As the rain leaps from the clouds
I sit here and I write
Pondering all the mistakes I've made and how to make them right
A breath of fresh air and the taste of the delicate mists from the splattering landing of the rain
Are just enough to ease my inner pain.

The ducks on the pond ruffle their feathers
The beauty of nature overcomes my craving for guilty pleasures
I sit and I listen to the rain and the water clash
The sound always comforting, however long it lasts
The night sky is charming as it sprinkles down gently with delight
My mind is clear and my soul feels right

Just to stare up at the sky and envision my dreams
You've got to love the little things

Whose fault is it?
There must be someone to blame
Should I blame myself?
Or start taking names?
For some reason I'm incapable of lending out my heart
Am I more afraid of rejection or of someone tearing it apart?
But what if those aren't the reasons either
Maybe there's a guard up that I need to shed
All I know is I seem to like men for a maximum of few days after we've been in bed
But once that third day comes, I'm as cold as ice
I stop returning calls and trying to be nice

Part of me feels disappointed
I want my money back
I thought *** was supposed to come with true love intact
Two naked bodies colliding
The smell of pheromones
Ah, the temperature is rising
The collision of our bones
The brain is producing chemicals
Pleasure is induced
There's scratching and there's biting
"Hello inner caveman, I don't think we've been introduced."

Maybe I'm not patient enough
Emotions take too long
You've got to find the right words
Pick the right songs..
Maybe bodies get too familiar
Curiosity has got this cat
Yeah, I can be promiscuous
I'm not afraid to wear that hat
A mere infatuation is the closest I've been to having my heart melt
And even then, I wasn't truly sure what I felt
Maybe I'm cold blooded
I chew them up and spit them out
Either way
I'll still be living with doubt.

It’s been a long time coming to face up to myself and discover who I am
I’ve been pacing around being who I’m destined to be and I’m tired of fighting with fate
Who am I?

Long ago, I learned to play games with the relationships in my life
I learned by playing ISpy and not tell my finds
To be quiet cause I think I’m a little ****** in the head and I just don’t find majority the “coolest”
Making me an outcast but I revel in it and it’s the path my spirit chooses
I have Lalochezia
My heart hold nothing but love and the want to help
My brain, sometimes, chooses to live somewhere else
I wish to be friends with everyone
I think sometimes I try too hard
I make an *** of myself
People always use the First Impression Card
I care a lot about the people around me
Though as an Leo I’m very self centered

As a mother now I’ve learned that regardless of any situation I should hold myself to higher standards
So I work so hard to be up and better because of the worry of being seen as too slacked as a mother and I was raised that way
Perfection and silence won’t get you hit
If you do, he will be the perfect example of everything he wants me to do, just the opposite
I ponder that part of me that strives for perfection is the reason people stay away
I love all the different types of love in this world
I’m may even be in love with love you could say
I’m a hopeless romantic and a cynic
A Good Girl and a Rebel Next Door
I want nothing more than to be one with the universe and stars and live within it
I want the Ultimate Knowledge someday
I’ve learned it’s not my choice nor any other man’s the time I’m destined to go
I will be one will the Milky Way someday along with every other dead but shining soul
I am an old soul with a young spirit
I wanna dance naked with my husband when my kids are being babysat
I wanna provide my kids the world and spoil them just because I can
I want to explore and dig my toes in most every Country’s sand
I don’t emit the the façade that I think I’m better than I am
Because I don’t think I am
I know everywhere that I could possibly stand
I crave to meet people’s soul
Not their Sluggish Daily Mask
I know their are so many more out their like me or different
I relish that the opportunities are vast

I am a Judd Apatow Gypsy With An Wolfpack That Loves Love And Hates Societies “Norms” When It Comes To Humor And Morality
My goal is that when you look into my eyes you’ll see this woman typing is truly my reality

Steam rolled off the Earth's lush grass as the morning dew and the sky collided.
I walked barefoot through the field of blossoming trees, delighted.
Wet petals stuck to my feet and the chirping birds sang my hearts song to the breeze.
I made eye contact with you and smiled as the breeze knocked petals from the trees..
So much more delicate and feminine than falling leaves.

We take a step toward each other, suspicious and a little scared.
We take another, then stop; getting better prepared.
The air is full of shimmering specks,
The breeze, the sound of a Harp's strum.
My heart starts racing and my mind is suddenly struck dumb.

We take another step, and we are toe to toe.
You attach your hand to mine, a rush of euphoria washes over me and I know you'll never let it go.
We bring our lips together and the moment that they met,
Something happened that I'll never forget.

A spark ignited between us and engulf us into flames,
Our bodies turn to ashes and the wind swirls them 'round,
mixing them with petals into a neat pile on the ground.
Like a Phoenix, we rose again, in perfect health.
We are stronger, smarter, happier versions of ourselves.

