I see you dancing in our future as our bodies grow old
I, have married my soulmate
Time has changed
My heart has evolved to beat next to yours, assuring it on every pulse that I will never leave your side
The struggles we faced have become one and with every step I take I fight to make your half feel lighter

Everything will eventually fall apart
You must keep running
Steering towards your masterpiece
The pain must shape you as a vessel that can withstand all the tragedies
Your captains wheel must point in the direction you will one day crash
you must keep running
For all life's tragedies are waiting to shred you apart
To try and misdirect you so that your vision seems impossible
Pain must only be used as another tool embedded in these bodies
For the one thing you are guaranteed is pain
How you handle it is completely your responsibility.
Paint your pain or let it **** you

I hold the mornings like a lover that is shaking from the cold
Thank you sun for always being my rock

I will accept you as you are, for rust on the nails never tried to hide
It was only I who placed pieces over my eyes to make a portrait that never existed
I who dismembered the screams and attempted to make them sound like the rain
loneliness has embedded me tonight in a form so alienating
A sadness has dawned on me like a final goodbye as you pull the cord
I am a mountain
Though even this mountain at times the wind is cold
I can feel it wrap around my existence
Whispering in my ear "you are alone"
No matter how rich love is in your life
You are alone
I see now that everything is an illusion
That the observer is not my mind
That I have created my own hell

Her echo grows further
I am losing her
Or maybe
She's already gone
Maybe she has never woken up in the morning praying I'd leave her mind
Or maybe she has
Sick of running from pain
Tired of hoping you'd call
Why when I had you I didn't want you
And without you, everything feels numb?

Your paints bled together and now all you have is gray
Toss on a little salt and everything will be ok
In the wake of the morning I battle to keep you off my mind
At the crack of midnight it's your face that I fight
The space filled by time has locked a door forever
Chasing a thought of closure
A hopeless endeavor
They say as months pass the pain will go away
Fake a laugh and dance monkey on that stage
Hey facts you got me lost again
Never felt so alone surrounded by friends