A gun to my head
The barrel in my mouth
With my finger
On the trigger
And a white wall
I will paint
With the color of my blood
As the is trigger pulled
And the bullet flies
My blood and pain
Covers the wall red

Love for you
Is love for another
A battle I have
Between lust and love
Is my only temptation
Do I fall to you
Or rise up
To love another day
The love for you
Isn’t love at all

A winner
Will be the out come
A race between
Love and lust
When one feeling is stronger
The other loses
A battle between good and evil
The outcome
Will be broken
A heart torn in two
One half love
And the other lust
The heart will earn
For a hand
To lay in
A hand of love
With a tinder louch

’m stuck
No where to go
You keep me here
Not wanting me to leave
Holding me against my will
Not letting me leave
Be on my own
I want to leave
And break free

The pain I give
Can’t be taken
The life I have
Will be forsaken
The ones I lost
Have been mistaken
The ones I have
Will be forgiven
The sadness I have
Will still happen
The help I give
Is never wanted
The pain I give
Will stay
The scars I left
Will never be given
The love once given
Is never enough
To the pain I have given

You said you would help
You would be here
You would show me
Right from wrong
Help me grow up
Show me the meaning of life
But you never did
You left and never came back
A sorry truth
To the one you said
That you loved the most

I sit with death
On my mind
What’s the last
Thought you think
Will you cry tears of joy
Or blood of pain
So I sit and think
Of my last thought
Will I cry tears of joy
Or will my eyes
Be filled with hate
And blood of black
Will I die at my hands
Like the one before me
Or at the hands of another

A blade in my hand
The deeper I push
The more the pain
Fear
Terror
Heartbreak
We eyes are wet
Stained black
With fear of the past
Deep in my soul is a cry
A cry for help
The deeper
The harder
The more it flows out
Cut through I am now free
Free to be me
Without you

The day has come
For me to go
On another adventure
This time with out you
The time will pass
And go by slow
Till the day
I come back home
I must go
I’ll be gone for awhile
I love you from now
Till I see you once again

I saw you once more
Last night you came
You hugged me
Last night I saw you
Last night I think I finally let you go
Last night you said
I love you
I’m sorry
Last night I let you go in

Silence
Is all I hear
When I sit in my room
Sit in the dark
Sit in the quiet
My eyes see red
From the blood I bleed
My body covered in black
From the demons I have
And my eyes cry rivers
To fill the valley’s in my heart

Here I stand
A broken man
Held down
Pinned in the corner
Your words beating me
Me head throbbing
Wanting to cry
Wishing I had blood
Pouring from my wrist
My body laying on the floor
With you starring at my lifeless eyes
Knowing what you pushed me too