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178 · Oct 2018
Emotionally irrational
Azrapse Oct 2018
I like you
I want you to like me too
I want to hug you
I want to kiss you
I want to wake up to you
You are the sun
That brightens up my days
I think I’m not good enough
I know there are a lot of people after you
I know they could probably treat you better
I’m not right in the head
I get anxiety attacks thinking about it
How I want you to be happy
And I want to be happy
But I have nothing to offer
But my unstable love
I’ll push you away
Even though I want you to stay
I want you to want me
But I don’t want you to fall for me
I don’t want to hurt you
I don’t want you to hurt me
I’m too irrational
And I don’t make any sense
Would you put up with my demons
Would you stay through my storm
Or would you leave me
To be eaten by my own mind
No one gets me
I need to love and be loved
More than anything.
166 · Feb 2019
Sín ti.
Azrapse Feb 2019
You went astray
Now im sitting ashing bowls in my ashtray
Wondering why the flying ****
I had to let you go away
I guess it was my Philophobia
Fear of love cause love is pain and not even a raging rain storm could wash away the hurt
My apologies if im being selfish
But **** your feeling this is all about me
Can't you see the hurt in my eyes as I listen to your lies and try to convince my self to believe
Always hoped for our happily ever after  
But now I just wish I could forget you a little bit faster
160 · Mar 2020
DreamGate
Azrapse Mar 2020
For a long time now
Life has been like a dream
I go day by day
On autopilot
My life is monochrome
Bland
I feel I am a burden
I try to be of use
Change
How I am
How I act
If life’s a game
I’m not playing right
Am I not good enough
Why don’t my efforts pay off
Might I be vexed
Or am I an omen
My mind is often flooded
With thoughts like so
156 · Feb 2019
Savage
Azrapse Feb 2019
No spoons
154 · Jun 2020
You had this coming.
Azrapse Jun 2020
Silent cries
never heard
Years go by
justice never served
Anger and rage spilling out
Flipping tables on reality
Call us beasts
For wanting to be free
Free to breathe
Because as of late
It’s been feeling kinda hard
Walking through broken glass
***** stares
like we the **** of the earth
Daily reality’s  brushed off
Cause they don’t affect you
Getting killed by people
That are supposed to protect you
Fear the government
Is what they want
But we are tired
Of your knee against our neck
We need to breath and scream
And make ourselves be heard
When our voices aren’t loud enough
Let us hit them where it hurts
Our money our pockets
We fund them
We pay for our own demise
So it’s ok to destroy what we create
To rebuild what’s out of date
Let’s be done being scared
And get prepared
Change only comes when we come together.
146 · Aug 2020
Bloody-mess
Azrapse Aug 2020
They say time heals all wounds
But it’s been ages
And my chest keeps pouring out
All these ****** feelings
self pity, fears,
and all the regrets
engraved like hieroglyphs
In the depths of my mental
Just one day in my mind would probably be fatal
143 · Aug 2020
Love mutt
Azrapse Aug 2020
24 hours in a day
And you couldn’t toss
A couple minutes my way
I said I cut you off
But I stay connected
No chords on my phone
Always waiting
On some type of feedback
So I could relapse
And play the victim
Although I know your wicked ways
And these games you play
I still love you through the doubts
That i am not the only dog
You got on a leash.
Azrapse Mar 2018
why am i here?
who am i?
what is life about?​
is life a game?​
is that why i always get played?​
why am i the way i am?
does life have  be this hard?​
how do i make this pain go away?
why dont these drinks help me forget?​
why wont this smoke fog my memmories?
why am i a ****** person?​
why do i loath myself?​
113 · May 14
Nora Fawn
Azrapse May 14
Pale and out of reach like the moon
An invisible force that attracts me
Her fierce blue eyes remind me of the sea
like the moon rocks the ocean
I feel like her eyes could put me to sleep
Like Medusa with a single gaze
I’d be hard as stone but  
I’ll never get the chance to know her
I only see her through the glass window
But to breathe in the same era  
And to know that in a lifetime
She will have taken infinite breaths
And like the world spins round
Her breath is out there
Taking its course
through the cycles of nature
The plants will recycle her essence
Into new air that I might someday breathe

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