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80
Austin Jun 17
80
To me
You were an ideation
A daydream
Then you became reality
A blissful presence
Then you became a story
One I hate to tell
And now
You pride yourself
On thinking you're even a memory
81
Austin Jun 17
81
Lost in your eyes
Akin to standing
In a field of wheat
The curves in your face
Reminds me of something like
Venus de Milo
I focus so desperately
On things like that
And everytime I reminisce
I get lost just to
Lose a little bit more
818
Austin Jul 12
818
To feign ignorance
That the world
Just operates how
It does
When the signs
Are clearly there
For some
Its coincidence
For others
Its fate
For me
Its numbers
Such as 818
818 is one of my favorite numbers with my one of my favorite meanings.
82
Austin Jun 18
82
I wisheth to waltz
On the lunar sphere
And stretcheth amongst
The stellar lights

Just taketh mine own handeth
Do lie thy headeth
On mine own chest
And we couldst floateth f'rev'r
83
Austin Jun 20
83
Am I enough?
The anxiety crept in
Is this happiness?
The depression slept in
84
Austin Jun 20
84
I always thought
It'd be fun
To survive in
A dystopian society
And then it
Hit me like
An Orwell book
To my head
We already are
85
Austin Jun 20
85
I confess
That the days
Have passed
While I've sat
In regret and turmoil
Don't wanna do this
No more

I confess
Please
Put me to rest
86
Austin Jun 20
86
You
Cover your tears
With makeup

I
Cover your fingerprints
With tattoos

What if I
Just covered your eyes

What if you
Just put your hands back on me
87
Austin Jun 20
87
I can't feel a thing
I hope you're wishing
It was still your hands
Wrapped around my throat
I'm so ******* numb
I hope you're wishing
It was still your body
Intertwined with mine
88
Austin Jun 21
88
I wish I had
The words
The time
The tears
The heart
The will
The love

But I don't.
89
Austin Jun 21
89
Feel like
I woke up
To a brand new car
Only to find out
I'm going to be
Chained to it
And dragged along
90
Austin Jun 23
90
Been so caught up
Trying to be more
Than my past
Haven't even given hope
Or leaving chances
For my future
91
Austin Jun 23
91
Can I be honest now?
Not like you care anyways
Have I made you proud?
Had to sell my soul
Just to make it out
I lived in your hell
Changed and yet I still drink
From the poisoned well
92
Austin Jun 23
92
Shaking like a leaf
In a bitter wind
Trying to just hold on
To what's holding me down
Knowing if I can't
I'll float to a place
I don't know
And just skitter around
93
Austin Jun 23
93
Standing
At a fork
In the road
Wishing
That the answer
Would come quickly
94
Austin Jun 23
94
Afraid of
Losing what
I don't
Have

Afraid of
Choosing what
I haven't
Before
95
Austin Jun 24
95
Can't bury myself
Killed every piece
Of myself I loved
After what you did
It only felt right
To leave you with
The shovel
96
Austin Jun 24
96
Let this be a reminder
That while hell
Is cruel and horrific
It was this world
That made me
As dysfunctional
And disgusting
As I am
Hell isn't my
Designer
97
Austin Jun 24
97
I close my eyes
And pretend
No.
I don't want to know
Its not in my control
No.
You took everything
Gave it all to someone new
No.
You did what you had to
I can't be bitter
No?
98
Austin Jun 24
98
You
So patient
Me
So clueless
Now
The universe
Feels
So right
Let's
Get lost
In
Each other
99
Austin Jun 25
99
Its the way
You turn and look
Straight into my soul
The way you caress
The steering wheel
Like its my face
The way the sun
Seems to radiate
Off of you
And you ask me
"Why are you smiling
Like an idiot?"
Austin May 9
A drunk without a drink
A river with no beginning
A street with no cars or pedestrians
A bar with no patrons
A mountain with no peak
A bustling city with no noise
A fiend without a drug
A valley with no bottom
A beggar with no cardboard sign

I am a -
Å
Austin Jun 25
Å
Sitting here
In a hotel
In Albuquerque
In Awe
Of how we got here
It really is just
A series of chances
Events that dictate
Outcomes
As you sleep
I Am granted
The time to realize
I like this outcome
So far.
The intro to a new series following the Number Series
Austin 5d
Tonight leaks into tomorrow
Waking up with yesterday
And all of its problems
Might deal with them today
Or sleep through it all
Pitifully pleading that
Tonight won't leak into
Austin May 23
The rain
Knocks on my window
Begging me to come on out
The clouds
Hang over my soul
Saying that I'm sheltered

I've become used to
Just enjoying the precipitation
While the storm around me
Does what its always done
Austin Jul 2022
I'm no saint
I cannot capture it
Like a photo
I cannot describe it
Like a novel
I cannot draw it
Because I cannot paint
Austin 2d
Ev'ryone loves the comely words,
aches f'r the disconsolate ones,
Prayeth f'r the gentle,
And taketh the jarring.

Relateth to what thee shall,
Taketh to aught,
F'r coequal if the syllables art simple and plain,
Thy spirit shall alloweth the tongue,
Residence 'long with the emotions,
The thoughts and the instincts.

Thee wand'r in the words,
To seeketh harmony,
Concord in relation,
Familiarity in thy plight.

The expl'ration of if I,
Can findeth aught of this,
In mine own writing,
Remains to beest concluded.
Austin Jul 5
Been underwater
For so ****
Long
Didn't think
Anybody would
Care
Then from
Nowhere you
Appear
In your hands
A second
Chance
Ɓ
Austin Jun 25
Ɓ
Breakthrough
Found at the
Bottom
Or in depressive
Basements
Don't waste away
The days
For a dead man can't
Be saved
Austin Jul 4
Hold me close
Hold me tight
Kiss me once more
To say goodnight

I am here for now
I won't always be
So kiss me once more
Cause you love me
Austin Aug 10
Crucified
by my own hands
Polarized
by my own choices
Settled
by self medication
Debated
by self evaluation
Austin Jul 15
I go from
3 days of a slumber
To pleasures and rage
Hating me but lusting for you
Times of hopelessness
Thoughts of suicide
To gripping a wheel
Doing over 140
Self wallowing
Hiding in darkness
To feeling immortal
Impulsive purchases
And everytime this flip happens
I feel half of me turn and
Look the other way
Austin Sep 14
Everything seems
Too distorted
Too chaotic
Too much.

So I will forget
How to swim
To drown it
All out.
Austin Sep 10
Cannot turn a page
Much less turn the tide
Cannot make a choice
Much less make the changes
Cannot control a reaction
Much less control the emotions
Cannot wait for the story
Much less wait for the ending of it
Austin Aug 27
***** me out
as if i am no more
than a coal
that you're afraid will
restart the fire
you loved the flames
but now that
it is all subsiding
better to stomp
me into the ground
drown me in
water i can't breathe in
Austin Jun 29
Closure
Found in Closets
Full of proverbial skeletons
Or if its recent trauma
I suppose its
Carcasses
Austin Jun 29
You are so
Cute
Cuddlaeble
Captivating
Clever
Compassionate
Considerate
C­reative
Confident
Classy
Consistent
Calm
I Could go on
But you get the gist
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