I am an anarchist
a feminist
an abolitionist

I am out spoken
I am afrade
I stew in the messes that I have made

I am cynical
I am cautions
I am a pessimist
I am nauseous

I am unorganized
I am unwilling
and these clothes are all ill fitting

I am crude, rude, lude
and am in the most terrible mood

I am depressed
I am a mess
I dont think I could hate my self less

I am free
I am caged
I present my self on stage

I care
I am aware
I lack lengths of hair

I sing
and I shout
but in nothing particular about

I write poems on occasion
but never anything to amazin'

I could decide to start a revolution using only my voice
All it takes  is the will to make it happen,
Darby Crash didn't realize or maybe he did
The moments
The oneness
A feeling he couldn't sustain
A high he couldn't maintain
Such a need for closeness it can never be filled
To go on in a life of solitude and anonymity
To live out your days growing farther and farther away from that feeling
To create something so intangibly wonderful
To be the entertainer
The light bringer
The hope giver
The mind clearer
The sole bursting
Something that carries on in the heart of man
Bigger than your self
So big it fills the hearts and holes of many
Bearing your scars with it reflected back at you
As an act of strength
I
Know
What its like
Out there
But
In here
We are whole
We are perfect
Our eyelashes catch our sweat

Just hold on a minute
Just calm down a second
There some questions I've been meaning to ask you.

If you can just quiet
Just for one minuet
Theres some things i have been dieing to tell you

When your face gets so red and
The words just keep flowing
Closer and closer
Volume growing and growing.

Don't shut me out now
Please don't interrupt me
If i don't get this out out
the pain will just keep growing

When the room gets to bright
All snarling teeth and fright
When the temperature rockets
Back to wall hands in pockets
Trembling crouching.

Please don't get angry
I need you to know this
It hurts you i know
But iv needed to show you this

When I'm crying so hard
When I'm  chocking up spit
When I'm sobbing and begging
Telling you to quit

When there's a barricade on the door
When the pounding is so loud
When there's dents in the wood
When i hate being alone

Just one more question. Honestly, please, in these moments
do you think i feel you love me?

My head on your chest
And Lord knows I'm a mess
But that steady beat i hear keeps me in time

That look in your eyes
Your hands shaking like mine
And I cant keep you out of my mind

No denying this feeling
These cards are self dealing
All i want is to stay by your side

And the world could come crashing down
Around my head
But i just wont mind
So long as I'm here
With your arms wrapped around me
I know it will be just fine

'Cause i cant shake this feeling that there is no turning back now

You sigh in your sleep
And most things just don't keep
But hearing you breathe makes me think that whats gold can stay


I remember it all
I remember the fall
And the sun just keeps rising since then

This feeling inside
I just cant seem to hide
Then i look in your eyes and its there
And it's there
And it's there

The touch of your lips
Your hands rest on my hips
And we clasp hands so tight that it hurts

You fear for the worst
But that's not how it works
'Cause you see I'm in love with this boy

I play with your hair
And it just isent fair
That time wont stop for me
And for you
And for you

So long as your here
With your arms wrapped around me
I know it will be just fine

Distortion, override

filling heads bobbing and swaying like a metronome with reckless abandon.



Calves bursting with an energy reserved for marathon runners and speed junkies.



Drum beat love, thumping in chests like hearts made of rock n roll-

manufactured by Pearl and modified by ourselves.



Sound waves wasted on ears to dense to comprehend the raw power pouring out a Marshal stack.



UN-moving, mind and body

paralysis turned rigamortis

Wile you were gone
The world came crashing down
And i, to weak to hold it off
Crashed too

For a day or so
Your sent still clung to it
Now all i smell is the salt

How much longer can i ignore the wound in my side?
Until i finally pass out from the loss...

I saw you the other day

I tried not to

And you not see me


Standing there
Smoking

Trying to hide in broad daylight on a street corner

I wanted to know you like no one else
I wanted to tell you this all my self

But this country's so big
And so wide coast to coast
And this person im talking to is only your ghost

With suburbia behind us
Endless sky ahead and
With how close the clouds were you'd think we were dead

I don't know you any more
Wish I could say I did

I think I've forgotten
I think I remember
I think I should call you
I don't think it matters

I loved you,
Somewhere I think I still do
In the back of my heart
In a memory of you

It a fall like I have never seen it before
Its early
And its late
And it nothing in between

Fire in the sky and it skipping the ground
Voices and laughter and such beautiful sounds

A treasure is hidden
Just waiting to be found
A part of me missing
Now deep in that ground

I wanna run in the rain
But its to late
To cold



Left out in the cold with tail lights receding
A nervous but wonderful kind of a feeling

A sky full of colors
That gold that wont stay
I thought that I loved you
But only for a day


The stars still shine brightest from the roof of a car
And the seasons are changing as much as we are
That doesn't mean I don't miss you just the same

My Hero
My Partner
My Best Friend for a time
I guess I'm just selfish
I know your not mine

The acrid smell of cigars still hangs in the
Air where a beat up white
Cavalier once stood

Lay out on the hood
Let the sun bake on in
I've said my goodbyes
no more see you later
although this last moment I'm entitled to savor

In years to come this view will be gone
I want to remember you just as you are

Drive on up the street but please don't look back
You'll see what im saying is a measurable fact
There's a time and a place
And nether still exists
Screaming and fighting and raising of fists
To the flame in the sky wont help it one bit
Trust me id make him stop if I could


I breath out
The car fills with smoke
Hey, pass me another
Alright, but you buy next time.