You know love?
Its ******* *******. Absolute utter ******* ******* that the world feeds you to think that maybe, just maybe someone out there will actually be mine. But no of course not, di not believe in love it ***** you everytime and walks away.

I want him.
I admit finally...
I want him and I dont know how to stop.

Its not the same as the last "loves" that ive had.
Its new.
Its real this time.. and I know it
And I want it, but I dont think it wants me

Hes... perfect.
Everything ive ever wanted.
Its real this time, for me.
And I admitted it to myself, so there isnt any backing down.
I just wish I knew what he felt, if he likes me like he does her.

I understand. Not because you want me to but because in my own way ive been in your place. I know that whatever happens youll be there.

It isnt much and I have no idea what youre going through and I wish I did so I could possibly do something because youre my best friend and I hate seeing you like this and it kills me knowing that I cant stop it or take it away, but one day well get there. You have to believe me and I know youre going through depths of Hell even I havent explored and you dont see much hope or at all. But one day, babe. We will get there one day. And  if you have to move to Mississippi just to stay on this earth, that okay because yes I will miss you. Yes it will feel like I am missing a very large part of me and I will be, but in time it will be okay because I will see you again. I promise to you Angel, that one day we will get there wherever it may be. We will make it and we will thrive, I swear to you.