Typical love you always leave me feeling this way
Typical love you never seem to stay

In the mist of all this sorrow
My drunken heart begins to wallow
Does it make it easier to feel
Body relaxed, emotions flowing through
like a slow release pill
Used to emotional connection so dull
But now there’s something real
Just when I thought I might never feel
Giving me a reason to want more
But in my own solace I adore where I can reside
My personal place to hide
I’m afraid to give it up
I’m afraid to let another sip from my cup
And taste what’s in my heart

You can say you’re a recluse, you can use that excuse, but that’s not love
You can make things up in your mind,
do what you want with your time, but when it rains it pours
My pain is seeping from my pores
You can have your loneliness, I give up
I had so much love overflowing, but you covered your cup
Confusion in my mind, but I get it, I’m fine
I wasn’t enough to ease the struggles of your mind
Your heart didn’t feel best shared with mine
All the time spent
All the love made no dent
I’ll give you what you want even if it’s not me

Bright lights, warm nights,tan skin, kiss me again
not only lovers but best friends
shorter days
The green of summer fades
leaves decomposing into the ground
I’ll never forget the sound
Of me and you, my heart was dancing to a tune I never knew
But now it’s like the trees in December

In my mind I struggle to understand the depths of my heart and who I am

Feeling so alone and hating to need
My heart is an anchor at the bottom of the sea

I fought for your love when you were afraid to give it
A thousand times I would relive it
Just to have what we do now

****** my heart for your own sake
****** my heart tell me it was my mistake
Let me keep giving cause you know you love to take
Take my body and leave my soul
Still I’m searching for the feeling of being whole
Is all I am a pretty face
A meaningless body you can easily replace
I’m emotionally dead it’s not giving me life
I feel as if the bloods dripping off the knife
Running down my skin pouring out my tears
I’m living in my fears
They swallow me whole  
How can I love someone I wish I didn’t know