You don’t know how much l cherished loving you
Waking every morning, seeing your name on my phone
It reminded me that l mattered to someone
Not for a second but for months of compassion and deep connection
Now you aren’t here….
It takes countless stabs and insults to break my barriers
“You’re worthless, you’re fat, and you don’t deserve me”
This shattered me like a mirror hanging from the thinnest shred of string
Trying to glue back the mistakes, showing all the imperfections l have
I see you around at school, joyous as anything l can preserve
Why aren’t you broken like l, why can’t you feel the pain l endured?
You aren’t human, the devil of burning hatred weaved in layers of despair of fallen foes
Wishing no one else could go through the reckless mistakes l promise would never end
My heart can only take so much, you pushed it to the limit and beyond
This took me to another of level of mental pain l could never imagine
Crying and sobbing to show that l had enough, you always kept going further
These were the words you spoke, the person l could always trust, now a stranger
Tormented, l walk through the world with locked secrets and a broken smile
Thoughts of how l can try to fix this issue, nothing has worked, you disgraced a living person
I don’t know how you live with such a high status of popularity because it consumes you
Everyone adores you, l did until now, having your secrets and the key to your weakness
I’ll make you feel the karma, the promised negativity from deep within
Shaking with the thoughts of unimaginable sights
The pain you put me through, is just about to occur
But anyways im broken now its your turn :)