Thoughts in my head
Will break me instead
Strong that I am
I am ******
I will always be sad
More tears for the ride
Which I never want to subside
People will mourn
But never feel the pain of playing the victim
And going insane
Thoughts will ****** the sunken place
As I sleep in there
And remove my face
I then will be tame
Of a pest that’s no longer in the game
Trying to chase the fame.
I ******* hate this reality
Rather come join my fantasy
As I take you deeper in
You’ll find the truth That sleeps within
Of a place I do not know
Lust and greed start to grow
Because I’m still the victim
acting insane
While I abduct you
I start to aim
For your soul is already mine
But what is a soul, without mine
Oh how I lost my way, far away
I look at the better place
With smiles , how lame
I drown in sadness but I breathe underwater
Because this is my fantasy
And I do what I wanna
No ******* help , this is my mind and no body else
While I play victim to my own game
I’ll always win no matter who’s to blame
Because In the end it’s all mine ,
bony and skinny
Surpassed all of time.
As my skull starts to conform
To the society
That We call the norm,
My mind will always be dignified
no matter if my body dies misaligned  
My soul will never be there
Lost between somewhere
And nowhere.