Stored in deep within the realms of heaven they lay
Desperate to evaporate and shine one day

It's a great big world
And am just another face among the crowd,
No speciality, none to put me above,
Except that I love you
But when has love ever been enough


You'll find someone else to sing along to the music of your heart
someone that'll appreciate the light in your eyes,
Without letting that brightness shadow her
unlike me
hopefully, she won't have to break pieces of her for you to fit in
hopefully, she'll be strong enough to handle your aroma
and not drown in it
Unlike what I did.


Boy, so i must leave,
not because i love/need you any less now
but 'cause i love you enough to put your wants above my needs.


In order for you to perfect, I must walk away.
To achieve success, one must fail
I'll be the failure.
No big loss,
We all know
Not everyone is meant  for success.
You succeed, I'll regress.
Don't doubt my love,
i'll always love you
Always look up to you
Longingly
But from a distance.

so, while i kiss you for the last time,
i savor every moment.
i fill my lungs with your smell,
While preparing myself for the last embrace,
after you exhaled, i inhaled
that's the only breath that matters,
The only breath thay counts.
'Cause i don't know who i'll be with you not around.

I'm writing this,
just to let you know that i'm leaving a part of me with you
it's yours to crush or throw in the trash
you can treat it any way you want.


So
as i walk out of your door for the last time,
i take mental pictures of your warm smile,
saving them for a sunless day,
Or a night too bright
(he has no clue that i'm leaving)

Fighting the urge to run back to you,
i hear the voices in my head yelling-
no matter how much he loves you,
one day he'll close his eyes and turn his back at your memories
and you'll lose him to someone better suited,
To someone who's not you
i murmur to that voice
love is not about holding on always, sometimes it's about not being afraid to let go


And I let go.

"nothing good stays "
i always did, so that makes sense"
but your eyes were on your dream,
and apparently i was just some traffic
i always knew this was bound to happen
but that does not make it hurt less
you always think you've more time..there are going to be
more hugs,
more late-night talks,
more of everything
but then your world starts closing
in on you
and in the blink of an eye, he is gone..
and your time is over.
all the plans you made, all the promises..
they all get reduced to ..memories
memories that'l lhaunt you down at 2am
and make you cling to your pillowcase
and you'll realise you should never have let him touch you..
'cause
all the broken parts of  you that he fixed
just burn now, reminding you of his absence
and you'll see him, almost everything will remind you of him
the lonely moon, the other side of your bed
one sad songs, or the phone that no longer beeps
or the smell of him on your pillowcase
absence of him will be everywhere you see
time will cease to have any meaning to you
even the best of your friends will fall apart
and it won't be their fault, 'cause after months of not having their calls received ..everyone thought it's better to not call
you think this is it..that you won't ever recover but you would
and when the wounds his sudden departure gave turn to scars, you'll promise yourself that you won't ever love
but darling..you will
he'll assure you that he is different, you'll try not to believe but one day you will
And

**the whole **** will start again

you see, unlike how it's in books, no one here is perfect..we're humans..and a part of being that includes being imperfect. And that no one is purely devil here..or a hero you know..and being a book-lover since a kid, am trying to accept this fact. The fact that the world will never be like the one in my book..not arranged. Out here, no one is a bad guy. Or, a good. Our roles are different in different stories.

I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?"
He said, "Ask anything".


Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
That never rang
And all I needed was a call
That never came
To the corner of First and Amistad


Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me


In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am
Who I'm not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me


Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me


Early morning
The city breaks
I've been callin'
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never send me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all I want


Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Why'd you have to wait?
To find me, to find me

I may hate you more tomorrow , but i'll never love you less
for you're the one person i can always count on , you're simply the best
and everyone who knows us predicted we won't last a sec
it's like we're the opposite end
of a spectrum, yet a single entity
violating the norms of this hypocritical society
simple,yet so intriguing *

And girl , we go on so well together
like bread and butter
like milkshake and cookies
YOU'RE THE MELODY..TO MY LYRICS
and God only knows,
the inspiration behind how many songs!
the ones i've lost
and also the ones i carry in my heart

And without *Nancy(my bestie) , where would Aditi(me) be?
without you ...well that just can't be

you're always sure of somethings,
like the sun will always rise, that's the way you make me feel
you're probably the only thing ..that drags me to the boring premises of dav{my school} (also the fact that 75%attendance is required but you get the idea)

and looking at you , and looking at me ..
and looking at the ****
and crazy stuffs we do and we did
i wonder how effortless it is
how the kind of girl i'm ..everything looks scary to me
but you just make it better somehow ,without even doing a thing
and sometimes, i get this blurry pic of you and I
we're close to being 75**
silver hair , wrinkled cheeks
sitting on a park bench,eating(that's her aka my bestie's favorite thing..eating)
talking about the same old senseless thing
and looking at each other with contempt
and say
"hey ,we made it to the end♥ "

My Epitaph
I wonder how it'll go
or, who'll write it ,
I don't know
But I want you to be there,
when they bury me in the cold ground,
Alone and forsaken
Aloof from your world
A world I could never be a part of
A world parallel to mine
And so I would want you there,
for one *last time
but not with your family or wife
Just the two of us ..like old times
"Just the two of us"man , how come you made a corpse cry?
And I don't know about afterlife
as this is the first time I'll die
pardon my illogical line ,
I did it for a smile
I wish we could die together ,
and have you there by my side
and go through eternity side by side
or be born again ..and be able to make you mine this time
but for now, this world needs your pure soul , and warm smile
so just promise me this ..you won't abandon my grave? (like you abandoned my life)
and visit me ,at least once or twice..or maybe not as you've your own life
(and a family and a wife)
but if you do visit , i hope my epitaph makes you smile
as it'll go like this
"still yours...
here lies the girl who never moved on like you did*"

