In times where I could have easily given up on myself,
And on life…

I never did.

My soul
My heart
My light
( NEVER quit)

I am still here
I am alive…

And I am finally LIVING.

PROTECT MY PEACE

I am in love with life, and in love with the man I grew into,
It’s taken me a LONG time to be at this point.

So many sleepless nights, never feeling good enough.
So many breakdowns where I felt so shattered, I did not know how to continue on.
So many moments where I just felt so weak and worthless…

Much of those moments were caused by those that did not deserve the access to me…
They thought they could harness my power and use me for their own good,

So before it was too late, I cut the cords of their access to me.

Finally, I spent much time, simply existing
So much work put into healing and getting better…
Piecing together my broken pieces and building myself back up.

And now, I am okay again.
I am healed,
I found my strength.

With this new era of peace I have entered, I’ll tell you one thing for sure,

I will do whatever I need to protect my peace…

If someone does something to threaten my peace, their access to my energy, light and soul will be cut and their exit from my life will be swift and sure.

I must protect my peace, no matter the cost.

BECOMING MY OWN HERO

- I never needed someone else to save me. -
I never expected some hero to “fix me”
Nor did I ever want that

I just needed to not be around the people that tried to destroy me in the first place, while I was trying to heal from those wounds.

Once I cut off their access to my heart, soul and my light,
Once I removed their energy from my life, and was in the right space where I could step back and simply exist,

I finally allowed myself the space to grow
I started healing,

I became the hero I needed.
I saved myself.

For so long, I thought I had to break myself to fit in.

I destroyed myself piece by piece, to earn my place in life
And sometimes, simply to survive.

I thought, to be worthy of love, I had to mould and shape myself to meet the approval of another, even if they did not deserve me.

And when just being me was not enough,
I thought of myself as a failure.

For so long, I broke myself to fit in.

Until, I found myself.
I found my broken pieces, and put them back together.
At first, it was messy,
At times, I almost gave up on myself,
BUT
I never did.

I fixed myself and built myself back up, and I now realize,

I have so much worth, grace, power and softness, just simply living as myself.

My true self, not for anyone else but me.

So now, with all that I have and all that I am, I scream this to the universe,


I.AM.ENOUGH

I spent so many years living within the shadow of the void, time always moved so slowly

Now, I am out of it, I am free
Time feels like it is racing by.
The days feel like they are moving too quickly, and I don’t quite know how to process it.

So for now, I am going to try and slow down,
And just enjoy living life.

I won’t focus on tomorrow,
Or the next day.

No, I will focus on the here and now.
And just live.

You are NOT forgiven.

I moved on.
I found my peace.
I am living.

But, you knew what you were doing.

You were strategic.
You planned every move.

And you knew the severity of your own actions.
You tried to break me, when I did not deserve to be broken…


So, despite the fact I made my peace…

You are NOT forgiven, and I am not sorry…
I just can never give you that.

I have forgiven myself for not knowing I deserved better than you,
I have forgiven myself in the place of forgiving you.

The sky has seen all versions of you.

It sees you when you are brave and strong,
Also, it sees you when you are a complete mess, falling apart at the seams,

And yet, the stars still shine brightly for you at night, because you are beautiful.
And no matter where you are at, you are worth it.

Just remember that during the times you break and are at your lowest.
You are worth the good things.