When I try to hold you,
But you pull away,
Do yo uh love me?
It's to hard to say,
It hurts me,
Leaves me blank,
But then I gotta just say,
I need help,
I need to be held,

I know I look strong,
But I break,
Maybe it's because I'm a girl,
Maybe you feel since your a girl too,
And that I'm more of a tomboy,
Maybe! It's because I don't tell you how I feel,
Or maybe it's just when I say,
" I dont wanna talk about it "
Or,
"I feel angry, sad, and hurt "
Or maybe,..
....
You just don't care

Eyes Burn,
  Ears Ring,
   Thin Screams,
     Lucid Dreams,
          Heavy Heart,
            Broken Bones,
              Shattered Lungs,
                       Frozen Stares,
                          Woken Dares,
                              Battled Mind,
                                  Woven Soul,
                                       Brick Beds,
                                        Rushing Water,
                                            Frozen flames,


               THE MADDNES GAMES

I've been feeling this way for a while now,

And it's starting to take the stage,

As it slowly chips away,

Like a nail at my soul,

We barely talk anymore,

Much less spend time.



It feels like it's killing my brain,

And I wonder.....

Can siblings neglect,

Even if they are younger?

Or is just nothing because,

Only I can neglect,

I'm the problem!!!....



You'll never relize will you?

I'm to good at poker,

You won't be able to read my hand.

You say I'm so full of myself
As you
Scream, and shout and yell at me
You say I am to blame
But how could you say such a thing
You say it is all my fault
But it is free will

Please stop banging on my doors
Doors to my head
It is getting to loud
Please stop making me feel like
The bad guy
Please just stay away
Stay away from my world

You don't belong here
Stop draging me down
Please be aware for one moment
Listen to yourself
.
.
.
But I guess it's all a choice..... Right?

I know it is not easy
I know it is not clean
I understand it can be hard a lot
Trust me I know it's true

And for some of you
You believe you can never be happy
And to you it may be true

But instead of trying to fix it by,
Picking up that blade
Making it hurt more
Bruising the wound until
it finally overflows

You should smile a little
I know it sounds cliche
But as science concludes
Smiling can make you happier
Or it can delude

So don't stuff it down
Where no one can see
It's still good to feel
God trust me

Even though I don't have faith
I still know we will all live with eternal grace

Leeches feed off of others
Of of the things you build
Of of your misery
These aren’t normal leeches
They are people leeches
They are human beings
But they are manipulative
So be aware
They come in the most harmful forms
They can hide like no other
They seem like the best friend
Like the best thing that ever happened
So       aware    the            they
      Be           of      things          do
People they see
Find the leach before it finds you

So bitter
As you insult me,
Try to ruin me,
It’s all in vain,
As you play the victim,
But hear me,
When the time comes
You are the true victim
No one will believe you.

There is this girl who lights up my life
I wish she would stop picking up that knife

If she trys to go and starts fading fast
I will be in extremis
I will panic and scream and cry
And beg for someone to help me
Help me make it to her in time
Help me get rid of thise lines

If she ever leaves me I will be dejected,
Depressed,
Downcast,
Miserable,
I would blame myself for it all,
I will be closed of,
and maybe even on the brink of death,
But If she does leave me on this Earth alone
I wouldn't know were to go;

Once torn
Twice hit
Three times betrayed
Four lost sleep
Five cut
Six running
Down to my spine
A cold gust of air
Seeping through my lungs
It’s all rushing through and
It gets so loud I can’t even think!
They talk They talk.
They scream and cry
And it’s all me I know

But now it’s Quite

The Quiet before the storm
Counting up to the moment
When it all falls down

I used to be so sensitive
I guess I cannot say
Cuz now I’m no longer such a way

Now I have turned rock hard
My heart has turned to stone
Cuz all my walls are  built up
and will no longer let you through

But now my stone is aching
My heart is nearly breaking
My lungs are collapsing
I am now relapsing

My head is filled with thoughts
Your feelings are not one
All that I think or feel
is now again concealed

Hidden away so no one can see
My words are now spitballing
I’m talking so fast I can barely breath
I’m falling, falling, falling
Into a darkness so great
I can’t break

All I can do is once again
Sit here doing nothing, nothing, nothing
With a never ending rhyme
And once again I must go back into my cave

Burn,
   Burn,
        Burn,
The fire burns away
Burn,
      Burn,
            Burn,
For you can no longer stay
You can no longer perlong
The pain you have inflicted
On a being once vindictive
Burn,
      Burn,
           Burn,
The fire sings it’s anteint song
For you can no longer perlong
Burn,
      Burn,
            Burn,
As fire dances away
Cuz  now it’s here to stay
As the water washes it away

I will only write this ONce
My note is now gone
I can no longer rhyme
for the time has come to flip a dime
Because my heart is racing  
KEEP THE WALLS UP!
They are falling down
I can’t  say  
I’m writing so fast
My mind can’t grasp
The scream won’t unleash
I can’t find my leash
Where does it stop
I’m yelling
trying to find you
Why can’t you hear me
I can’t find you
It’s dark again
I’m being swallowed
The monster is yawning
It’s waking up
Someone help
It’s chasing me
It might pull me back
I can’t go back
To that world that hurts so bad
I will not comply
I will not comply
I will not comply
Look what you made me
a beautiful  monster
I can’t let go
I won’t let go
Hold on!
I scream as much as i can
Why can’t you hear me!
I’m falling
Leaving
I can’t go back ]
I won’t go back
my lungs collapse and i cant breath
I can’t move i'm frozen in time
I'm still falling and i scream
Please
Help Me