Thinking.
Driving.
Arriving.
Starting.
Shooting.
Welcome to our little judgement day.

Is the Flower
You've got to let grow.

John Lennon.

i don't get to live life right now.

right now i have to keep all emotions in the back of my mind

right now i don't get to kiss the girl i want to kiss

right now i don't get to love who i want to love

right now i don't get to freely express myself

right now, even though i live in America
    
     i don't live in the land of the free.

     i live in a house full of judgmental Christians
  
     i live in a house that is most definitely not my home

     i live in a house that makes me not want to live at all

i keep my head down
and my mouth shut

and when some looks my way,

i smile, wave, walk like i have life
and act loud and happy