost forgot i still have all that
Almost forgot what it felt like
To dance like i did way back

I’m still dancing..
Better than i did way back
Oh yes I’m back
So is the rythm and the groove
My soul is renewed
I’m both old and new

Dancing like we did way back
Dancing more than i did way back
632 · Oct 2019
Dance
Chinny Maia Oct 2019
Dance
That’s all I can do

Dance
That’s all i would do

Dance
Let all the pain out

Dance
All the sorrow and fear away

Dance
Till i take my last breath

Dance
Through the tears and the pains

Dance
Through the uncertainties and fears

Just Dance

Don’t ever let your heart and feet loose their rhythm

DANCE!!!!
408 · Sep 2017
SHE
Chinny Maia Sep 2017
SHE
The dragon awakens...
The lion is alerted
The phoenix is risen!!

The silence has been shattered
The darkness of the night has become awash...
The power of her ...a light has set it all on fire

The Earth shudders..
The trees sway in the winds of her might
The clouds part..announcing her presence

The Queen has come to claim her rightful throne..
Her rightful place ..
She watches as they all scurry..
Like rats about her feet..

Yes she has come..
A new dawn has come..
A new Era is ushered!
A new sun is overhead..
A new moon is risen..
The stars are there to light her path!!!

Be afraid..be very afraid.. She is awakened..
Warriors stand at her guard..
She is renewed..
She has fully come into...
She is who She is..
She is .. And would always be...  SHE
382 · Dec 2018
Only... You
Chinny Maia Dec 2018
The way you smile at me
Baby you have got me falling
The way your voice washes over me
Darling you have got me drowning

The way you do what you do
Sweetheart , I just want to be with u
The way you love me the way you do
Honey, I just want you and only you

I don’t want no drama
Just want you
Don’t need no more trauma
Just want to love you

Because .. the way I feel for you
My love it’s only you
Just what I want ..

Only ... You
Chinny Maia May 2019
Insomnia and midnight cravings..
Village people abeg free me oh!!
I’m fighting this..

not going to look in the kitchen or freezer
I can hear my microwave calling me..
may have to check if i have turned off the lights..

Did i close the refrigerator door?
Did i leave the dishwasher or washing machine running
296 · Sep 2017
Footsteps
286 · Oct 2018
I need
Chinny Maia Oct 2018
I NEED SLEEP!!!
my brain to shut up

I need to weep
And just maybe curl up

I need to flee
Before I burn up

I need some glee
And alil cheer up

I need a new leap
And definitely a new me

I NEED!!!
Chinny Maia Jan 2018
chocolate ice cream and pepper soup..
How u make me feel ..
All sugar n spice..
i want a taste and a large bite . .
Thats all i can think of when i think of u..
chocolate ice cream and pepper soup..
Chinny Maia May 2019
Insomnia and midnight cravings..
Village people abeg free me oh!!
I’m fighting this..

not going to look in the kitchen or freezer
I can hear my microwave calling me..
may have to check if i have turned off the lights..

Did i close the refrigerator door?
Did i leave the dishwasher or washing machine running
217 · Jan 2018
O !!! MY!!!#
Chinny Maia Jan 2018
I feel the heat of ur gaze
I look up and I'm ****** in
Ur eyes..ur  fiery gaze..
U r calling me
U r wanting me..O my!

I feel my self coming closer..
I'm moving closer and closer
Until I don't remember where I end and you begin
U have gotten me , o my!

I'm drowning in your love
Ur eyes..say all the things i need
My knees have grown weak
I'm stuck.. Cant move.
O my! Here ..u have me

Please don't smile..
My heart can't take it..
I can't take anymore
Those lips!!!!
O my!.. U have really gotten me.

I can't explain Whats happening
Ur touch is setting me ablaze
O what sweet torture..
I know i fallen, I'm still falling
Please take me.. O my!

I am drowning in the smell of u
In the essence of u
I want u
All of u
O my! U can take me now

And then u whisper in my ear
The feel of ur breath
The sound of ur voice
I am in bliss..
I need this..
I know this...
U will always have me.. O my!

O!!  My!!!!!
202 · Oct 2017
Mixed feelings
Chinny Maia Oct 2017
Mixed feelings...
There they go..
Swaying and swimming...
Roaming about..
None is winning...

Should I go ...
Should I stay..
Do i go ahead..
Do i stay back..

