I like you I want you to like me too I want to hug you I want to kiss you I want to wake up to you You are the sun That brightens up my days I think I’m not good enough I know there are a lot of people after you I know they could probably treat you better I’m not right in the head I get anxiety attacks thinking about it How I want you to be happy And I want to be happy But I have nothing to offer But my unstable love I’ll push you away Even though I want you to stay I want you to want me But I don’t want you to fall for me I don’t want to hurt you I don’t want you to hurt me I’m too irrational And I don’t make any sense Would you put up with my demons Would you stay through my storm Or would you leave me To be eaten by my own mind No one gets me I need to love and be loved More than anything.
You went astray Now im sitting ashing bowls in my ashtray Wondering why the flying **** I had to let you go away I guess it was my Philophobia Fear of love cause love is pain and not even a raging rain storm could wash away the hurt My apologies if im being selfish But **** your feeling this is all about me Can't you see the hurt in my eyes as I listen to your lies and try to convince my self to believe Always hoped for our happily ever after But now I just wish I could forget you a little bit faster
For a long time now Life has been like a dream I go day by day On autopilot My life is monochrome Bland I feel I am a burden I try to be of use Change How I am How I act If life’s a game I’m not playing right Am I not good enough Why don’t my efforts pay off Might I be vexed Or am I an omen My mind is often flooded With thoughts like so
Silent cries never heard Years go by justice never served Anger and rage spilling out Flipping tables on reality Call us beasts For wanting to be free Free to breathe Because as of late It’s been feeling kinda hard Walking through broken glass ***** stares like we the **** of the earth Daily reality’s brushed off Cause they don’t affect you Getting killed by people That are supposed to protect you Fear the government Is what they want But we are tired Of your knee against our neck We need to breath and scream And make ourselves be heard When our voices aren’t loud enough Let us hit them where it hurts Our money our pockets We fund them We pay for our own demise So it’s ok to destroy what we create To rebuild what’s out of date Let’s be done being scared And get prepared Change only comes when we come together.
They say time heals all wounds But it’s been ages And my chest keeps pouring out All these ****** feelings self pity, fears, and all the regrets engraved like hieroglyphs In the depths of my mental Just one day in my mind would probably be fatal
24 hours in a day And you couldn’t toss A couple minutes my way I said I cut you off But I stay connected No chords on my phone Always waiting On some type of feedback So I could relapse And play the victim Although I know your wicked ways And these games you play I still love you through the doubts That i am not the only dog You got on a leash.
why am i here? who am i? what is life about? is life a game? is that why i always get played? why am i the way i am? does life have be this hard? how do i make this pain go away? why dont these drinks help me forget? why wont this smoke fog my memmories? why am i a ****** person? why do i loath myself?
Pale and out of reach like the moon An invisible force that attracts me Her fierce blue eyes remind me of the sea like the moon rocks the ocean I feel like her eyes could put me to sleep Like Medusa with a single gaze I’d be hard as stone but I’ll never get the chance to know her I only see her through the glass window But to breathe in the same era And to know that in a lifetime She will have taken infinite breaths And like the world spins round Her breath is out there Taking its course through the cycles of nature The plants will recycle her essence Into new air that I might someday breathe