I've become the girl my mother told me to avoid.
I'm the friend you shouldn't hangout with
The **** who can't say "no" to the boys
I make impulsive decisions
My demons and I are one..
I don't think of the consequences, only of the fun

I hurt people I love, simply by hurting myself
I admit I inhaled the drugs knowing what they would do to my health

And for some reason.. I was okay with it all
In that moment, I didn't care that I would eventually fall
I wanted the high, and I wanted the low
I wanted to scream it out!
I wanted you to know.
I wanted to say "*******!" for sleeping with my friend
I wanted to call you a liar and say "Never again."
I wanted to slap that smile off your face and watch you grovel on the floor..
I wanted to.. but I didn't, because I'm the one who is the *****.

I used to give others so much trust,
Believe in every promise they made.
But all the tears have turned my heart to rust
And all my compassion and loyalty is corroding away

Deep inside I feel the innocent girl I used to be
I cry for her, and she cries for me
I feel her reach out her hand into the darkness of my soul
And this time, instead of relying on someone else to grab it,
I'm gonna reach in and pull.
And when she emerges,
that beautiful, caring, loving dove
I'm gonna surround her with nothing but pure beauty and love.

When she was a child she dreamed of putting her toes in the sand
She dreamed of the waves rolling into her as she breathed in the salt of the ocean
She never thought her life would stray so far from her plans
Instead imaginary sand fell through her hands

That sand was her happiness turning to dust that swirled up and blinded her of life's lust
She still cries salt water out of her eyes
And she flows through life like she's riding the tides
She's still an Space Underground that thrives
Though she holds monsters within thats hold answers to questions you wish you hadn't of asked and when they awaken she goes into a storm fast  

A hurricane and water-tornado without even herself being warned
Visiting only her surface will likely leave you burned and scorned
Many jump in to escape the heat but its often terrifying or fatal when they travel too deep
The deeper down you go the more mosters you'll meet
And get pressurized into a place thats cold and dark
Where the monsters stay to feed off the parts of the anger you feel for going in too far

For her monster's know where the sweet spots are and their picky eaters as they feed on the parts of you that regret going in and the parts of you that didn't understand
Throwing their trash and ******* in her hora
Killing her beauty like the dying coral
What she needs is someone in suited in a special armour
Someone who will sink down just defeat the monsters but not harm her
Someone to show her just how vast she is and hows she's teaming with life even after what others did
She is mighty and though she is deep
She is powerful and far from weak
#howdeepwouldyougo
-Taylor Aldous

Ahhhh ahha ahahaha*
*Love.
I sing of love.
Find me and make me whole.
Every man I've called upon, never makes it home.

Beneath the sea, I twirl and hum.
I lure men to the rocks, where I choose my lucky one.

I bathe in the sun, rocks warm my cold blooded fin.
Twirling my long, wavy hair.
I catch their eyes, all they can do is stare.
This is where I win.

They battle to see who will venture on,
Each thinking they are more worthy than the others.
My beauty so entrancing,
It can turn brothers against brothers.

There's only one I see who would be suitable enough for me,
I let out a delicate sigh, no chance his ears wont be free
The men look toward me and then at him,
I just show them my innocent grin.

They send the man over,
Ula, was his name.
He was the jewel to my sea,
And I did not know my life would never be the same.

We laughed and splashed,
Then dove deep underwater.
He caresses me tightly and plays with my hair
Forgetting about his fellow men and his need for air.

Now Ula stays with me, in the ocean deep.
I always talk with him, before I go to sleep.

Today has been the longest day.
Funny, because nothing was done.
I think of all the things in life I've thrown away.
And I'm so happy you didn't let yourself be one.

The big picture is so hard to frame.
Must be it's size, I guess.
Today has been the longest day.
Maybe because I'm a mess.

Cigarettes on my breath,
And a shiver in my sigh.
Thought I would revel in my freedom from all that I shrugged off my shoulders,
But, that was a lie.

So, by and by I wait here.
By and by
Today was the longest day.
Someone help me understand why.

When your eyes drop to the floor.. And the pain creeps within your soul
When your heart cant take anymore..
I pray that the love in my tender kiss will be the last thing in this life you will know.

I will cradle you when you are crying
I will love the fact that you know where everything is in your room, even though it's a mess
I  will cherish the way you kiss my neck..
The way your hands feel beneath my dress

I will fight with you,
Through any battle we face
The make-up *** will be incredible
Reading each others movement's and pace

When you're quiet and your mind wont stop racing
When you get sick of the game and the chasing..
I'll be waiting with some beer and your favorite snacks
I'll give you a massage.. Help you relax

I'll keep your secrets
I'll laugh at your jokes
I'll be your partner in crime
Full of love, playfulness, and hope

You can **** with the door open
Hell, you can even blast me with a paintball attack..
Just be yourself, don't put up an act
and.. most of all
*Oh, please.. Love me back.