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What Matter To Me?
The material possessions?
The money spent to feel joy?
No
None Of It Ever Mattered To Me.
It was what I felt emotionally, in confession.
The memories build a blooming story.
So,
Only I Saw What Mattered To Me.

The world is tainted-
Everywhere I go, the imperfection is akin to death.
The baggage my mind holds with this knowledge-
I can't feel at home on planet Earth.
The Severity
To my cursed Awareness
Brings me. no. Serenity.
And clouds my soul. in. Darkness.

Because when I loose my emotion's
my skin feels like a shell to protect
me from all the physical attacks
that the world rains on top of me
but what of my vulnerable soul?
When my body is cut or wounded
it shows the pain by bleeding
When my soul gains a scar
all I can do is hold the wound as my emotions bleed

I hate to say my body is just a shell.
Just That, A Shell.
But it's true, protecting me from physical attacks.
I Hate That, A Shell.
But it's true, my knees give way because of soul attacks.

I wound myself because I am aware.
I am wounded because the world is unaware.
I wound myself because I am unable to understand.
I am wounded because no one wants to understand.
I bleed myself because the world is tainted, corrupted.
I am bleeding because I understand that, I Am, tainted, corrupted.
I bleed myself because I need to feel pain to stay sane.
I am bleeding because the world never let me feel sane.
I am
My worst enemy
Despicable, Cunning, Vile
I just wanted harmony
I am
My worst enemy
Fragile, Unending, Unfilial
I hated this destiny

How can you love what destroys you?
The great saying of..
You can't love someone until..
You start to love yourself..
I never loved myself
All because of an inner eternal battle.
I never loved myself
All because I was looking for an equal field.

How can you love what destroys you?
You don't. That is the simple answer.
To destroy is to obliterate.
To destroy is to become nonexistent.
I. Deep down inside. What to destroy myself.

Myself is a danger to Myself.
A person I fear that will take it all.
Myself is endanger.
I Can't Fall In Love
All because I would endanger her.
All because there is no beauty in this beast.
All because I would fear one day hurting her.
All because there is no harmony around that beast.

I am
My worst enemy
Despicable, Cunning, Vile
I just wanted harmony
I am
My worst enemy
Fragile, Unending, Unfilial
I hated this destiny

Myself is a danger to Myself.
A person I fear that will take it all.
Myself is endanger.
I Can't Fall In Love
In a prospect to protect her.
Intent to hold down the beast myself.
In an attempted to save her.
Intent to only destroy that beast mirror of myself.

-Rose are Red-
-Violets are Blue-
..I wish that demon was dead..
...So that I could always love you...
.I wished for Harmony.
.But was dealt a dreaded Destiny.
A Lawless Man Shows the cover of his book
Showered in a golden peace
A Lawless Man wears a suite and tie
Stuck with a silver tongue drooling with words of peace
A Lawless Man turns you foolish
From the mouth and tongue
To the mind burning in mind yelling!
Only if I could re-start oh I wish yes I wish
The people who walk by or near
Will wish that he had never appear
In death they will be consumed by their actions made of fear
Yelling from the blood that stained the ground!
**** you! **** you why won't you disappear!

The very Lawless Man
He will look in their eyes to their souls
With a sinister feel and a sinister smile
He says..
"Why if you knew me I couldn't grab you,
I envy you so much that I want all of you,
My greed ****** me, in my anger you who is with me
I'm here to do the same to you, so you may be ****** here too!"

He's an evil man walking as if he isn't
A fear even so more there is two
Followed the beast itself under a cloak of hate
In its mouth it yells in a shroud

Find the light and you may not be consumed
Find the light you will understand the next words
For it is to Die and Live than to Live and Die
Do not commit the act unto yourselves
wait for the world to hate you as it has hated him
be thrown in the eyes of a being that despises
for it will slew you and slew those with you
in front of those who love that defiler
and they will all say this is entertainment
For this is great in my eyes
But in the end they all die
Taken to a world they chose willingly
to scorn with the tongue and deny the power and will unto him
for he is, was, will, and shall be
they will never stop to him but they will do so
out of eye in pain forever and ever

