The last train left 3 years ago
Yet I’m just saying goodbye
On empty tanks and torn down signs
A dead star guides the way

It gets colder the further you walk
You shell of possibility
My tears on your lashes
And every time I needed a hand

Your words have no meaning and I am
drowning in disbelief
Your eyes have lost there color
Everything’s tainted in bleach
Your love has no depths
Continue digging in the ground
I still haven’t slept
Kept awake by your sounds
Drunk off your lies oh how this storm caught me by surprise
It the turn off the tides as I watch my soul die
Now chasing a high because you’ve held me so low
Cold as ice
Cold as snow

I put my cigarette out over my heart right next to where I have your named tattooed on me forever.
A morbid ritualistic reminder of the night where your lies finally caught up, and it’s either up or down again
An even playing field covered in broken glass and selfish mindless actions
Though as my mind races, nothing is even and the thought of glass cuts seems inviting compared to catching you in another lie for this last one crippled me for months as you watched high on the side lines.

I found myself stuck in the trust you smeared and the lies that keep surfacing
The woman I married eye's have turned dark and all I want to do is see the light I fell in love with
A shadow of the love we once had taunts my every beat and I
Feel like dying

Smoke me like your cigarette
Then toss me in the trash
Consume me like your pills
Then forget me as you crash
The moon is now so dull
Those stars in your eyes no longer shine
I took you to my heart
You watched as I laid dying
The last man you loved overdosed
By now I understand why
You give you heart away
The hide behind the blinds
When lies start to catch up
And the truth has gone away
A pain takes over ones body
A voice screams take away my days
I saw us growing old
I saw you as my life
I kissed you under the alter
I gave you all that was mine
When you can no longer trust your wife
The world seizes to spin
All has fallen down
My emotions in a pen

Please cut open my heart and remove any expectations
Every beat I bleed with  disappointment
Every thump reminds me of the promises
You broke
Please cut off these wings and mount them
on the wall
Every flight is not high enough
Every flap is incomplete
Please stop saying you love me when you’realways so high
Every pill you take is another brick
Every brink you place is forming a wall that will one day separate us
Please don’t close your eyes
Every night I fear you won’t wake up
Every time you sleep I’m stuck awake
wondering if this will be your last breathe