Alex - Hello Poetry

Alex Aug 2021

ahaha

sometimes when i lie in bed
it's like i've been hit round the head.
I'll try and get up, just to find that i can't,
it's my daily dose of existential dread.

Alex Aug 2021

eyes in the back of my head

here by the forests do these mountains lay,
(a knot in my chest, tightening once more)
spilling the sunlight so it may split and fray.
(a knot in my chest, too tight to ignore)
Here by the river does a smaller brook wind,
(quickandsharpbreathin, breathoutquickandsharp)
like the little baby robin, still deaf and blind.
(plucking at my backbones like the strumming of a harp)

unable to shake that underlying sense of dread.

Alex Jul 2021

obsessive, but fun

crack
  crack
     crack
       crack
         crack
           crack
             crack
               crack
                                     pop

cracking my knuckles,
i just can't stop!

fun fact, the amount of 'crack' is the amount of joints i can pop. Well, not quite. but almost.

Alex Jul 2021

like a breath of fresh air

you know the phrase
"Like a breath of fresh air,"?
you're that.
To me, you are my childhood.
A reminder of a simpler time.

ouch

#love

Alex Jul 2021

mio tesoro

i just wanted you to hold me
and when you did,
i felt whole.
My feelings grew,
i grew obsessed.
You were my anchor,
i felt stable with you near.

Tomorrow, that's the day
I drive down
and finally
we can be close.
We can touch;
we can talk;
we can be comfortable in the gaps in between.

You are part of my life, to the point where
I find it hard to remember you
not being there.
Met when i was six, you were seven
(but only a few months older!!!)
been close ever since then
But, oh, my darling,
what if we were closer?

I want you to hold me
you make me feel whole again.
I want to make you feel
less
alone
again.
You make me believe in marriage,
and children,
and living past eighteen.
When i'm at my worst
you're my voice of reason,
saved my life at least once.
And i want to save yours.

do you need saving, my love?
Do you?
sorry,
i'm not used to this.
and neither are you,
somehow makes this
all
the
sweeter.

bro, how do you poetry

Alex Jul 2021

FINALLY!!!

a holiday,
a car ride,
a services stop,
traffic.
getting dark,
small country lanes,
walk in the park,
for dad.
driveway,
out,
knock.
I waited a year for this hug;
it better be a good one.

Soooo i'm staying with my partner from tomorrow to next sunday!!! This will be the first time we've seen each other after getting together (we live opposite ends of the country) and i'm.... kinds nervous? Over all though, i'm f#cking desperate to see them again. We normally visit each other three times a year (give or take), so not seeing each other bc of corona makes it feel like a really long time since we've been face to face, y'know? Anyway, have a nice summer hols! :)

Alex Jul 2021

the mirror

you deserve better.
you deserve a life that treats you better,
makes you better.
(he stares at me with a passion)
you deserve a universe that doesn't
chew you up,
spit you out.
(is he alright?)
you-
you-
just-
you. just you.
(he's crying now)
you deserve everything.

I deserve better, i think, turning away from my reflection.

sometimes it's ok to be selfish. Not many times though