You stare me in the face as you mock my desire,
You laugh as I yearn for the touch from another…
Deep within the core of who I am, comes a cry of who I am destined to be
But SSENILENOL won't see me free.

You poke and **** as at my wildest dreams
No peace you want for me it seems
The walls appear to be closing in
And with an eerie voice in my ear you sing…

Half truths about what my future holds
Lies about what will unfold
So with a smirk you mock my desire
And laugh as I yearn for the touch from another

You hide away in the darkest places
And then appear with different faces
No one seems to know who or what you are
But LONELINESS I've seen you coming from a far.

TOMORROW

Tomorrow I return, to a place that seems forgotten. How will it receive me? I won't know for sure as the script remains unwritten.
Tomorrow I return, to a place that once called out my name, and with joy I'd answer, but now things aren't the same. Through muzzled lips with muffled words my name it whispers.
Tomorrow I return, to a place where I'll wish it was still today and tomorrow is delayed, and though my wish may sound selfish; many would gain…
Tomorrow… if it comes, I return to a place that I now remember...

From the sound of the guns
To the smell of blood
From the screams of the neighbors as the body of their kin hits the ground with a thud...
From men walking with riffles too and fro my backyard
I have seen it, I have seen it all.
Dogs barking in a distance become very near
People screaming and running for their lives in fear...
Schools closed on the account of war
Gangs and law enforcers together in a brawl
It was a lot to see, but I have seen it all.
Who would I become when crime and violence have been engraved in my mind?
When the hate and torment around me is all that I could find?
Not what is expected of me as my environment dictates
But a role model to society no matter what it takes...
Because I have seen it, and seen it all
To crime and violence I will not fall.

So here I lay in my dark cold room, looking at them four walls…
Wondering if this is how my life will always be,
Come home from work, rest a bit, eat something then watch TV…
With No one to talk to or call my own, I check the messages on my phone…
No recent texts except from Flow, and looking on my page there isn't anyone that I really know…
Wouldn't be nice to just have a man around? To chit chat with and turn your frown upside down…
I am nice, and very attractive too, so why is that I don't have a boo?
Mr Right my love where art thou?
I am patiently waiting,  and to purity I took a vow…
Are you not ready to deal with my mess? because I can assure you that I will be at my best…
I really wonder how you'd be, arms so strong, strong enough to carry me… You'll be a good and Godly man that's sent from above, with a heart so big and kind and filled with love…
A provider, a leader and a protector you'll be, taking care of the things that concerns me…
You won't be perfect, but I will love all your flaws,
So you better come find me as that is the natural law…
So here I lay in my dark cold room, looking at them four walls…
Wondering if this is how my life will always be,
Waiting for Mr Right to come and find me.

Hey you, do you know who I am?

No... Should I? Aren't you the same as any other man?

Nah... You see, that's where you have me wrong... For I am the type that will love you no matter what you may have done wrong...

But how can you love me and me you don't even know?... The things that I have done, the places I'd go...

My love is boundless, with it there is no end...

So what do you want from me?

All I wants is to be your friend...
You see, I know you, even though you think I don't... I have been with you the whole time, wanting you to let me in but you wont...

You've been here the whole time and you watched me suffered? Why should I trust you when i believe nothing you've uttered?
The people who caused me pain, my nights in the rain, were you really there to see? So why didn't you show up there to help me?

Times and times again I have tried to help, but you've always rejected me so I sat and watched you dealt...

Who do you think you are to show up now? When I am battered and bruised and broken in despair... What could you possibly want from me when my life has been a living nightmare?

I only want your heart...

My heart? But it's shattered and broken beyond repair...

It's perfect just the way it is... For I will make it new, I will remove the broken fragments and repair it with my special glue...
You may feel hopeless and broken beyond repair, you may have hit rock bottom, but I was always there... Though you didn't know me, from before the womb I knew your name, and though this may sound creepy, the hairs on your body, I have numbered them and none of them are the same...

Why me and not those people over there?

I chose you! and not that I don't love them , but to me you are dear...

But I still don't know why you'd do this for me...

All I want is for you to experience true liberty. For you to feel what true love is supposed to be; to not worry about things beyond your control; to know what it's like to feel whole.

Who are you and would you really do that for me?

My name is Jesus and yes I want to set you free...
Just open  your heart and let me in,
for I will take all you pains and wash away your sins...
On a tree, I died for all you've done,
so the price has been paid for your sins to come.
I love you so much and this is why I came,
so that your life will never be the same.
I want you to live life abundantly,
so that one day you'll share you story.
So will you please let me in so I will be you guide?
In me, all your insecurities you can also hide.

Ok... You win... I am letting you in... I surrender all.
But please don't let me fall...

From today hand in hand we will walk this path,
and your life now has a brand new start.
Things for you will never be the same,
All you have to do is call my name.

In the very darkness there is a light
That though seems dim, it flickers very bright
It shows the things that I wish to share
But the more it flickers, I am filled with fear.

A part of me I wish to give
While deep inside I am dying to live
My flesh so weak but my will is strong
To do what's right and not what's wrong.

Stuck between if and when
In times when there isn't a friend
Then you appear to give me hope
Showing me how to cope

And right through me you obviously see
The true reflection of who I want to be
It shouldn't be hard to let you in
But somehow I just can't give in

Some things still feel obscure
But I don't wish to make a detour
A sense of who you are I wish to feel
To know for certain that this is for real

One should never travel on a one way street
But in the middle the two should meet
You desire for me to move ahead
But I will only walk the path you've led.

Oh what joy it was meeting you,
And immediately I was attached to you..
I took you home and made you mine,
Not thinking I was crossing the line.