Which way do i go..
Do i go up..
Do i come down..

**** u mixed feelings...

I start to smile..
But before it reaches my eyes..
Tears flow over their edges..
And im left with wet cheecks and lashes..

The laugh starts to bubble over..
But ends in a heart wrenching cry.
Do i walk away??
Or do I stay n pray????????

**** u mixed feelings..

I have a melody n a melancholy ..
I am happy and I'm sad..
Ecstatic and heart broken
What an irony..
It's just to bad..
This can't be changed..

O you mixed feelings..
**** u mixed feelings...
199 · Feb 2018
Go away
Chinny Maia Feb 2018
Go away
Far far away
Don't ever come my way
I don't want to ever be this way

Go away
Run ... run away
I want to be as far away
I'm all out
I'm on my way ..
Im going away

Go away
Pls stay away
Go with u n ur vile ways

Go away
Don't ever come my way
With ur bad vibes
With ur fake smiles

Go away... Go away
I'm on a wave
Going away..
So far away
O yea

Go away
I'm on my way
Making my path
Making a new way
On a new start
Far far away

Go away
I hv gotten away
Don't ever come my way
Do Stay away

Go away
166 · Jan 2019
The end.. suicidal
Chinny Maia Jan 2019
I’m exhausted
I just need it all to end
I can’t hold on any longer
I’m falling off this bend

I see the darkness calling
I want it so bad
I hear the silence loudly
Is this all thats to be had?

I am drained and empty
All cold and dry
I have no more energy
No tears left to cry

I call on the bleakness
To come take me away
I have nothing but darkness
Only nights and no day

I’m exhausted
When will this all end?
Or maybe it’s wasted
Maybe I should just make it the end...
165 · Nov 2018
Can I
Chinny Maia Nov 2018
Can I ..
ask u a question ?

It took time for me to get there
I needed time to get here
So can I ?

Can you kiss me like that
Can I have it again and again
Can you hold me and never let me go
Can I?

Can I have it like that?
Can you give me some more
Can I hold on to that?
Can I

Can I touch you like that?
Can you never let go
Can I love you like that
Can I..

No more sitting here by yourself..
To love you I needed time..
But now I have all these thing..
Things I want to do to you
Things I want to ask you

No more waiting

Can I?
165 · Feb 2018
Karma... Drama
Chinny Maia Feb 2018
What goes around
Comes around
Karma.....
I don't fuss
I don't want drama.....

What's lost..
Shall be found..
No need to run around..
It's Not worth the cost..

Don't want none of that
I'm much more than that
Don't need u..or any of that
Dont want u ..u r not worth all that

I leave it all
Karma
Thats all
Not worth the drama

I just sit back n smile
So sweet..soo nice
All the while
As I watch
As karma
Cleans up all the drama
Chinny Maia Aug 2018
I miss u
I miss ur smile
I miss ur voice
I miss those eyes

I knew u felt it too
But I ran away from you
I knew u loved me
But I didn’t know how to

I miss u
I miss ur laugh
I miss ur smell
I miss those naughty chuckles

I knew u wanted more
But I wasn’t ready
I knew u wher certain
But I wasn’t sure

I miss u
I miss ur touch
I miss ur kisses
I miss those safe arms

Now lying in my empty bed
I look back and wonder what if
What if it was all in my head
Years gone by and now I finally see

I miss u
I think I loved u too...

I miss u
157 · Jan 2018
My Drug... Music
147 · Jan 2019
2019
Chinny Maia Jan 2019
And it comes by again
There it goes away again
The never ending cycle
Dreams .. hopes .. joys and pains

We make the same promises
We make the same vows
We wish the same wishes
And pray for the doves

Many started this race with us
Many have left us behind
Many have gone ahead of us
And many are not with Us

But every single time
We wish for it to be better
Much better than the last time
It would be greater.. much better
So we tell ourselves every time..

That’s all we have..
Glad to be here
Year after year
We start it as we did tonight
That’s all we have..

Our joy, our gladness..
our losses.. memories
Our sorrows.. and then the happiness
It would be better.. we wish for greatness

We would use this as yet another spring board
Being grateful for the past
But ever hopeful and never bored
As we say every year
This would be a year of greatness

Happy New Year!!
Welcome to everyone who made it
And remember those that didn’t..