A Lawless Man
Hides behind a great reason the sways the mind
A Lawless Plan
Is its act to use your mind to take your soul to keep you in line
Remember!
Men, Women
Sons, Daughters
Fellow Brothers and Sisters!
It is to be
The one thing reason can't explain and show with the eyes
Is the unexplainable for it has us curious and forever will
But I hope you know in the center of that unknown
Is not the "god" of this world
BUT the very God of what is all and isn't
Only the heart can explain not feeble creations from flesh and man

FOR HE LOVED US FIRST AND FOR THAT REASON SO WE LOVE HIM AS DUE, LET HIM HAVE AN EAR THAT UNDERSTANDS THE WORD FOR THE WORDS, THE SPIRIT THAT GAVE US A SPIRIT THAT WE WILL UNDERSTAND AND OPEN OURSELVES TO THE UNEXPLAIN ABLE TRUTH!
Ahmen
Every pain I have felt
Left fragile scares on my skin
Scarlet roses peirce my skin as i slowly melt
Forgetting whats its like to protect my kin
It hurts when your alone
I am one left with one score in the unknown

Cuts that healed weaker than before
I scream at these blades in a cold scenery
How has my heart not felt sore
When the the pain that engraved in is my enemy
This is blasphemy, a cruel twist of sorcery
Im unable to feel more because there is less of me

It hurts when your alone
Because
The unknown is completely a
Unpredictable zone

Even me and myself
Has let go and left
The person that is I
Are they lost just like I?
Did you ever see the monster in the mirror
See your own fear even more clear
Looking for your actions to be good
Just to be self destructive, realizing you'll never be there

Thinking everyday I can make a change
Wanting to hang your old ways
Just to be on stage
To find out today is just the same as yesterday

Striving to heal what you do but only leave a wake of pain
Asking all these questions, like "what do I do"
When every sincerity ends bad to die in vain
I Feel Pain Too

But then after many years you become different
And drift away from the people that was scared of you
Thinking now ive changed maybe now i can repent
But with these scars i was scared now asking again "what do i do"

Hoping i can forget the regrets
Thinking maybe i escaped lifes suffocating net
Maybe i can breathe better and calmly stare at the sunset
Signing away these scars with self merit

Thinking i can heal from my stupidity and pain
But the question still lingers "what do i do"
Seeing the face familiar of back then with fear made my journey feel down in vain
I Feel Pain Too...
My heart has fallen
My mind broken
I fell I've arrive a little too late
I'm in this Delusional State
Feel with my face on the ground
If I scream or yelled would it even make a sound

I'm sitting still in pain
Wishing someone would say my name
Other than the voices the drag me down
Hoping someone says show no more that frown
Because
I'm bleeding these emotions
that are slowly suffocating me as I sleep
with these dreams taking away myself
The more I sleep
The more I know less about me
****** this delusional state
Hiding the love and making me hate
If only I could see the sun before its to late
Or ask the moon what is my reason, what is my fate

The more I feel less human
The more I yearn to be a man
The more I feel less of a man
The more I yearn to be a human
If only it was simple
If i could have to one needed principle
Why is it so evil
Why is it evil

My heart has fallen
My mind broken
I feel I've arrive a little too late
I'm in this Delusional State
Fell with my face on the ground
If I scream or yelled would it even make a sound

Why was the pain delivered, Relentless
Why was my actions regrettable, I'm Reckless
Dull to myself and people around me, Senseless
I can only pity my own actions and myself, I'm helpless
If only I could find a way
Out of my illusion
Id speak face to face to my delusion
If only i was strong enough to have my own persecution
I hope I'll find a way
Just can't tell if it will be today
Why is it so evil
Why is it evil.
This world is on its own
Left in water so shallow
Hearts of every human
Seems to be only hollow
Filled in lost void
Emotionless life of an android
What are we?
Who have we become?
Why wage war with me and you?
While muttering who will we be?

Do You See The Unkown
That lies beyond my own heart
Simply in pain and over grown
Covering the iris of My Eyes
For i am who i am
While all the same i ask
Am i?

The lost is our fate
The people end in life to be
Waltzing in time on destiny's melody
Do you know what i see
Lost children, with out care,
Taking all, stealing,
Withs hearts of fire and flare,
While the dead are the ones singing.

Do You See The Unkown
That lies beyond my own heart
Simply in pain and over grown
Covering the iris of My Eyes
For i am who i am
While all the same i ask
Am i?

Who are.... you?
I ask who.... are you?
But also who... are... you...
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