Intoxicated, a a pool of madness,
Whispers lure me to your manic hold,
A small cage in a large empty space.
Blind adoration, a spectacle displayed,
Blissful ignorance left my innocence betrayed.

Beneath the surface, empty words now sting,
Manipulation's a dead weight, heavy on its means.
A rigged game, whispers burn, truth to lies,
The crumbling throne, where darkness lies.

How much of my heart did you take?
Used, discarded, such a ragged doll's fate.
Emptiness echoes, sickeningly sweet,
Cold blood now flows, you steal the light.

Over and over, thoughts replay in my head,  
I cringe at the memories of everything said.  
Out of sight, out of mind,
Lies echo loud, barely hanging by thread.
I’ll do anything to avoid,
Being the cause of my own dread.

Unfortunate souls will relate,  
The voices in my head, steady,
whispering,
“Nothing will change.”  
I don’t want to hear it,
No, not again,
Dround it out now,
It's too **** loud,  
Rearrange the facts again,
Makes me look crazy,
All eyes on me suddenly,
Judging me daily.

Clawing at the walls,
as if I can escape,
The lies first,
Then the head games,
The discard and the rest,
Maybe I’m honestly
doing my best,  
Maybe I misunderstood,
You couldn't give
A **** less.


Here i am,
Wasted, and,
Overloaded by stress,  
I am unworthy of you,
Unless I'm at my best.

Another stick in the mud, I find,
Another line read,  just in time
Don’t bother, with your ghosting
Im fine, you're better a loss
A finished line.

Out of sight, out of line, such a silly thing you are; another word must of slipped through those tiny lips of yours; rattle the cage till it stops of course; be labeled as nonsense with so little worth

Keep it trapped deep inside, speaking outloud gets a kick to the curb again and, speak loud now, risk it all, no comfort will come to naughty little girls

Punished for speaking truth to this day, not a soul to listen to any thing I say, why bother now there isn't a use, nobody to listen to tales of abuse

Sweep it all under the carpet once again, reach adulthood in a false sense
Right now your wicked, oh not in this house, punishment will fix you without a doubt

Lying mouths shouldn't talk It never matters what is said They'll never believe such a little liar, words said from a bad kid

Over and over, there’s got to be more,  
Of a person, of a ghost, of anything for sure.  
I was certain I found the one,  
But it scared me to death, now I lay here undone.  

Thinking my whole life’s been a wreck,  
Poking and prodding until you see the bone,  
Digging a little deeper, I'm the sole reason for being alone.
Was it worth the tour, or just pain on the floor?  

Lessen me by all means, leave me in a pile,  
Can’t be bothered with emotions; they stack up quite a while.
Easier to drop me than to face whats the norm
An easy fix, but not your problem I warn.

Ridding yourself of me would solve it all,  
But all I wanted was to stand, not fall.

My mind races, im lost in this funk,
Bitterness lingers, rough on my tongue.
Dry mouth, dry eyes
Look as long as you want,
You’ll never see me out of my shell.
Darkness surrounds, stay trapped in my head,
Stuck with my thoughts, my demons, and my dread.
Never felt so wrong, truth hits hard,
Miscalculations leaving me scarred.
Lock them out, keep them away,
Rid yourself of me as a problem, or hell’s dogs will play.