Welcome 2019.. please be kind
                             Please be nice
Let You be one of a kind
147 · Jun 2018
Take it
Chinny Maia Jun 2018
Take this weight
The heavy lead
Take this all
Out of my head

Take this pain
All the lost joy and dispair
I don't feel fear
Neither do I cry a tear

Take me to where
I can feel smthing
Take me there
To where i can feel again

Take it away
I need to stop being this way
Make me feel
Like a person
With feelings all happy and gay

Or just lemme have feelings
Take this emptiness
This hole
This dark void away

Just take it..
145 · Jan 2018
Laying Here...
Chinny Maia Jan 2018
Laying here...
All alone...
Wondering where did it go wrong
Where did it all go??

The sheets are cold
The air is cold
My heart is cold
My soul old

I need ur warmth
I need the light back
I want ur arms
I need the love back

The darkness is my lover
It's cold fingers caressing my empty heart
Wrapping me in its lonliness..
Laying with me in my bed of despair

We keep laying here..
All day and all night
Entwined..embraced..

Laying here..
141 · Sep 2017
Dance
Chinny Maia Sep 2017
The tapping of my feet
The beating of my heart
The rythm of my breath
The melody of my sighs
The elagance of my movements

All these produced by the beating of the drums of this thing called life

O the beautiful music it makes.. Making me sway, my spirit soar n sink
Making me scream n cry

All in a rhythm of its own.. Not to ur understanding nor mine..

But i cant help it.. I must dance..the music calls me..I'm captured in its melody..mesmerized by the harmony..

Through the pain and fatigue...I must dance..for the music never stops.. For I shall not stand still.. I keep moving..swaying..staggering..
But all to the beat..
The music of this world..
Till the time... The music stops..n I must dance no more.. .
Chinny Maia Mar 2018
Sometimes
Love is not enough
Sometimes
You just have to walk away

It may be hard
It may be tough
But u would be fine
It's like finding a diamond in the rough

U dont have to stay
It's ok to walk away
Have no fear
Its ok to shed a tear

Because for some people
sometimes, most times
No matter how strong
Or how feeble

Sometimes
Love is just not enough....
140 · Jul 2018
ME
Chinny Maia Jul 2018
ME
There it comes
Seeping in slowly
Sneaking in quietly
Sinking in deeply

Till it fills me
And I'm now heavy
I'm all dark and weepy
All cold and cloudy

The mist clouds me
The clear skies avoid me
The cold winds surround me
And I'm left with just me

This pain is increasing
The void is growing
The hollow is widening
My strength is leaving

I have nothing in me
The emptiness is drowning me
There is no more joy left in me
I am just left with the shell of what was me

Or is that now the new me?
Or have i just never been me
Or is this an awakened me
The cold n empty me

I dont know what this means
May be ..i have been left with this thing
Called ME.
138 · Nov 2018
I surrender
Chinny Maia Nov 2018
I’m laying here in bed
Thoughts of you filling my head
And I wonder
Where did you come from

Images of your face flash by
Your dashing smile.. o my
And I wonder
How did it come by?

Then I remember the feel of your lips
And your hands on my hips
And I ponder..
How I really want you for keeps

I hear your voice
And I can’t help but smile
I get all that warm fuzzy feeling inside
And I ponder..
Is this what they call butterflies?

I look into your eyes
And I see all the emotions inside
Filled with love.. warmth .. oh so nice

And I realise..
You are now mine
And always by my side

I don’t need to wonder
Neither should I ponder

You love me
And would always be mine

I have you now..
Yes .. to you..
I now surrender
137 · Nov 2017
O!!
Chinny Maia Nov 2017
O!!
U know u have gat me yearning..
This is new..
Something i should be learning..
Mon Dieu!

O my.. What a craving..
I am in awe
I'm loving this feeling
O wow

U got me healing
I'm hot all over
It keeps growing
I want this to last forever.... .

Yes !.. It's a renewing
A turning of a new leaf
An awakening
I've found my release..

This is not a tease
.....
136 · Sep 2017
Tick Tock... Insomnia
135 · Nov 2017
When love dies
Chinny Maia Nov 2017
When love dies
So do the butterflies
There are no tears
And still no smiles

When love dies
Your memory no longer invokes those deep smiles
I look at your picture
And i wonder, i thoughtt u where my future

When love dies,
I think of you,  and i wait for the flutter
But all i get is a cold shudder

When love dies
I look back and wonder
I thoughtt i was stronger
Or atleast wiser

When love dies
Gone are the fire flies
But in their place lies
A new one..much more wise

When love dies
Don't  u worry
Just say ur sweet goodbyes
Don't ever feel sorry.