A home so grand for you I made,
On perches so high, your head you laid...
Your constant chatter, it made my day,
And the sound of your voice melted my heart away.

Who knew our time would be short lived?
To have you here with me, anything I'd give...
But the world outside is larger than a cage,
And who am I to stop you from turning that page...

Like a sparrow, you took off full speed ahead,
No looking back, from my sight you fled...
Did I hurt you or make you sad?
You were the best friends I've had...

I didn't get to see you grow,
Nor your little ones did I get to know...
I had plans for us to do great things,
But who knew what the future would bring...

So out in the wild, you now choose live,
I hope Mother Nature will be accommodative...
Enjoy your time and make me proud,
And do your best to stand out in the crowd.

Goodbye to you my little friends,
I hope that this isn't the end...
Visit as often as you can,
But if you can't, I do understand.

I open my eyes, and what do I see?
A whole new world looking back at me..
With daisies dancing diligently so,
And heavenly storehouses laden with snow.

The rushing river racing down the brook,
The striped tail bandit looking like a crook...
The sunflower lifts her head to the rays of the sun,
And see the birds playing hit and run

A place so green, I could stay forever,
But a life in the wild would not be clever...
The wet below I wish to explore,
To see jumbo shrimps and a whole lot more.

The heated vents spread their garments wide,
Devouring even those who tries to hide...
A thing so beautiful doesn’t really exist,
But I will continue to dream if you insist.

As slow as a tortoise, the night creeps in,
And the race for light will now begin..
I close my eyes and it’s  gone away
Only to return the following day...

I was shattered but I never broke...
I was deep under but I didn't drown...
I have collected
my broken pieces
so that
I can repair my crown...

Don't wear make-up to cover up your scars,
I want to see you for who you are...

Don't turn off the lights when we make love,
I want to see all of you, the way you were sent from above...

When I saw you, I saw the you beneath it all,
so when you look at me, see me the way I see you.

I thought the hurt was gone,
but it was only covered.
Now the tears are flowing in showers.

Not because your eyes open each day does it means that you're alive...
The moment you start living and not existing; that's when you come to life.

You plugged yourself into me, and like the blades of a fan, you spun with complete force, because of the power I gave to you...
But then you thought that you could do without me and unplugged yourself...
Now, although your blades are spinning, you are without power, slowly shutting down... Eventually, you will be motionless.

No one really sees the real me when they look at me,
They see my smile but not what lies beneath...
To be the example and practice what I preach, the bar they set for me is hard to reach...
No one is always happy, but I dare not wear a frown, even when I feel as though I am about to drown...
It's hard being me and I wish they could see, that not all my smiles are what they appear to be...

I look in the mirror and I ask who are you?
You look like someone I know, but the things you say aren't the things you do…
It's amazing how you tell others it is well and they believe, but those very words to your heart they never cleave… Tell me now, are you really who you appear to be?
Because looking at this mirror it doesn't seem that way to me…
You quickly get jittery when things appear to be out of control, you second guess your God and put a damp in your soul… Who are you really, I do need to know, because the courage you have in that mirror, on the outside it needs to show…
If God said to relax then you need to do just that, and stop trying to fix things because you don't know squat…
Quit worrying about things that are not even here as yet, and give yourself a break, because your best hasn't come yet.

So it was my first time see,
I sat in that chair and waited patiently…
Doing something l have never done before,
No turning back now, I have gone through the door ..

They all watched as she applied the potion,
I held my breath because I chose the option…
Now to see the big reveal
I wondered how my mom would feel…

Ten minutes later and I am all done,
No turning back now, nowhere to run…
Was I afraid or even a bit scared?
Will I be OK, or will they look at me weird?

I was told to face my fears,
To take a chance, to change the gears...
So I will step into the new year,
With my freshly bleached hair!

What if dreams could talk, would you allow them to freely speak?
They'd probably tell you how to get what you truly seek...
If my dreams could talk they would say to me,
Please do not give up on me...

We see that you are trying to make us come alive,
And we appreciate every stride…
But now at a crossroad we are standing still,
And the very things that make us unique, they are trying to ****...

Through disappointments and discouragements we have seen you stand,
And made things happen for us, even if no one gives a hand…
But lately you have stopped fighting, and we feel as if we are drifting away,
So we are asking you please not to stop fighting for us, so that we won't melt away…

My dreams are pleading, because I stopped believing…
My passion for success is fading, because of moments that were disappointing…
Do something, you're giving up on us!
Don't let us die; fight for us, you must!

Dreams deferred due to financial lack,
Broken promises, disappointing moments and views of loved ones’ back…
But who will fight to keep my dreams alive if not me?
I have to make them a reality…

I can't give up even when all hope is lost,
I have to keep fighting no matter the cost…
My dear dreams, I will fight for you,
Because one day you will all come true.

Ever been through hurt and the culprit pretended as though it never happened?
Ever had someone lied to your face or better yet, lied on you and swore it was the truth?
Ever had someone mentally abusing you and made it seem as if you were the one with the problem?
And you ask yourself, are they for real?!
Then you find yourself thinking that it was your fault, believing the lies, or maybe you overreacted...
Nah... It's them... Not you...

My Dearest Love,
Words alone cannot express the love I have for you,
But I will try to say it in just a few…
I love you not because of your physical beauty,
But because of the way you care even when you are off duty…
The light in your eyes that glows when you are around the ones you love,
And even those who may have caused you hurt, you show them love from above.
The size of your heart is like none that I have seen before,
You touch the lives of those you meet from their very core…
I love the way you tilt your head slightly to the right when you are a bit confused,
I am mesmerized by your eyes and lips, you are my muse…
I love the arch of your back and how your legs are slightly bowed,
What I am trying to say is, I love you from your head to your toes!