You look into my eyes and sense something's wrong
i smile and say nothing , it's just not been my day at all
YOU SAY THERE'S MORE TO IT THAN YOU SHOW
I THINK YES,THERE'S MORE TO IT BUT YOU'LL NEVER KNOW

you sigh and kiss my cheeks and leave
i hold my breath and bite my lips
careful of every word i say
never showing how i wish you had stayed
your skin ignites mine wherever they meet
leaving me in a bitter-sweet pain
HOW CAN MY HEART CRAVE FOR SOMETHING IT HAS NEVER SEEN ?

And your warm brown eyes penetrate through my wall ,
through the guards and melt my frozen heart
I CAN FEEL YOUR SMILE SPREAD ACROSS MY OWN LIPS
yet how it tastes , i'll never know
your hands ..i'll never get to hold .

your innocence is what made me fall
but now i see that you're much more
a slash of naughty , a bit selfish
a tinge of darkness in your pure white soul
and the thing thing connects us both --"a sea of crazy .."
IT'S STRANGE HOW YOU ARE EXACTLY HOW I WANTED YOU TO BE

You seem like the stars in the sky,
the moon of the night
the first drop of rain,
the antidote to my pain.

It could have bled forever,but you stepped in,
breathing life into those far off dreams;
starlit eyes, i had not foreseen
just like fresh air ,when i was drowning.
not a desire,but a necessity.

You were my need, I was your want,
Baby, I expected a turnaround
And all my nights were spent
in vain hope of your replies that never came
I loved you with a red flame
your condescending behavior turned it into ashes.

Maybe I was a foolish dreamer, maybe you were supposed to be just a daydream,
but maybe I hoped I would be the one...
.but I became one of the ones

not every story has an end
and i loved you enough to walk away.
i could not make you love me when we were together
maybe my absence'll make you appreciate my love a li'l better.

And I could have wait forever, but it seems in vain,
one and one makes two, but one looks the other way,
and it could have gone forever, and maybe we were meant to be,
but goodbye is now, all I see.

so for now all words have been said.
this is my final farewell.
come ,let the two of us be strangers again.

you creep into my mind,and possess every thought i have.
And it is not like waves anymore, it is always constant

My heart is broken , mind is dead
soul is lost and so is innocence
And Now,it's just too late ,
I can't be saved

I don't know why , confused about how as well
things got this messed up , and now it's too late
the train is gone and i'm left ,
with these memories and regrets

sadness flies away on the wings of time
but the tears in her eyes are like tides
as they stream down her face the storm rages
silent but devastating every trace of life

when the sky falls into the sea
and the atmosphere gets so thick that i can't breathe
when there is no shoulder where i could put my head and weep
when no there is no padre who would forgive my sins
LET A SAVIOUR COME ....LET IT BE ME..

let it be me...let it be me..

when all the door slams close at my face
and the world around me gets insane
when everyone starts to point their fingers at me,
and there is only darkness and chaos within
WHEN THE DEMONS WALK AROUND IN DISGUISE
AND THERE IS NO ANGELS LEFT TO GUIDE
WHEN MY SCARIEST DREAMS COME ALIVE

LET A SAVIOUR COME AND SAVE ME..LET THAT SAVIOUR BE ME

“Dark circles under my eyes sink deeper and deeper into my skull, in contrast to my pale skin; an undeniable resemblance to a FRESH CORPSE.

he likes to creep into her mind and possess every thoughts she has ,
before she could do anything , he is running in her veins ,
He is her sky , moon ,sun and the rain ..
the mere thought of losing him leaves tears on her pillow case

lost they used to be , in each other they found themselves
they fit in together like the missing pieces of the same puzzle (to be continued..)

A part of me wants you gone
A part of me wants you to take me back home
A part of me has died a long time Ago
A Part of me LIVES ..AND THE REASON IS YOU

A part of me knows that life is a road I have to walk alone
A part of me wants you to stay by my side and prove the other part wrong
A part of me is the part I never show
The part which is FALLING FOR YOU

But there is a part so cold
Colder than the snow that falls
On january 4
The part you ignite ,
The part who melts every time you smile
And say
"GURL , I AM HERE TO STAY
FOREVER AND ALWAYS"

I wake up at the twilight
and sleep at the dawn
Time has ceased to mean anything to me at all
A new day comes and off it goes
Like the waves fill and empty the shore
ohh, but I am waiting for the day when it'll be all over


I have not given up,but i give in
I have not died yet,but i forbade myself to live.
I don't allow my mind to wander to the things of past and future
MY HEART IS LONG DEAD,NOW IT JUST PUMPS THE BLOOD ;)


I am the kind of mystery you'll regret to solve
(i am the mystery you'll never be able to solve)
THE CLOSER YOU TRY TO COME,THE MORE YOU'LL FIND THE DISTANCE IN BETWEEN


So.heed my warning.GO AWAY.
Why waste you time over a LIVING CORPSE,A HOPELESS CASE!