Im going to regret
Writing every single word
On my soul, flesh, paper, electricity
Flows from my being like
A star has exploded.

My very essence has been transformed.
What catalyst has caused such change?
Alchemical reactions to extreme emotion
Solidified in the will to become
A free soul.

Bring about my decalcification!
Bring forth the rudder that steers me to victory,
And bash my ******* skull in.
Make me a free man, my soul,
Restore to me the primal essence.
That primitive vitality, Lord,
Let me become You.

I cannot believe
My body can ache
From the wrath i cause myself.

Leave me alone
Oh tormenting mind
And free me from my cell.

Remove me from temporal gain,
Eleviate my need for joy.
**** my soul, destroy me whole
And keep me as I was.

On here, I am free
To say as I wish
But I don't want to give you fuel
To fan flames against me

I will never hide
No matter how much I ache
I trust you to look away
If you truly wish to.

Thank you so much.
I will be better.
I'll be a good friend to you,
and I'll keep my emotions out of it

I am not afraid of who i am
Nor am I scared of who I'll become

I'll use this as a lesson
In the school of life
Never believe what people say
Unless you stare them in the eyes

Ill pour my ******* heart out now
That i know that I can
And i am in so much ******* disarray

Be happier than i ever made you
And it'll make me happier than I ever have been.

I hope the best
For you and I
That I may grow
And that you may too

Reading your poems
Brings my heart
Joys unseen