When love dies
It's out with the old
U r new and u r bold
Remember u have a heart of Gold!
135 · Sep 2018
I need.. Me
Chinny Maia Sep 2018
I need to scream
I need to shout
I need to cry
To let it all out

I look around
I see no one
I turn around
I hear no sound

I need some warmth
I need a hug
Or just a voice
Or just a kiss

I want the sun
I need the light
But all i get
Is pain and fright

I need me back
But who is me
I need to know
Or just be free

I need me
135 · Sep 2017
Untitled
Chinny Maia Sep 2017
I stretch out my hands.. All i feel is the unending stretch of cold sheets
I close my eyes..try to remember ur feel..
Ur taste.. Ur smell
All I get is the taste of my tears..the smell of my despair .. The feel of my loneliness enveloping me..
I ask myself when wld all this end?? I'm growing weary
O my heart be still...my soul alil more patience..
I hear ur voice in my mind.. I feel ur breath all over my face.. I'm set ablaze
Burning all over
It's just abit more time..
And I'll be there
Wrapped in ur embrace.. Soaking in ur love
And out of it all I would rise up.. Stronger than ever... A new being.. A great one
All this pain , suffering and longing wont be in vain..but a far distant memory..

I turn around n look at the clock..counting down to it all..my beginning and my end...
131 · Apr 2021
Loving me...
Chinny Maia Apr 2021
Loving me is not easy
But you love all of me
You love me completely

Loving me can be exhausting
But your love keeps me going
You love me more each day.. and it keeps growing

Loving me is a choice
But its a choice you’ve made and make daily
You love me honestly and Still let me have a voice

There are no words
I have no words...

To say....

Thank you for Loving me....
131 · Jan 2018
Guess
Chinny Maia Jan 2018
Guess I'm loosing my mind..
Guess I've become one with the stars...
There goes my scars..
Guess I am who I am yet to find...
129 · Jan 2019
Butterflies and feelings
Chinny Maia Jan 2019
O these feelings!

What is this fluttering i feel in my belly?
Is it butterflies? Some one please tell me!

Why do i catch myself smiling when I think of you?
Why is that so? Some one please tell me!

What is this feeling ? This feeling of longing i have for you?
What is happening to me? Some one please help me!!!

Why do i miss you so much? Why do i want to be with you this bad?
What are you doing to me? Some one please save me!

Is this what this feels like?
I cant be having these feelings
I shouldn't have feelings
Some one please tell me
Some one please save me
Rescue me!! This is not me!!

Why you? What have you done to me?
Given me butterflies and feelings!!!

I got to turn this feelings off or ... Maybe on??
128 · Aug 2018
Falling...
Chinny Maia Aug 2018
I’m falling
Going down deeper in to this abyss
It’s never ending

This empty void in my soul
It’s so cold
This darkness called my heart
Hard as stone

I feel the emptiness
I feel the coldness
I feel the numbness

But all these are what make me
These are what complete me
I am now at home with the bleakness

This is now what I have
Me , my coldness and darkness
It comforts me
It soothes me

I am now at home with my emptiness
Please don’t feel bad
I love this numbness

I am one with it as it is now one with me
My cold, dark abyss
My stone cold heart..drags me deeper
I close my eyes and I keep going

I keep falling
I keep smiling as ..
I am falling..
127 · Jan 2018
Dark Skies
Chinny Maia Jan 2018
Looking out the window
All I see are sad heavens
Tears falling as rain
Heaviness forms the clouds
Screeching thunder fills the air
Fiery lightning..
Cutting across
The only lights that brighten up
The gloomy skies

I reach out and I'm embraced by
The long unyielding cold fingers of the winds
Creeping into my already empty n dark soul
Filling up the void with more darkeness

I close my eyes and let my self go
Falling off the window ledge
Loving the rush of air on my face as i decend
Loving it ..yet anticipating the end..

I keep falling into the cold dark void
At least all emotions wld be devoid
And i would be left with my weightlessness
Floating around ..no more hopelessness

As I become one with u my dark and gloomy skies
127 · May 2019
Realisation
Chinny Maia May 2019
Didn’t realise how much i had been pulling
Didn’t realise the load i had been carrying
Didn’t realise how much my soul was aching
Didn’t realise that my strength was failing

I just kept pushing
I just kept moving
I just had to keep on going
I just thought i had no choice .. no stopping

Then just in a twinkle of an eye
I almost saw it all pass me by
All i have been struggling, leave me behind
And all that would have been left behind was a sigh..

