I want you
And i want to know you want me too
All i ask for
All i need
That piece of mind
Some room to breath
I want you

I want to be there for the ride
I want to watch you grow and fly
all ill ask you
And all i say
Please say you want me in some way.


In my dreams we travel wide
I always find you by my side
I quite enjoy your company
I would like it for my journey.

I want to know if you want me
And if you like my company
if you dont then thats ok
i still would like you any way.

I want you to be there with me
I want to take your hand with glee
Set our paths both far and wide
we could take the world in stride.

I want to know if you want me
And if you like my company
I want you too
I swear its true
I want to be alone with you

I want to shake the world with you.

id like to spend some time with you.

I dont know what i could do
To help me start loveing you

Step 1
Step 2
Step 3

I laugh so hard
They all stop to look at me

In an atept to help
One hands be a book
Another a movie

At last a panflit
To teach me pationce
Untill god gifts me a husband

I drop them in the trash drown the block in a lump.
Pour my coffie on it and refuse to be told.

I want to love you like new
I want to love you our way
And no one elses
And to find out what that means.

Loveing like childeren
Living like lovers
Under the covers

Ok so sir elton john gets to have a say.
But i admit, i trust his opinoins more than those of gods and men.

I am
listening to Save Feris.
I am
drinking wine from a Frappechino bottle.
Said wine,
is called Carnivor.
Heavy,
Biting,
Cheap.
I am
dressed in army pants
and my older brothers chopped up
childhood HD sweater.

Black leather boots, tight.
Pants bloused above.

I
did laundry today.

I cleaned the kitchen

and did the dishes.

I did the shopping
and
took out the trash....


It is winter
and it has finally snowed,
bitter cold.


Been mild so far.

Been,

tense

so far.



Healing
and

moving
Healing
and

moving



I dress for my battles.

             I dress for chicago.

prepare for......
                                     everthing.

You kiss the back of my neck,
as we curl up to sleep.
This was never part of the agreement
(not that i dont like it) and
i know you were drunk and
  dont mean it.
I'm not usto it
just not shure how to take it.

When i feel your eyelashes on my hair
I consiter it,
but i don't.
Sometimes you suggest that i take other men home,
i consiter it,
But i dont.
It's not that i have only eyes for you
Dear.
It's just that no one else catches my eye.

Knock it off.
Callm your **** down.
Don't be getting all
sent-a-ment-al.

Company is company and
company is nice.
If you get your pantys in a twist
it might ruin the whole night.

so lets just enjoy it
i like you
you seem like a decent  sorta guy

I know that im awkward,
and *******.
But i think you kinda are too.
Also,
i dont mean anything by it
when i dont **** your ****.
Tts just a tick.
And dont you worry,
ill get over it.

To wrap you up inside my skin
To feel that aching deep within i want you
I want
You

When times are troubled and im tired
Im all mixed up and hot like wire
I want you
I want you

A bed so empty and so small
A silence i cant stand at all
I want you
I want you

To breath and sigh and stretch and yawn
To slide my hand across your arm
I want you
I want you

Bodys tangled side by side
press my warmth against your thigh
I want you
I want you

You really seem quite nice
and your brain is just my size
and I tell ya man im not an easy fit

id love to have a chat
pick your brain about
this and that
no better way to possibly spend my time

but when I get to talking
theres this voice that comes a mocking
and I find my self in a war with my words

and im shuddering
and im stopping
and im wishing that I could just find
that perfect and clear combination of words and sounds

a conversation
some discourse
a verbal interaction
its and itch thats needed scratching
for some time

I just wish I could give it a try

see iv been running around in circles
pushing boundaries
stepping backwards
even gnawed my foot down to the bone

communication at its finest
effortlessness interaction
the kind were we can see each other new

iv love to get to know you
iv got lots of things to show you
but im choking
and im gasping
purely willing my self to spit out
that perfect and clear combination of words and sounds

a conversation
some discourse
a verbal interaction
its and itch thats needed scratching
for some time

but I never can get it quite right.

iv been giving up
and feeling  tired
from all this
wadeing into my past for answers

But, Im getting really ******* sick of the why.
And the how.
And I need to feel the now.

been hiding out like a *****
keep your
self out of the equation
lest I spread this plauge
of sadness and shame

I look my self in the face and say
'Do it, or die. These are your options'
Strangely it gives me strength
to ask my self if I really want to die.
And if the answer is no well,
"Buck it the **** up honey and get it done."

I wanna be stronger now
I wanna me meaner now
I wanna be all those girl bands I
tirelessly hunted down

I had dreams and a drive once
I can have them again
just watch me try to stop me