Kimeisha Paisley

Kimeisha Paisley Jan 2020

M.I.W.

It's been a while since I have written
A year ago to be exact.
Things has been so topsy turvy,
I had given up on writing as a matter of fact.

Not another word or thought came to me,
I lost my zeal as I watched my muse disappeared.
It can be devastating when you lose the ones you love,
But to lose yourself is even more than what one can bear.

After realising that I am my own muse,
And I am all that I needed,
I decided to pick myself up and push with all that I got
I made myself an offer that I couldn't refuse.

Note to self:
Writing is what you do best
So never allow anyone to tell you less
You may feel defeated at times but you're not done yet
So whenever you feel like you have something to say
Grab a pen and some paper and say it without delay
You are too good of a writer to keep your mouth shut,
And even the best of writers fall in a rut
So promise me you will never again put your pen down
Because soon and very soon, for your writing, you'll be given a crown.

Let no one stand in the way of your dreams

Kimeisha Paisley Jan 2019

Get up, don't trip up

If I keep tripping over the same wire, why don't I move it out of the way?
You'd think I would have learned the first few times I've fallen by the scars left behind…
But still I get up, lick my wound and somehow manage to fall one more time.

Is it that I am stupid or just broken inside, that one would think that I like it when I fall?
But like a broken record I am stuck on replay, doing it again and again, not remembering how it felt the last time I took a fall.

Why don't I move the **** wire?! How do l even move it?
Day after day, night after night I dream of a time when I fall no more
But I can't seem to get that **** wire out the door

Why can't I walk another way? How about going left instead of right today?
I see the wire ahead and I know I will fall,
But I just can't seem to divert from it any at all…

Like a magnet to metal I am being pulled in its path,
And I want to break away from it but I don't know where to start
I tried my best but it just wasn't strong enough,
And so I fell again over the same stupid stuff

Kimeisha Paisley Oct 2018

Suicidal Cat

I saw a cat sitting in the dead center of a two way street,
And I wondered what tragedy it would meet...
For no one seemed to care that it was sitting right there,
As they drove pass without a stare...
It didn't flinch a bit as the vehicles passed by, but in my heart I wondered why...
Why is it there? I pondered... Is life so bad that death is the only solution it was rendered?
But then I remembered when I was like that cat, sitting in the dead center of the busy street of life.
Crying out for help but everyone passed me by... On days when I wanted to die...
People have become so selfish and inhumane, only the carcass of the cat now remains...
Why didn't they save it? Why didn't they reach out to others like me?
Sitting in the dead center of the busy street of life, waiting for someone to come and rescue me.

To all my friends out there, I just want you to know that death is not the answer... Search your heart and you will find that there is none like you as you are one of a kind.

Kimeisha Paisley Oct 2018

HEART CONDITION

The eyes are the windows of the soul
you look, you see, and soon you feel
you are drawn to what you see and hope that it will be real.
First sight produces connection, in ways more than one
But if sight isn't returned, what you feel will become an unsung song.

You look, you see and soon you feel and hope that they feel it too.
But when sights collide there is nothing one can do.
Small talks and soft smiles, quiet whispers and silent cries, all evolved from that first sight.
That first sight of love...
You look, you feel and soon you'll see, through the windows of the soul and you separate what's fake from what’s real.

I saw your heart and I've detected how you feel, with a soft kiss you have seal the deal. With no pressure nor force you have opened your heart, to the one you love or so you thought.
When love becomes unrequited and truths become lies, the heart becomes hardened, withers and eventually dies.
Talks become fights smiles become frowns, and you wonder how did it came about. Because you looked, you saw and you felt, what love does to a person for whom it wasn’t sent.

No one truly understand, the matters of the heart of what you love is right from the start.
Instead, you look and feel from what you see, even if it wasn't meant to be. Don’t go chasing love because your heart says so but wait on love to find you and then you’ll know.

