Please my little heartbroken one,
Stop searching for love within his arms.
He doesn't  know what love is,
His arms are not home,
Please notice this.
Stop looking for love  in a man with which whom,
You can't even trust him to tell you the truth.
The one who will love you,
Will not need to lie.
If he's lying to you then say goodbye.
Just please  pack your things,
leave cuz there you're not needed.
He doesn't love you,
Please why can't you see this.
He's used you for way, way past long enough,
If it hurts you this much,
Honey, it is not love.
Don't get me wrong,
Love is not all smooth sailings.
But with real love,
You BOTH work to keep things from failing.
Give some and take some,
Both 100%.
But whatever you have got now,
Has only created contemp.
Please find the courage and strength that you'll need.
From this toxic situation,
I pray that you're freed.
I can not sit by for one more idle minute,
Watching  your tears,
You don't deserve this.
Deep down you know what I've said here is truth,
More honesty than he ever offered to you.
So please  all I want in return for my care,
Is for you to just give up pack up and leave there.

And after

" I love you,
             but
      I'm
not
       in
           love
with
          you"


fell from his lips,
Heavy tears in his eyes
as he turned away.


" There

               is someone else,

                                                          ­ isn't there?"
  
Silence.


........

Knowing that you're toxic,
Doesn't seem to change how I feel.
I know it's probably " trauma bonding"
But my love for you is real.
I know that you don't care,
And you're never going to change.
But that little piece of hope that's left,
Just will not go away.
You have shown me many times,
What you think of me.
But then you come in with sweet words,
That I KNOW don't mean a thing!
And yet still I accept them,
Praying this time that they're true.
But of course, I know the deal,
The only thing you'll ever love is you.

As the sun sets,
on all of our plans,
I accept the things,
I still don't understand.
And looking to the moon I sigh,
as one last tear escapes my eye.
I've tried everything,
that I can do.
But the choice it seems,
wasn't for me,
but you.
It's ok.... and I will be just fine.
Your heart simply wasn't,
meant to be forever mine.
The stars in the sky,
gently shed light on the truth.
My love for you was real,
and my pain is the proof.
Dawn starts to break now,
So I guess I made it through,
Last night was the first night,
I didn't sleep next to you.
As the sun starts,
to rise over the shore,
my pain and my love for you,
Begin to fade more.
So that each moment hurt less,
then the moment before.

I fell in love with a version of you,
That does not truly exist.
I created that person within my mind,
And it's time that I admit this.

I wanted so bad to believe that you'd change,
Simply because you said that you could.
But actions speak louder than ever your words,
And your actions say you never would.

Loving you was the most exquisite form,
Of self-destruction and torture for me.
But do I regret of that I'm not sure,
You did teach me what love really means.

Because of the treatment the lies and the hurt,
Cheating on me all the time.
You showed me exactly what love is not like,
Now I know what to go out and find.

When infatuation fades away,
fast-beating hearts do slow.
That's when real  true love starts,
loves not easy didn't you know?
It takes work and it takes commitment,
to keep that love alive.
So to throw away four years of love,
For fleeting butterfly's?
Regret will surely envelop you,
when you realize what you've done.
When butterflies as always fade,
and things you've lost are gone.  
There will be no coming back,
You can sit in your regret.
I will not be looking back,
Your name and face I will forget.
I won't accept false apologies
No more "let's try one more times."
You threw away what it was we had,
You chose the butterfly's.

9 years now it has been,
another year went by.... yet again.
My heart it still aches,  
you consume all my thoughts.
The sound of your voice though,
a memory I've  tragically lost.
Time never heals you,
it just makes things fade.
So I worry with terror,
will I soon forget your face?
Sometimes when I'm alone,
I picture you here next to me.
Then I pray that you're not,
Because you'd hate what you see.
It shames me to say it but you would be ******,
if you saw how I royally ****** up my ****.
Many choices I've made that I now regret,
Despite all your warnings,
Uncle,


         I'm addicted to ****.


I hate it so much I need your help,
I am completely and fully ashamed of myself.
Your Tweety Birds broken,
beyond repair?
Why did you leave us,
Uncle it's not ******* fair!
Everyone tells me you knew I loved you,
I can't help but wonder....
Would you still love me too?
After every wrong choice
and all my regrets,
after losing my girls,
Cuz' I'm addicted to ****
So how would you do it?
Still love who I am.....
I don't think you could do it,
Don't think anyone can.