***** you
***** your smile
***** your laugh
***** your touch
your smell
***** your love

I listen to my music,
secluded and alone,
rocking out to MCR
and Black Veil Brides
Watching and waiting
for a chance to say 'hey'
Loving how I exist in
only the music world
Wake up to fell let down
buy family and 'friends'
and looking at you smile
every morning is killing me
more then it should,
making me want more BOTDF,
AA, BMTH, PTV, and SWS
jamming to all the trule in those lines

My past came back to haunt me
all ten+ pill bottles are back and on my dresser
by razor is on the bed waiting for my touch
my stomach cant take much more of this
my mind is slowing down to almost a stop
my heart just won't beat anymore
my life has drained out of my smile
and the fire that once was in my eyes are no more

Those scars on my wrists and thighs?
Came here through my trying times,
But you stayed through the lows and my highs,
You stayed there for me,
as a friend and as a lover
You helped me fight through it all
your the one of my dreams
your the one tying me to life
with out your support I'd be dead
Lying six feet under
wondering if you ever loved me
Never thought I'd wear that necklace
of rope, in the barn, above in the rafters
owls hooting my return to the god above
Horses all untamed and not groomed
the place of my birth and my death becomes my home

B: Beautiful, pretty little lines Chris-crossing my wrists
A: Accepting death before my 12th  year
I: Innocence left my body years ago
L: lost and so alone
E: Euphoria long ago gone
Y: yearning for his love to grow like a wild fire