I now had a to have a rude realisation
I don’t know what direction do i visualise
I have to make a new path, a different direction
A new realisation

I just don’t know what my role is or who am I anymore
I need to realise .. i need a new plan.. a new me
I need a new awakening
Everything i have and i know and i am is not as it is
Is this me or it isn’t

I need a new realisation..
125 · Jan 2019
Death.. demons
Chinny Maia Jan 2019
Shut up!
Shut the hell up!!!
The silence is too loud

Silence!!
Be silent!!
The void is screaming at me

Go away
Get the hell away!!
The darkness is beckoning

Be gone!!
Be gone right now!!
This coldness enveloping me

Stop it!!
Be still now!!
This darkness ..to me it’s rushing

Thou shall not have me...
I say onto thee
My mind , my life and me is not thine!!
123 · Jun 2018
IT
Chinny Maia Jun 2018
IT
It's heavy
I keep dragging it
It keeps drowning me
I can't take it anymore

This darkness is engulfing me
Its pulling me in..
All Its ever done is drain me
I'm exhausted..i give in

I know i have tried
But i am drained
I wish it could all end
All this hurt..it's got me pained

I want IT to just end
Or mayb i should just end
I can't seem to get out of this bend
Or mayb it wld never end

Please i need IT to stop
Just make IT stop

I don't need IT any more

**** IT!!!!!
121 · Mar 2019
Melodies and memories
Chinny Maia Mar 2019
Sitting back in my room ,me and my thoughts
Eyes closed, heart heavy, my soul weary..

The warm sunlight streaming in through the blinds..
Playing old school tunes , one by one, on and on
Bringing on the memories, evoking the past, the nostalgia is poignant..

Each and every song has a special memory attached to it..
It seems like it was another life.. another ones life.. and not mine..
Oh how i long for it.. how i wish it is ..and not was.. still mine

It feels like a dream.. like something that had never been,
And not of what was once been.. now so dark , old , grey and not green
its all gone with the wind..
Gone are all those dreams, hopes.. plans , wishes and loves.. and gone with them .. the loved ones
All now memories.. never to be.. fading away
Almost forgotten.... but never gone

All i have are my memories, these old but sweet melodies..
that invoke these memories
Many of which i never knew where even in there.. hidden in the crevices of my broken soul..

All i have are my melodies and my memories
Till the day my tune and all runs out

My life.. my melodies and my memories..
121 · Oct 2018
You
Chinny Maia Oct 2018
You
The winds blowing through my hair
The glow of the sun , warm on my face
The sounds of the birds,
A melody in my ears

I look up and see You standing , proud , silent and tall next to me
Your handsome face cast in the shadow of the bright sun
I feel the warmth of your presence beside me

I loose myself in the scent of You
I squeeze your warm and caring hand that holds my cold and unsure one in it
You squeeze back .. in your silent way of reassuring me that you would and are always beside me..

I realise that..it’s You

And I know I can now let out a heavy sigh,
A sigh that has been wedged in my soul
since I can remember...

I now know I have been found
I have arrived
I don’t need to search anymore
I don’t need to want anymore
No more yearning , tears or running

I have arrived
And it’s with You ,I have been found
I lay my heart in yours
For I know You  would keep it safe.. always

I have arrived
I am awakening..
I have let go
I am now ready for You...catch me
I have let go.. it’s just You and me

Now I know it has always been You
I have found You
You have made me , me

You
121 · Feb 2018
U
Chinny Maia Feb 2018
U
You look my way
You come my way
U take my breath away
I'm blown away
I feel ur love flow my way
In it I sway
In it I wld dwell..everyday
In it i shall stay..
From it I wld never stray
121 · Sep 2017
The weight
Chinny Maia Sep 2017
The weight..
It goes with me everywhere..
Weighing me down..
Slowing me down..
It's always there..

Draining me..
Pushing me..
Pulling me..
Always with me..

It's there in my smile..
It's there when I cry..
Lurking there behind my laughter..
As my forever after..

