heavy and hard to breath
confused by longing, love and jealousy
as they tried to squeeze into my heart
weakens me as minute passes

adding the frustration i felt
for some of my messages and drawings
like a reflection in the mirror
just bounces back at me.

frustrated to feel
that my love and care
could not get through her
though she looked at me and smiled.

frustrated to long
for her touch and warm
in this cold winter
when there's a wall between us.

Now I came to understand
that feelings are hard to contain.
only one thing that hinders us
and it must be destroyed.

Determined enough
I punched the wall
she was surprised
then looked like disgusted.

could not understand. why?
i punched the wall again
seeing same eyes
but telling me to stop.

i punched the wall again
i could not feel her presence
i stopped in fear
my fist is still against the wall

my eyes sting
as my heart goes in pain
teeth clenched
as i tried to deny my thinking

could not stop my tears from falling
blurs my eyes to see hers
now i ask myself as i regret to think
how much do you care about me?

i felt alone
how i wish the rumor is true
how i wish i could break this wall
just like the boy in the rumor did

i cried so hard and loud
but no one heard of me
no one even her

it hurts to not know
if my existence still glows
it hurts to not know
if other's yearning for me still  grows
it hurts for the love i could not show
I wonder if they hear my sorrow

Been a while since I sang
Can't seem to wake myself up
Even with the loudest clang.

I'm dry. Imagination gone dry
Fingers, that are itching to tink,
seem too lazy to even try.

Days passed so fast.
Goals set and started
but none did last.

living like a doll
a nowhere man
lying all day, dull

my music suddenly empties
No more hums and melodies
Ever since you took the sun and left

Growing epidemic
No cure for the sick
I believe it's black magic
to make the world chaotic

very strategic but barbaric
watch the flowers bloom so dynamic
different harmonious cries are melodic
what can you do when the owner is psychotic

the world is crowded; need to extinct
count the apples rotting very quick
beg the unwavering fruitful tree to  shake
no blessing brought the mode to protect

Once a peaceful village
where hearts could sing in content
Attacked and abused by drones
beauty and order ***** and destroyed

take your guns and sabers
Today we **** the drones
Ring the bells, use the finger of brawns
Hope the force is with the admins

Witness the dark night sky of the bright sunny day.
See how the devil unearthened his kingdom to collect his pay.
Hear the creepy howling of the wind to make the soul sway.
It's a happy reaping where purpose is to left no living astray.

Announcing to the world of their great pain
Wailed for hours 'til how long their lungs could maintain.
They cry not for fear of death that took their sane.
The fear of dying alone filled their eyes with lover's tears to rain.

She's white and smooth as pearl
Sometimes tanned golden as the sun
She looks tough on the outside
But you'll learn she's soft when she's finally cracked
She's a match to everyone; sausage, ham you name it
Can't wait for morning to make her mine
Yummy!