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1.0k · Mar 2016
What should I have done?
AylahHearts Mar 2016
She's on life support, what does that mean?
Does she still have a chance?
How much of a chance?
Was it an overdose?
Is she still alive?
No brain activity?
She died?

I didn't even say goodbye.
I didn't even say hello.
I didn't say anything to her for years.
I couldn't...

Should I've?
Should I go her funeral?
Would it be right?
This was the note from her father: "To all of  her friends,
This is her father. I'm so sorry to have to tell you all that she has died of an ****** overdose. This is the worst news a parent could possible have to deliver. Her mother and I are completely shattered. Please pray for her soul. My beautiful, clever, sweet, and creative daughter is gone. She can only live on in our hearts."
995 · Aug 2016
My Chest...
AylahHearts Aug 2016
My chest spasms...
Tightening vessels resemble bricks
Who knew that memories could feel so heavy
My eyes close for a moment
Flashes of your faces yank violently onto my optic nerves
While my brain attempts to circumnavigate
Turn regret into something easier said than done
My fists clench feeling hot and cold simultaneously
Air rushes into my wrinkled lips
While I breathe NEARLY all of this lingering essence out
Out of my lungs
And I try yet again to return to earth
Hearing an emphatic rhythmic pump
and your well–intentioned attempt to turn words into quietude
406 · Dec 2015
There you were
AylahHearts Dec 2015
Four thousand years ago
It was cold that night
Outside your tent
My star was warm
Now "Here I am"
Its cold tonight
Your star is warm
G:22
385 · Dec 2015
My dog.
AylahHearts Dec 2015
I was lonely so I thought of spending time with you
I was sad so I thought I should go hug you
I was grieving so my thoughts thought of you
But all those led to you
and I can't kiss or pet this candle.
148 · 1d
Dew drops
When the famished sun,
Once vivid, lush with hue,
Swallowed shades that it once knew
The cyan skies dissolved to gray
The emerald leaves curled and frayed.

The rainbows who once arched so long
Became a smudge, dark brown mélange.

For days the sun feasted in muted shade,
Till time unraveled, slow, delayed.

Waiting beneath the blankened sky,
Laid buried seeds, their roots entwined,
A quiet earth with loam inside.

The seeds whispered winds for rain to fall,
Dancing tropic movements to heed a call.

They bloomed to jasmine and crowned the night
A nectar sweet, a bright delight
With petals soft and fragrance shared,
A white fluorescence lit the air.
This is a poem about struggling with hormone drops
103 · Nov 2020
Non-polar molecules
AylahHearts Nov 2020
Like water and oil do we swirl
As my eyes close
Your eyes open
And again we dance fluidly
Nearing
And changing course
The sun sets and you think of me
The sun rises and I think of you
But neither dare to shake the bottle once more

A counterpoint duet
Looping and dipping
Dripping and flipping
Tossing and turning

Finally
An emulsifier

I’ll never forget the time we stirred
It was the moment we both said
“Stop”
At the very same time

But in the end it was all just an intellectual exercise
We could never truly bond.
88 · Nov 2020
Your thumbtack
AylahHearts Nov 2020
Your thumbtack
This concept
This artwork
shakes paper
It’s absolutely beautiful
It’s sensational
It made me feel things I cannot describe
Can I keep it?
I’d like to hold onto it for a very long time

As I daydream about getting down to brass
My eyes gaze at the bare wall
I begin imagining that I am a thumbtack
Your thumbtack
Yes, I did just objectify myself, didn’t I?
But I have these feelings now
Whereas I didn’t before
Because you did not resist the other purposes I felt I had at the time
Leading up to this moment
You never tried to make me dull
And even now, I do not feel feeble
I feel sharper than ever
Sharp enough to be pushed into a wall
Pushed as hard as you’d like
Just to hold this concept tightly
In the same fashion that your arm is placed around my back
And in the way my ******* feel beneath your chest

— The End —