“i love you” is a lie
“promises” you always break
maybe one day you’ll relate

You had my heart one day
The day l let my barriers down
The second l let you in
You relinquished your hidden talent

The talent to ruin lives
To ruin my well-being
For depression to take action
Realizing all this after?
"Maybe just a late reaction"

I still feel your hands on me
Invisible shadows of thoughts to come
Ripping my heart out and treading on so
It's the feeling that takes the breath away
"But......., why are you so Heartless?"

Fathoming that l found her
The words said left me in awe
Beautiful sculpt, built for me
I found her and shes waiting for me

I don't know why l'm here
It's as l have all the questions for secrets unknown
Is it my conquest to figure out my destined path
I don't know why l'm here.

I've wasted it all
Nothing to spare besides these memories
Happy ones are the rarest to spare the least
All l see now is the down-spiral of despair

It's been months since I've been happy
The curvature beginning to unfold
Then abruptly coming to a halt
I wish l could say why it occurred..

I've received limited time
Only to do nothing with it
To change myself to become happy
But only to waste it and be neutral

It'll be fixed one day
But today is the day l reminisce
On the ways I've wasted my time
"Cheers", to the singular thing l wish to have more of.

Her emerald forest green eyes
The joyous smile l see in the reflection
She's the reason why l smile
And how l keep motivated everyday

I love her so much
l'll be seeing her soon <3

You don’t know how much l cherished loving you
Waking every morning, seeing your name on my phone
It reminded me that l mattered to someone
Not for a second but for months of compassion and deep connection
Now you aren’t here….

It takes countless stabs and insults to break my barriers
“You’re worthless, you’re fat, and you don’t deserve me”
This shattered me like a mirror hanging from the thinnest shred of string
Trying to glue back the mistakes, showing all the imperfections l have

I see you around at school, joyous as anything l can preserve
Why aren’t you broken like l, why can’t you feel the pain l endured?
You aren’t human, the devil of burning hatred weaved in layers of despair of fallen foes
Wishing no one else could go through the reckless mistakes l promise would never end

My heart can only take so much, you pushed it to the limit and beyond
This took me to another of level of mental pain l could never imagine
Crying and sobbing to show that l had enough, you always kept going further
These were the words you spoke, the person l could always trust, now a stranger

Tormented, l walk through the world with locked secrets and a broken smile
Thoughts of how l can try to fix this issue, nothing has worked, you disgraced a living person
I don’t know how you live with such a high status of popularity because it consumes you
Everyone adores you, l did until now, having your secrets and the key to your weakness

I’ll make you feel the karma, the promised negativity from deep within
Shaking with the thoughts of unimaginable sights
The pain you put me through, is just about to occur
But anyways im broken now its your turn :)