Who am
to feel
to hurt,
who has things
all mediocre?

Limbo
in class
in life
in heart
in emotion

A passive and empty cavern between admiration and pity
and a lonely unnoticed place.

Insist on things.
For watching is a suffocating place,
It will cage you and beat you down.
Lead your own way
and step into your future breathing the air of
the world you built
Take in the views of your own paintings
and...
Let someone else watch for once.

Why do you think Conversations run shallow in age
and in more age deeper?
Do we hate to feel and then want to feel again?
The endless cycle of passive self awareness
This charged energy who wants to share,
wants to be heard yet hides in a place waiting
to be let out by someone else.

After so many years of nothing
I will let them out on their own again.
Play in the pool and splash around a bit.
I don't know why it took me until now to let
myself get wet again
Marco....

there are too many reasons
to
not to
and I pray
to
not to
and then I remember
i don't.