A thousand versions of the truth
Many days of second guessing
Several hours of questions
That go unanswered
Unending nights
Alone
When words
Really hurt me
When betrayer was trusted
Nightmares infest everything that is
The darkness creeps in to destroy
And taint the life and light death
I can only believe in what I perceive
As my reality
But can I always believe it

If tomorrow is a good day
Then I will be okay
It was so cold this morning
You could hear the grass freezing
A crackling like glass
And with it my dreams are stashed
A quite chill in the air
Break the silence if you dare
Music  plays through one ear bud
Sometimes life is a dud
I'd love to see snow
I've only seen frost
There's so much I want to know
But most of it seems lost

My heads in my hands
A broad smile on their faces
I've used up all my tear before age twelve
My eyes only mist now and then
Like the chance of fog in a desert
My heart is like a mirror that you've
Shattered but it'd not in pieces
It's still held together
Somehow
Their broad smiles are demons that attack
When you're vulnerable
Hands will tell you the story of their owners
I  <3 you
That's what you send me
I don't know what to say
I'm sorry
I don't know if I feel like that
It's tearing me up like a twister
So much destruction

What if no one knew you
What if no one loved you
What if no one hated you
If no one said hello
If no one says goodbye
If there was no conversations with you
No one cries over you
No one picked you
No one looked at you and smiled
No yesterday
No today
No tomorrow
What if no one saw through the mask
What if no one caught your tears
What if there was no escape
What if you were just a ghost
If death made more sense than life
If high school was more knowing
If friends were there
If broken things were easier to repair
No one knows, on this side of things
No one will understand you
No one feels like you do
No one in the world was muffled with you
No life in the shadows
No hope in the eyes of the many
No mid morning sun
What if is always a possibility but
Just wait until it becomes reality

This would be poetic
I'm sure if I actually meant something
Sometimes even I don't know
What this is about
Or maybe I do know
I write and write
The first two lines
And go no farther
A secret smile in the dark
The patterns in my eyes standout to you
No.
That's not right
It's midnight
How cliché
A dreamer closes her eyes......
Let me guess, for the last time?
War torn valleys color red
With hate and disgust
A blood haze in the eyes
Of everything living
Your fight against me?
Only light was distant like the stars
The stars cowered behind the form of
The dark masses of clouds
Just like the light in you
Hides from the black in your soul
How original
This is hopeless
No, it's not
Why?
Because you're still writing
Aren't you suppose to be my writer's block
I am
Oh never mind
Why can't I put these ideas into words?
You have many questions
I'll answer one
*Because you're ideas are not fully formed

There's nothing
No ideas
No inspiration
No words
No mood music
There's nothing
No theories
No hypothesis
No hope
No tunes
There's nothing
No stuck in my head
No us
No close friends
No wishes
There's nothing
No dancing
No more
No dreams
No more stars
There's nothing
No hero's
No bad guys
No evil
No good
There's nothing
No drumbeat hearts
No ruby red blood
No storytelling flesh
No soft smiles
There's nothing
No pictures
No memories
No conversations
No there's nothing
No rocks below
No air above
No life near here
No tears in my eyes
There's nothing
Only
Maybe
There
is  
Something


        No        No
  No       No      No
      No           No
               No

No
There's
**Nothing

I heard that human
Blood is blue
Until it reacts with
Oxygen
I've heard that if
You play a
Certain frequency
While slowly freezing
Water
It because beautiful
I've heard that if
You have any
Pet you are
At less of a
Risk for
Depression and
Heart problems
I've heard that one
In three teen girls
Consider themselves
Ugly
Never good enough
I've heard that
Life
Should be
worth
Living
I've heard some
Things that I
Believe
But I've also
Heard things that
I'll never
Understand