Kimeisha Paisley Sep 2018

Where is Mr. Right

So here I lay in my dark cold room, looking at them four walls…
Wondering if this is how my life will always be,
Come home from work, rest a bit, eat something then watch TV…
With No one to talk to or call my own, I check the messages on my phone…
No recent texts except from Flow, and looking on my page there isn't anyone that I really know…
Wouldn't be nice to just have a man around? To chit chat with and turn your frown upside down…
I am nice, and very attractive too, so why is that I don't have a boo?
Mr Right my love where art thou?
I am patiently waiting, and to purity I took a vow…
Are you not ready to deal with my mess? because I can assure you that I will be at my best…
I really wonder how you'd be, arms so strong, strong enough to carry me… You'll be a good and Godly man that's sent from above, with a heart so big and kind and filled with love…
A provider, a leader and a protector you'll be, taking care of the things that concerns me…
You won't be perfect, but I will love all your flaws,
So you better come find me as that is the natural law…
So here I lay in my dark cold room, looking at them four walls…
Wondering if this is how my life will always be,
Waiting for Mr Right to come and find me.

Kimeisha Paisley Aug 2018

The Visit

Hey you, do you know who I am?

No... Should I? Aren't you the same as any other man?

Nah... You see, that's where you have me wrong... For I am the type that will love you no matter what you may have done wrong...

But how can you love me and me you don't even know?... The things that I have done, the places I'd go...

My love is boundless, with it there is no end...

So what do you want from me?

All I wants is to be your friend...
You see, I know you, even though you think I don't... I have been with you the whole time, wanting you to let me in but you wont...

You've been here the whole time and you watched me suffered? Why should I trust you when i believe nothing you've uttered?
The people who caused me pain, my nights in the rain, were you really there to see? So why didn't you show up there to help me?

Times and times again I have tried to help, but you've always rejected me so I sat and watched you dealt...

Who do you think you are to show up now? When I am battered and bruised and broken in despair... What could you possibly want from me when my life has been a living nightmare?

I only want your heart...

My heart? But it's shattered and broken beyond repair...

It's perfect just the way it is... For I will make it new, I will remove the broken fragments and repair it with my special glue...
You may feel hopeless and broken beyond repair, you may have hit rock bottom, but I was always there... Though you didn't know me, from before the womb I knew your name, and though this may sound creepy, the hairs on your body, I have numbered them and none of them are the same...

Why me and not those people over there?

I chose you! and not that I don't love them , but to me you are dear...

But I still don't know why you'd do this for me...

All I want is for you to experience true liberty. For you to feel what true love is supposed to be; to not worry about things beyond your control; to know what it's like to feel whole.

Who are you and would you really do that for me?

My name is Jesus and yes I want to set you free...
Just open your heart and let me in,
for I will take all you pains and wash away your sins...
On a tree, I died for all you've done,
so the price has been paid for your sins to come.
I love you so much and this is why I came,
so that your life will never be the same.
I want you to live life abundantly,
so that one day you'll share you story.
So will you please let me in so I will be you guide?
In me, all your insecurities you can also hide.

Ok... You win... I am letting you in... I surrender all.
But please don't let me fall...

From today hand in hand we will walk this path,
and your life now has a brand new start.
Things for you will never be the same,
All you have to do is call my name.

Kimeisha Paisley Aug 2018

The darkness of light

In the very darkness there is a light
That though seems dim, it flickers very bright
It shows the things that I wish to share
But the more it flickers, I am filled with fear.

A part of me I wish to give
While deep inside I am dying to live
My flesh so weak but my will is strong
To do what's right and not what's wrong.

Stuck between if and when
In times when there isn't a friend
Then you appear to give me hope
Showing me how to cope

And right through me you obviously see
The true reflection of who I want to be
It shouldn't be hard to let you in
But somehow I just can't give in

Some things still feel obscure
But I don't wish to make a detour
A sense of who you are I wish to feel
To know for certain that this is for real

One should never travel on a one way street
But in the middle the two should meet
You desire for me to move ahead
But I will only walk the path you've led.