The Weight..
It's now one with me.. As I'm one with it..
MY Weight... The Weight..
116 · Dec 2017
Foot steps
114 · Feb 2018
It
Chinny Maia Feb 2018
It
My heart is heavy
My mind is noisy
My soul is weary
My eyes teary

I need some respite
I want it all off me
I dont want all this weight
I loathe it..of it i despise

I need to breathe
I'm suffocating
I'm drowning
I need it to leave

I hv finally realised
It's all in my hands
It's in me to actualize
I have to act ..not just plans

So my heart can be light
I can regain my sight
My soul can take flight
And my mind recover it's might
113 · Feb 2021
WHY!!!!
Chinny Maia Feb 2021
There is so much noise inside me
There is so much hurt inside me
There is all this feelings within me

I’m restlessness
I’m burning inside
I’m crying inside
Slowly dying inside... literally

So much fury,
so much anger
So much pain
Lots of fake laughter

I’ve forgotten how to sleep
I can’t remember how to live
I can only remember how to survive
I have learned to forcefully smile while I weep

I feel stuck
I’m cold
My heart’s like a rock
I don’t know how to make me work

I need to sleep
I need to weep
I should cry
Till I’m raw and dry

But why can’t I find the answer to my question “WHY”
I need to find the answer to my WHY!

Why me??  
Why is this me??

Someone please tell me- Why!!
WHY!!!!!!!!!
112 · Mar 2018
YesTerDaY!!!
Chinny Maia Mar 2018
How did it go this way
Never thought u wld loose my love this way
It was literally just yesterday
And now u have gone ur way

How could we be so much in love yesterday
And we are complete and total strangers today
What went wrong... I need you to say
This feels like a dream..so unreal.. It was just yesterday

I close my eyes and play back everything
So it means all u promised..meant nothing
And here i was, finally letting down my walls
Getting myself engulfed in ur love, with all the flaws

I am in such shock, i cant even cry
My world is shook, my eyes painfully dry
How can you change in a blink of an eye
And not even spare me a goodbye

It was literally just yesterday
I lay in ur arms,
U telling me u loved me
Making me laugh
Mesmerising me with ur charms

But here i am
Standing here ..alone
Wondering where all the love has gone
What the hell went wrong.. So it's all gone
It was all here just yesterday!!!!

It was literally just YESTErDaY!!!!
111 · Feb 2021
Press the Damn button
Chinny Maia Feb 2021
Sometimes , at times, many times... probably right now...
I wish I could press the pause and reboot button
Lets press the rewind button or maybe the stop button....

But then rewind to what stage? To what time?
There seems to be no happy times
I can’t seem to find any care free times

Only times of constant worry
Times of always working
Only functional but not living

Can’t find the time of being totally happy
Can’t remember ever feeling completely safe
Can’t seem to find a time for what I’m trying to find

I guess I should just throw the entire ****** remote away...
But not before I press the pause button
Lets stop everything right now, it can’t keep going this way...

Please press the pause button
Put me in a coma...
I don’t have the strength , I want to be forgotten

Press the pause button
Put me in a coma
Don’t worry you can forget to wake me

I would be very grateful to be paused,
Better still stopped
Lets just end the story

So which do i need
Which one do I want
To press the pause button

Or to press the stop button...??!
Or maybe the rewind button...??
Or better still the delete button....

I just need to stop... so press any of the **** buttons!!! Please
108 · Feb 2018
Music...My drug
108 · Oct 2020
Olaf- Ollie
Chinny Maia Oct 2020
I wake up to your sweet cuddles  and
Your love bites like tiny needles,
but it’s all part of ur love, nonetheless

You meow so sweet and lovingly
as you stretch and reach out out to me..
for a rub and a caress... o how that moves me..

You came into my life at it’s lowest point
I was giving up on joy, life n living- there was no point
But you waltzed in and turned it all around
All my despair to eagerness ...

Eagerness to watch you grow
Eagerness to wake up each day just to love you more
Eagerness to protect you , feed you play with and hold you more

You have no idea how much you saved me
How much you still save me
from my pain
From my despair
From my disdain

You are literally the reason I get out of bed every day..
If I don’t, you attack my feet, hands , nose n lips🤣

Having you in my life has given me a reason to stay alive

You are my right had man, drive buddy,walk buddy, netflix n chill budy.. travel buddy, fight buddy n best of all cuddle buddy..

thank you for saving this soul that was about to give up..

Thank you Olaf..
I love you my Ollie loly limlim baby💕💕💕
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