“I love a girl who wants to **** herself.”
I'm sorry that you love her
She doesn't want to be this way
She fights her demons every day
I wish I could tell you she’d never end her life
But I don't know that for certain
I'm sorry she makes you cry
Makes you think the absolute worst because it could happen
Because her mind taunts her with the release of darkness
I'm sorry that you think her smiles are fake
Some days they are
She just wants to put you at ease
She doesn't want you to worry so much
She can see that the worry is causing you pain
She doesn't want to hurt you
But she seems to hurt you just by existing
I'm sorry you love a suicidal girl

Please stop
I'm begging, pleading, crying for you to stop
You’re stringing me along and I don't know how long this string is or when it’ll break it
You are keeping me here, right here and I don't want to, but you won't stop
You are making these promises I know you cannot keep, they're just lies disguised as hope
You’re making excuses I can't believe anymore because they’re the only words to spew from your mouth
You are desperate not to be alone, so you feed me lies and lies, but I can't take it anymore
…
You have done nothing
All those things are what I'm doing to you
I'm sorry
I'm just scared of being alone, that I'm feeding you lies so you won't leave me like everyone else has
I have no one
You’re the only one keeping me here, that much is true
Otherwise I don't know how long Id last before I took my life
Or the suffering takes it from me

I don't know why I keep coming back to you
I know you can't be what I need
Yet here I am, calling your name
Maybe I don't know what I need anymore
I'm so ******* broken maybe I'm looking at the wrong piece, but which do I follow?
I'm so lost I can't find another
Help me find something, be a light to show me the way to another piece
I can't keep living my life like this
I can't be with you, as much I yearn to, I know I can't
You know I can't
That's why you spend weeks without me
You're learning to live your life without me, it's as if you know
Maybe you do and I'm just too blind to see it
I'm sorry
Maybe I just need a person and your the closest one to me
I'm sorry I'm putting this burden on you, but it's so heavy
I don't think I can hold myself up anymore
I know you don't want to take a load even if you say you can
I've see what I can do to people, so please don't let me hurt you
Get away while you still can
It'll hurt, yes, it always does, but just ******* run away
I'm your worst nightmare, you just can't see it yet
I don't want you to see it
So get away
Save yourself

Things like bullets **** people, but my thoughts **** me

You can't fix a shattered heart with glue and tape.

Love is a very dangerous game and I always lose.